Finally, I can breathe... Or so I thought.

The interview that I had today was fine. It wasn't a breeze but, I think I did fine. Well, except for some grammatical mishaps. Argh... I can speak good english naman. But, when I am in such a stressful situation is either I speak my best english or my worst english. Let's just say I was neither but leaning to the worst. Got it? Whatever.

The 3 panelists who interviewed me were Sir Mes, Sir Trieste (?), Sir Ayen (?). I think I am one of the few who were lucky enough who weren't grilled on Anatomy and Health Care stuff. They asked mostly about my personal life, which I am not ashamed to talk about. Duh?!? This blog is evidence that I am sort of shameless.

Disclaimer: What you're about to read is not verbatim. I sort of altered some and I sort of remembered most of the content.

Panelists: Tell us something about yourself
Kaye: I love reading books, watching tv, watching movies. I have a happy family who loves me dearly. And, i have a strong bond with my sister....
P: So, are you the eldest?
K: Yes, I am. My sister is 10 years old. (And, my sister is 12 years old. Totally, mental drift.)

And then, in the course of conversation we landed in this topic,

P: Since your mother is working in Canada and your father is a seaman, what do you do to be the "head of the family"? (Yeah... my english is bad)
K: Well, everytime that the money we have at hand doesnt fit our monthly budget, I make sure that everytime we borrow money I see to it that we pay them as soon as I receive our monthly allowance. I make sure that our house gets paid. My sister's tuition fee gets paid. And, all the other expenses gets paid.

Blah... Blah... Blah...

I personally think that I sounded mature enough to handle the stress. And here is my personal favorite...

P: What is your greatest fear?
K: I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be left behind.
P: What will you do if you have little time to spend with your loved ones because they are leaving you?
K: I'll make the most out of the remaining time and tell them everything that I want to tell them. Like how much I love them.
P: What do you do when you are stressed out?
K: I read the Bible.
P: Why?
K: I feel that sense of security after reading the Bible. I feel re-assured that everything is going to be okay because I know that God is there for me. And his promises makes me feel secured and safe, no matter what the situation is.

And, there are some major screw-ups...

P: Do you know any characters from the Looney Toons?
K: Yes.
P: If you were to choose between RoadRunner and Coyote (then, my face starts to shift from a smiling one to a confused-naive-who-the-hell-is-coyote kind of look), who do you think resembles you the most?
K: Huh? I am not familiar with them.
P: Coyote is the one chasing RoadRunner.
K: Ahh... I am really not familiar. Can I choose another character?
P: Okay. (Sounding like why-did-you-say-yes-and-omigosh-you-don't-know-who-roadrunner-and-coyote-are kind of tone)
K: I am like Bugs Bunny. Because he has this certain positive outlook in life. Which is very much like myself. He ends eating his carrots. (I really think I sounded stupid while saying this. But, I think I sort of pulled it off with my blah english)

Over all, I think I did a good job! Thanks God for everything!

Okay, I lift everything up to God. So, whatever HE wills. I gladly accept.

I realized something. Its never too late for anything. And, I should give myself more credit. And, I am somebody. I am capable of facing anything. Gosh! This interview has taught me a lot.

i am so tired from yesterday's rendezvous in lucena. tiring but fun.

tomorrow is my interview. can't wait to get crushed by the panelists' teeth. they think i'm yummy because i am so transparent and very emotional.

God help!

still in the process of making my wish list...

Before I forget, Martina Hingis was already out of the Australian Open. I'm rooting for Maria Sharapova. And, Kobe Bryant with 81 points. Gosh, I love them!

I want to get back and play tennis with my dad.

I am ecstatic! When I log on to Yahoo! I was super surprised because Manny Pacquiao is on the top of the Buzz Log. He's no. 1. He's the most searched Sports related item. I am super proud. Finally, I a Filipino in Yahoo!

I went to National Bookstore and I saw another book by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. The title is something... something... Memory of My Whore... I can't remember the title but I find it interesting. I wanted to buy it but its too expensive - 900 bucks.

Jeez!

Tomorrow will be the last test of my midterms. And, I am going to have a hell of a weekend to celebrate freedom from midterm stress.

My friends and I are going to Quezon to film our Literature project. And, after finishing that project... Diretso na kami sa beach! Beach nga ba yun? I'll reward myself with Lays and Cream Cheese combo, a new CD, and a new book.

To crappy things, I will be having my interview on the 31st. And I don't have a smart casual attire. I need to buy slacks, long sleeved top with collar, nice shoes, and make-up (hiram na lang ako!). Sheesh!

God bless! God help!

I'm currently screen sucking while I'm doing my reviewer for tomorrow's Microbiology's Practical Exam. Certified multitasker.

I am so pissed right now. Argh. The only thing that kept me sane this week is Manny Pacquiao winning his bout with Morales. Sheesh! I am such a loser this week. I didn't do well in my Battery Exam which, by the way, is one of the deciding factors if I could still stay in Trinity and continue Nursing. I didn't do well in any of my midterms - SHE, Health Care, Physics. And, the remaining three exams, which are the remaining things that could make me feel better about my horrendous academic performance - Microbio Practicals, Lecture, and Laboratory - are doomed to be nothing but crappy stuff that will continue to crappify my life.

Life is a bitch.

God help!

Lost and Desperate Housewives bag the Best TV Series at the Golden Globes for Drama and Comedy. Yipee! And, Felicity Huffman won Best Actress for the movie Transamerica. Yipee! Although my favorite Marcia Cross didn't win Best Actress for a TV Comedy Series, that's fine with me, at least, she looks good in her gown. Haha!

And, Heath Ledger has a poor sense of style as well as the mother of his kid, Michelle Williams. Oh, I don't care. He's still one of my crushes. Of course, together with Johnny Depp. :)

What is it with the Golden Globes fashion this year? I am sort of not into it. Its too... plain, I guess. There's not much bling and most of them are going for the goth look. But, there are still those stunners that are amazingly elegant and beautiful in their dresses.

My Top 10 Best Dressed (In no particular order):
1. Felicity Huffman
2. Natalie Portman
3. Marcia Cross (but, change the color to black or white)
4. Maria Bello
5. Penelope Cruz (minus the zombie looking make-up)
6. Eva Longoria (but, I think it would have been better if her hair was shorter)
7. Sarah Jessica Parker
8. Jessica Alba
9. Charlize Theron (as always!)
10. Hilary Swank

My 5 Worst Dressed (In no particular order):
1. Michelle Williams
2. Heath Ledger
3. Harold Perinneau
4. Emmy Rossum (this gown of hers is a copy cat of what Charlize wore on the Academy Awards last year... was it the Oscars or the Golden Globes? i'm not quite sure...)
5. Hmm... Joaquin Phoenix (looks like a drug addict)

That's about it! I can't wait for the Academy Awards...

I absented myself last Saturday because I was with my sister and I was helping her out with her very first formal party. She looked great, by the way!

Anyway, Tomorrow is the Golden Globes - I think. I'm not sure. I just hope the Marcia Cross wins Best Actress in a Comedy Series. She's just amazing! Everytime I watch her - I always think of her as somebody who just stepped out from Stepford.

I am really looking forward to seeing the awards shows in Hollywood. It is very far from the awards shows here in the Philippines. I mean - theirs is just so full of glamour. Ours, is just full of controversies that are so... so... argh! Y'all know what I mean.

I just wish that one day I'll be there and my work just gets to win the Best Comedy Series or Best Drama Series. I would either be the director, the writer, or the actress (haha!). Well, we really never know. If I weren't any of the three, I would be fine covering the Golden Globes for E!.

Another thing, Filipino celebrities don't know how to wear clothes. Well, except for Cherie Gil, Lucy Torres - Gomez, and Ruffa Guttierez.

Grabe!

I just finished writing 2 comments sa site na ito Kapamilya vs Kapuso . I am so pissed off. Argh! What the hell is happening to the Philippines - the Filipinos. We fight over the littlest of things. For God's sakes! Even the TV ratings! We meddle with such corporate competition affairs that we shouldn't fight about. We don't get anything out of it. The Lopezes and the Gozons are the ones benefiting our own stupidity. Hello? Okay ka lang. They continue to generate a lot of money but, us consumers kahit na supposed to be ay nasa atin ang power, na mamanipulate pa rin nila tayo. Media!

Anyway, the comment that really pissed me off was this...

ETO ANG TOTOO


OO, MARAHIL MAS MARAMI ANG KAPAMILYA.
PANG-SOSYAL, PANG-MATATALINO AT PANG-MATITINONG TAO LANG ANG GMA-7
QUALITY TV TALAGA ITO.
HINDI TALAGA MAKAKARELATE ANG MGA MABABANG URI NG TAO D2 S KAPUSO.
NASA HIGHER LEVEL NA KASI ANG GMA.
KUNG MAPAPANSIN NIO, UNG MGA TAONG KILALANG MATALINO, KAPUSO CLA.
OO, GMA HAS LESS VIEWERS ALLOVER THE COUNTRY. PERO AMONG ALL, GMA HAS THE MOST NUMBER OF RECIEVED AWARDS. AND THESE AWARDS ARE REALLY "BIGATIN!"
MOST FILIPINOES ARE SO CHEAP!
THAT''S ABS.
LESS ANG MGA PILIPINONG MASASABING KAKAIBA. THAT''S GMA.
BUT WHEN THE TIME COMES NA MAGING HIGH-CLASS NA TAO ANG MGA PILIPINO, SURELY, MORE ARE GONNA BE KAPUSO....................
ADMIT IT OR NOT, THAT''S TRUE.........................



SABI NIO KANINA NA SA MEGA-MANILA LANG SIKAT ANG GMA= TRUE YUN
REASON:
SABI KO NGA KANINA PANG HIGH-CLASS NA TAO ANG GMA.............
GANUNG MGA TAO ANG NASA MANILA.
UNG MAG NASA PROVINCE ARE CHEAP!
ADMIT IT. D MAN LAHAT, BUT MOST!
SANA MAREALIZE NIO UNG POINT KO!



I WANT A FEEDBACK FROM ANY LOYAL KAPAMILYA!
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Written by: TRUTH at 2005/12/26 - 09:40:03


The above comment really irritated me that I even posted 2 comments myself. I can't believe myself for doing this.

Eto ang comments ko...

Comment 1:
Kapamilya ako. But, I don't hate GMA-7. I mean - I choose to watch the shows of ABSCBN rather than GMA's because I find them more entertaining. And, the same goes to the loyal viewers of Channel 7. You find Kapuso's tv shows as more entertaining than those of Channel 2. So, what's the big deal? We have the right to choose whatever it is that we choose to watch.

Kaya bati na tayo mga kapuso at kapamilya. Pareho lang naman tayong mga Pilipino, eh. Di ba? Let us stop bashing each other.

It doesn't mean that what you choose is better than the other.

Like for example, kaming magkakaibigan, 2 lang kaming loyal na kapamilya tapos the three of them more-kapuso-than-kapamilya kindo of loyalty ang meron sila. But, so what? Di ba? I mean, okay lang naman yun eh. Hindi namin pinipilit ang bawat isa na pumaing sa isang channel lang. Kaya nga I feel blessed dahil ang mamature naming magkakaibigan.

When they talk of Encatadia or Etheria, we listen. We don't shut them up. When we talk of Only You or Mga Anghel, they listen. They don't shut us up. Dapat kahit na magkakaiba tayo ng mga gusto, marunong tayong i-accept ang sariling individuality ng tao. Na ang bawat tao ay may kanya-kanyang gusto at hilig.

Eh, ano kung mababa ang ratings ng Channel 2 sa Mega Manila? Eh, ano kung sa Mega Manila No. 1 ang Channel 7? Di ba?

So, sana lang ibahin na natin ang attitude nating mga PILIPINO.

Peace!


Comment 2:
I think it is so mean of you to equate the channel we watch to our economic status. That is just so unfair. It doesn't mean that if we watch Channel 7 we belong to the sosyal group na, di ba? Likewise sa channel 2. It doesn't mean that if we watch Channel 2, we belong to the cheap class. That is just so illogical and pointless. (Don't get mad.)

"MOST OF THE FILIPINOS ARE CHEAP...(pero nag-disclaimer ka at sabi mo) DI MAN LAHAT... MGA TAO SA PROBINSYA CHEAP..." (Sorry if I misquote you, tinatamad akong mag-copy and paste)

Aren't you a Filipino? If not, well go ahead and bash my nationality. If you are, you are making a big mistake by saying those words. What the fuck do you mean by cheap? Excuse me, but I am a Filipino and you don't call me cheap just because I watch more shows of ABSCBN than that of GMA.

With all due respect, I don't think that probinsyanos are cheap. What do you mean by cheap, on the first place? Kung ang cheap na ibig mong sabihin ay based sa economic status ng tao, excuse me, but have you been to Davao or Cebu? People there own farm lands which generate millions a year.

Clarify mo muna kung anong cheap ang ibig mong sabihin.

Kasi kung cheap na ugali, I don't think saying, "MOST FILIPINOS ARE CHEAP" is sosyal.

Peace!



Buti na lang may Desperate Housewives!!!

My Digestive System is screwed. I don't know what is happening to my stomach. Or maybe, its not my stomach, its what I put inside my stomach. Argh... I've been having these multiple bowel movements since last December. You see, I think that I have a pretty good digestion because my bowel movement is regular. Regular, meaning I release all my fecal stuff before I go to school. When I do that, I feel secured that I will not release any crap in school. But, behold, my rectum just won't let my shit behave. I should try and go see a doctor. There is something wrong.

Crap!

Anyway, I had another bad day today. The 83 that I got for our Return Demonstration for CPR wasn't really a big deal but, something really happened and I feel bad and ashamed for what I did.

My other HC professor is Sir Uy. He's gay - I think. And, it doesn't really matter if he is. Anyway, I must've caught him in a bad mood because he stormed out from the other room to our room because of what I didn't do.

I was supposed to call out Apostol and Rivera but, I ended up calling Rivera. So, Apostol was clueless that she was next to go. When Rivera got out and called Apostol, the latter was nowhere in sight because she was in the CR, which got Sir Uy irritated because he waited for Apostol for quite sometime which could have been prevented if only I called out for Apostol.

I said my sorry to Nats (Apostol). Then, I talked to Sir Uy. I said that it was all my fault and it wasn't Nats' fault. So, if there were any deductions to be made on Nats' part, I'll gladly accept them instead. But, Sir Uy didn't quite grasp what I meant. Jeez! Lord, please let him know what I meant by what I said.

Communication. Such a vital thing.

So please, my dear rectum cooperate.

To my disappointment, my 2 recent DVD Series purchases - which are pirated, lacks 2 CDs. I think I get it now. These DVDs are just recorded from the TV and then they save it to DVD format. Then, they sell it to people like me who doesn't have enough money to invest in original DVDs. Oh, I wish that someone would buy me original DVDs.

I once again indulged to my secret pleasure of buying pirated DVDs of my favorite TV series. Of course, I am not proud of what I did - buying fake stuff, but I won't blame myself. Anyway, I bought Season 1 of Charmed which costs 420 bucks, Season 2 of Desperate Housewives, and Season 2 of my favorite Lost. I can't wait to see all of it. Grabe!

Hmm... Di ko pa rin nabibilhan ng gift ang sister ko ng Uno Stacko(?).

What did you do in 2005 that you've never done before?
I was able to eat California Roll and drink Margarita.

Did you keep your New Year's resolutions and will you make more for next year?
No. Definitely not. I was at my worst last year.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope.

Did anyone close to you die?
Somebody close to me had somebody close to them died. So, no.

What countries did you visit?
None. Next year, sana.

What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Patience. Self-confidence.

What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
December 18 - 30. These were the days that I spent in Davao mostly, with my relatives on my mother's side. Grabe! Truly an unforgettable experience.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Hmm... I actually think that I didn't achieve anything. Siguro, traveling without my parents. Yun na siguro.

What was your biggest failure?
I am a failure the past year.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
No. I don't think so. Asthma attacks paminsan.

What was the best thing you bought?
The best thing I bought? Hmm... Books.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My mother. I can't imagine how she could handle the holidays without us. Its been 3 years - I think.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My behavior.

Where did most of your money go?
I don't want to know.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Christmas in Davao.

What song(s) will always remind you of 2005?
My Humps by the Black Eyed Peas, Because of You by Kelly Clarkson, Stickwitu by Pussycat Dolls, and Luxurious by Gwen Stefani

Compared to this time last yar, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? -- pweh! fatter
iii. richer or poorer? -- poorer

What do you wish you'd done more?
Read the bible. Exercise. Studied more.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Eating. Sleeping. Complaining.

How many one - night stands?
None.

What was your favorite TV program?
Definitely, LOST.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
None.

What was the best book you read?
Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hmmm... I don't know. I rediscovered The Corrs.

What did you want and get?
A new bible.

What was your favorite film this year?
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants.

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
I turned 17. And, I didn't do much.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Di ko alam. Wala. Even if this year sucked, I like it just the way it was.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Umm. same ol' pambahay garb.

What kept you sane?
Writing.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmm... Oprah. Definitely, Oprah.

What political issue stirred you the most?
The GloriaGate and Spying issue.

Who did you miss?
I miss my mother.

Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm... New person? Kuya Randy - Ate May's boyfriend. He's not talkative but I could talk to him naman.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
FAMILY is so importane in my buhay. And, your buhay!

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
Aeda said something and that really made me feel better.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
December 30 when we left Davao.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
Hmm... My being funny.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
What did I not hate about myself.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
With a Smile...

Was 2005 a good year for you?
Every year is a good year.

What was your favorite moment?
Christmas in Davao. Pearl Farm!

What was your least favorite moment?
Times when I feel bad about myself.

Where were you when 2005 began?
Sa bahay

Who were you with?
Yaya and Kamille

Where were you when 2005 ends?
Sa bahay ulit

Who were you with with 2005 ended?
Papa, Kamille, Yaya

Do you have a NY's Resolution?
Yes.

What was your favorite month?
March, December

Did you lose asnybody close to you in 2005?
No.

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes.

What was your favorite record from 2005?
Unplugged ni Alicia Keys

How many concerts did you see?
None.

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
No. Minimal lang. Actually, around 5 sips lang.

Do a lot of drugs?
No.

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Meron.

How much money did you spen in 2005?
A lot.

What was your proudest moment?
Di ko alam.

Most embarrassing moment?
Nahulog sa Eden.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
Hmm... Don't really know.

What are your plans for 2006?
I still don't know. I would accept whatever it is that's in store for me.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I'm better. I know I am better in a lot of things. And, I'll strive to be the best that I could be!

What are your wishes for the new year?
Peace on earth. Better governance from the government. Abolish poverty. More money. Better health. Better me.

What did you like most about yourself this year?