my silent soul bares it all

Michael Jackson Tribute

2009-07-08T09:10:00.001+08:00

101 Reasons

2009-05-06T12:06:00.000+08:00

ANOOP DESAI. why do we love thee? - ANOOP DESAI

Green It. Mean It. Anoop It.

2009-04-19T09:48:00.000+08:00

Discrimination and Patience

2009-04-13T18:34:00.003+08:00

Girl went with friends to a party. Girl's friend said some news. News: Girl's friend said that his friend didn't get the job. Girl was sad. The reason why: He was fat. Girl wondered, what about me? I'm fat. But I lost weight. Still fat. But still losing weight. Does it account for anything?

Girl and friend went to look for a job. The girls were made to wait for an hour on the first institution. Girl and friend went to a bank. Girl made a transaction. They were made to wait, again. This time for more than an hour. The girls went to another place. They were interviewed. But the interviewer said that they'll call them. Waiting again.

iTunes Addition

2009-03-30T13:21:00.006+08:00

The iTunes store is such an addicting place. I feel like everytime I turn on my laptop, there's an urge to buy some new tunes. I started becoming a member early this March and I have spent around US$ 35. Well, technically, I just spent US$ 20 since my very generous aunt gave me an iTunes gift card worth US$ 15.

Here are some of the stuff that I bought and I am enjoying them a lot:

Boxing Match: Pacman and ABS-CBN

2009-03-28T17:14:00.003+08:00

I feel so stupid for doing this entry but I feel so strongly about this issue that I just feel that I need to vent out my feelings regarding this.

I am sorely disappointed with Manny Pacquiao and ABS-CBN regarding the boxing rights issue. I am upset that ABS-CBN would go to such lengths just to get the boxing rights for the Pacquiao-Hatton fight. That's, of course, based on Pacquiao's statement. Believe it or not, during Pacquiao's fight against Oscar DeLa Hoya, I believe that ABS-CBN correspondent, Dyan Castillejo, did a far more superior job covering the whole fight than GMA's. I am just saddened by the insinuation that ABS-CBN did malicious tactics in order to get the boxing rights.

Next, I am flabbergasted by Pacquiao's decisions. Its all too confusing and stupid! If he weren't satisfied by GMA-Solar coverage of his fights, he should've talked to them first and not resort to switching channels right away. It's stupid and its annoying.

My advice to Pacquiao: Have legal advisors that are smart and that you could trust so that you could consult with them and you don't have the public dragged into this mess. Pacquiao, I believe has single-handedly, widened and intensifed the network wars in the Philippines. And that ticks me off, more than I hope it would be. Argh!

My advice to GMA-Solar: None. I am glad you fought for your legal rights. Pacquiao's mind has been so messed up. Maybe Hatton is getting to him. LOL

My advice to ABS-CBN: Don't fix what's not broken. I believe you have excellent news delivery and your sports anchor, Dyan Castillejo, did an awesome job covering Pacquiao's previous fights. Because of this, you managed to destroy which is a seemingly great rapport between Dyan and Manny. Tsk. I am so dumbfounded by such stupidity. You have got to redeem yourself in some way. I don't know how.

Having said all of this, I am going to read about Manny's fight instead of watching it in either Solar or GMA. :-p

Forgive this entry especially my sentence construction. I am doing other things as I write this.

Inspired by the Slums and the Dog

2009-03-03T19:48:00.002+08:00

So, here I go again. I made a new gif inspired by Slumdog Millionaire and Anoop Desai. I think that this is too simple compared to the first one I made, but I like it.

Skins

2009-03-03T12:36:00.006+08:00

Three days left before the Wild Card show. I am anxious to see whether Anoop gets in. I have a feeling that he will make it but I also felt the same way the day he got cut. So, everything is still up in the air.

Right now, I am having Dev Patel and Anoop Desai cravings. LOL. So, a trusted friend, YOUTUBE, satisfied some of my cravings. Hehe. I am in dire need of anything related to Anoop and Dev. Good thing I came across this video from the official website of Skins. The TV series, Skins, was originally shown in the United Kingdom. It looks like it is a really fun, teen, drama, comedy show. Raters even said that its way better than The OC and Gossip Girl (IMO, GG is not really that good. Its just quite nice.). And of course, Dev Patel stars in this highly rated show.

The following clip contains some strong language. Be warned.

I wish for an iTunes account so I could download the whole season.

Anoop Time!

2009-02-26T15:55:00.005+08:00

I just got home and I was tinkering with this program called Photoscape. My sister said last night that this could help me make a gif. So, I made one. Its not fancy. Its very simple but it gets the message straight and clear.

Life's Soundtrack

2009-02-23T11:09:00.002+08:00

I got this from my friend Arjei. I think this could be fun. Try this!

1. Put your mp3/iPod/iTunes on shuffle

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?

On Bended Knee by Boyz II Men

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

Canned Heat by Jamiroquai

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Say My Name by Destiny's Child

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Beautiful Day by U2

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

I Still Ain't Over You by Augustana

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Anytime You Need a Friend by Mariah Carey (ahww...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Keeps Gettin' Better by Christina Aguilera

WHAT IS 2+2?

Why Do I Feel So Sad by Alicia Keys

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

How Do You Keep The Music Playing by James Ingram

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Welcome to Hollywood by Beyonce

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Indiana by Jon McLaughlin

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

I'll Be There by Mariah Carey

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Put Your Records On by Corinne Bailey Rae

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face by Celine Dion

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Will You Marry Me by Vonda Shepard

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Meant To Live by Switchfoot

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Still After You by Earth To Andy

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

7 Things by Miley Cyrus

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Now You Tell Me by Jordin Sparks

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?

Stop and Stare by One Republic

HOW WILL YOU DIE?

Stars by Simply Red

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?

Halo by Beyonce

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?

I'll Stay by Augustana

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?

Australia by Jonas Brothers

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?

I Hate Everyone by Get Set Go

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?

Nothing Lasts Forever by Maroon 5

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?

Lovestoned - I Think That She Knows by Justin Timberlake

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?

Please Forgive Me by Bryan Adams

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?

Shattered Glass by Britney Spears

AI Campaign: Anoop Desai's Angel of Mine

2009-02-21T11:27:00.007+08:00

If you still don't have a copy of Anoop Desai's Angel of Mine, please download a copy at iTunes it only costs $0.99. If you do have a copy, then 'gift' it to your friends.

Early Birthday Present

2009-02-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

My birthday is not until March but, someone already gave me a present. And, I am ecstatic about it. I am totally floored, dumbfounded, and excited about this gift.

I e-mailed my cousin in Canada, Ate Joanne, to buy me a song from iTunes. I thought that it was worth the try. There's no harm in trying. I wasn't really expecting any reply because they have their own lives and I understand that they are busy but, I was wrong. I received an e-mail from her the following day and 'gifted' me Anoop Desai's Angel of Mine. I was thrilled when I received the e-mail. Words cannot express how receiving this music was so euphoric. It felt like I was high or something. And, I am not exaggerating.

Thank you again Ate Joanne for this early gift.

Because of the fact that Anoop Desai was eliminated last Thursday, here is another Anoop video to satisfy your, well, my craving for more Anoop Desai. This video is of Anoop and the UNC Clef Hangers. They're singing I'll Make Love To You by Boyz II Men. Go ahead and melt. (WTH?)

Anoop's Angel of Mine

2009-02-19T08:24:00.002+08:00

This video grabbed from YouTube was Anoop Desai together with the UNC Cleff Hangers singing Angel of Mine. I think this one's better than last night but nevertheless, his performance last night was still one of the better ones.

American Idol Season 8: Group 1 Performance Night

2009-02-19T08:12:00.002+08:00

I was really disappointed last night when I saw Group 1 perform last night. I was expecting a lot from them and they failed to deliver. Here's what I thought about their performances:

Jackie Tohn :: She's an entertainer but I think she's over the top. She has a good voice but sometimes, its shrieky. Her movements on stage are distracting me. 5/10

Ricky Braddy :: His facial expressions were distracting me - it's off. He has a great voice but Elliott Yamin's version of this song is a whole lot better - its very difficult to even come close. I agree with Simon that he has no star quality - YET. I don't understand why everybody is going crazy with his performance. I agree its way better than the average but I can't seem to connect with him. 6/10

Alexis Grace :: I think it was the wrong song for her but she definitely could sing. She needs to build her stage presence but, she nailed it! It was for me the start of Season 8. 7/10

Brent Keith :: He's a cutie. I was not feeling it but has potential; I think it is forgettable. I agree with Kara that it was very safe. Simon was so on point again with his comments with this man. 6/10

Stevie Wright :: Her nerves definitely got the best of her. It was the wrong song for her and she totally ruined the song. She was just all over the place. She's very awkward on stage. On a more positive note, I admire Stevie's composure during the whole time that the judges were giving their comments. If I were in her position, I would've cried all the way to the red room. 1/10 (Primarily, for the effort.)

Anoop Desai :: The background singer was horrible. Anoop was great! Out of all the singers today, he was the only one that I had a connection with. There were sharps but it was forgivable. He's very likable and charming. He has this extra something. I don't know what it is. As for Kara saying that he doesn't think Anoop has the chops to carry the riffs and everything, I totally disagree. Maybe some Brian McKnight next time. 7.8/10

Casey Carlson :: Again, wrong song. She definitely fell flat. It was not good. I was cringing the whole time she was singing. 1/10

Michael Sarver :: I like this guy but he wasn't that good tonight. But it was definitely better than most of the girls. 6/10

Ann Marie Boskovich :: She's pretty and I really like her. It was better than I expected but it was all over the place. She has great potential but the song was too big for her. 4/10

Stephen Fowler :: Wrong song! His voice was definitely wasted on that song. He should've sang maybe a Stevie Wonder or any song other than that. Very pitchy. Paula was right, singing that song was the kiss of death. 4/10

Tatiana Del Toro :: Surprisingly, it was better than I expected. Weak start. She could sing but again, wrong song. When will they ever learn that Whitney Houston's songs are only for Whitney Houston? Her dress was very blah. I sort of missed the old Tatiana who is loud, funny, and sometimes irritating. 6/10

Danny Gokey :: His performance was the best of the night but it wasn't his best. He definitely could've done better. He really reminds me of David Cook - you know, a little bit cocky but could definitely be backed-up by his singing. As much as I like this guy, the three judges over praised him. I didn't feel the song as much as I felt Anoop's but, technically, he was a better singer than everybody else for the night. 8/10

Cetified Anoop Trooper!

2009-02-18T14:30:00.002+08:00

I've been checking out everything about Anoop Desai for the past 3 hours and I am really a fan of this guy. If you're watching American Idol Season 8, then you should've seen how good he really is. I can't wait to see him perform tonight. So, please watch American Idol later at Star World at 6:00 PM.

By the way, here's a video of Anoop with his group (the UNC Clef Hangers) covering Brian McKnight's The Only One For Me. I wish the video was better but the audio can't lie. This guy is amazing. He has a great voice. Plus, he's hot in a geeky sort of way.

Boyce Avenue in Manila

2009-02-15T19:40:00.006+08:00

When my sister told me last week that Boyce Avenue is going to perform here in Manila, I became ecstatic. See, I am in love with this band and I think that they are one of the many "undiscovered greats".

Anyway, last Friday, I came to see them in MOA and sadly, we didn't get good seats because we arrived at around 6 PM. We didn't get to buy the first 100 CDs which I think entitles the buyer to a good seat plus a meet and greet. It sucked really because I had a lot of stuff with me and there were a lot of people there.

My sister and I together with her um, suitor were waiting for the band and we didn't have horrible 'seats'. It was relatively close to the stage.

Joem, Kamille, Me

Alejandro Manzano

Daniel Manzano

They sang all of my favorite songs. They looked great and they sound even better. Everybody, especially those who knew about them already, were going crazy everytime they sing their songs. My favorites were Bleeding Love, Sweetest Girl, Wonderwall, Change Your Mind, All The While, Hear Me Now, Find Me.

I hope that they do another concert here - in a much bigger venue. I will pay.

Roger and Rafa: Definitely Not Over

2009-02-02T16:44:00.003+08:00

Last night's Australian Open Men's Singles Championship left me dumbfounded and amazed. It was the match that everybody was waiting for. I was praying that Roger and Rafa are going to meet at the finals but the way things ended was definitely not the one I had in mind.

Rafael Nadal, the world's top seed, bested his tennis rival, world no. 2 Roger Federer in the hard court of Melbourne. Rafa was just unstoppable in spite of the additional 24 hours lead time that Roger had. The Spanish warrior just keeps on making impossible shots but, Roger also showed great tennis during the second and fourth set which, he won. Rafa was just faster, and a better tennis player last night.

As I watch the re-runs right now, I am still hoping that somehow, the ending would just be different. I love Roger and it sucks that he lost. The Swiss gentleman just wasn't his perfect self last night. He's got a lot of errors. There were a lot of double faults. His service wasn't great although, he managed to pull off around 8 aces. But despite Roger's best efforts, Rafa's fire keeps on getting hotter.

During the awarding ceremony, Roger couldn't contain himself and began sobbing. It definitely hurt. First, the Wimbledon and now, Australia? It definitely hurts. I feel for him and I cried with him last night. "God, it's killing me," says Roger as he takes the stage to address the crowd. The feeling of defeat just overwhelmed him but being the champion and the fighter that he is, it seems that this was just a setback that I am sure he could come out of. "See you next year!"

We will see you again Roger! We will see you back on top!

During the whole match, I can't help but think of Rafa as a school bully who keeps on grabbing the ice cream of the nerdy kid - Roger. The nerdy kid tries to destroy the bully but he just can't. Not in 'highschool', but maybe in college. Maybe in the next major grand slam, Roger can redeem himself. I believe that he could. I believe that Roger could turn back the tables to the way it should be - with him on top.

We will see you again Roger! We will see you back on top!

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This is definitely not the last time that the Spanish warrior and the Swiss gentleman will see each other in the finals. The French Open is the perfect place for redemption. I hope that Rafa and Roger will see each other in the French Open and Roger breaks Rafa's reign as King of the Clay.

Running

2009-01-17T18:14:00.002+08:00

Finally, I was able to do what I've been procrastinating for, for days. I was able to wake up at 5:30 in the morning and I was able to jog - well, not really jog - power walk at CCP.

Yaya and I walked from the house to CCP. That took about 7 songs. When we reach the CCP, I started treading the uphill route. It was really difficult and I wasn't even running. I was just walking.

I just hope I could do better next time.

Glory to GOD!

2009-01-13T18:07:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my initial exam in St. Luke's Medical Center. My chances of passing the exam seem to be grim since two of my friends who took the exam failed the test. But, of course, I was keeping my hopes up and I believe that I have the chance to make it.

The day before I said to myself that I would wake up at 7:00 AM so, I have ample time to prepare and I have more than sufficient time for travel. But being the slacker that I am, I came to SLMC, 15 minutes late. Good thing though, it really didn't matter. I was able to take the exam.

The test was a mental ability exam. There were 57 items and we were only given 15 minutes. The first part of the exam was sort of easy but the second part was difficult. Actually, it really wasn't difficult but maybe if there was another 15 minutes, I would have answered everything. Or maybe not.

I was pretty confident during that time. I wasn't confident with myself but I took comfort in the fact that whatever happens, I know that its part of God's amazing plans for me.

After we took the exam, the HR proctor left us inside the room because he had to check our papers somewhere else. When he returned, he called three names. He called this guy, then this girl, and he called my name. When I heard him call my name, I was really anxious to find out whether the three of us passed. And we did. The good LORD let me pass.

Thank you GOD! Thank you SO much for this blessing.

One thing I learned from this whole experience is that the LORD knows what he's doing. In spite of everything being shady and grim at the beginning of my day (me being late, the thought of my friends who were unsuccessful in the initial exam), the LORD turned everything for the better. He's such a good GOD. Thank you LORD!

This victory is not mine but is yours.

Resolutions

2009-01-07T16:41:00.002+08:00

It's time for my 2009 resolutions. I am praying that I will be able to do all of this. Hay...

Fitness Goals:

Be able to exercise everyday. I should follow my work-out plans as scheduled.
Write and update my fitness journal regularly. That means that I should be able to
I should be able to lose at least 30 lbs every four months - that is on the last day of April, August, and December. I should be able to lose a total of at least 90 lbs by December.
I should undergo my regular medical check-up and have my BP, total body fat, cholesterol, HDL, LDL, TSH, and blood sugar checked every four months, as well.
My BMI should be on the normal level. My BMI shouldn't exceed 24.

Career Goals:

Find a job as a nurse in either of the following hospitals: St. Luke's Medical Center, Makati Medical Center, The Medical City, Asian Hospital and Medical Center. Even better if I could find a job in NY.
Complete my IVT training requirements.
Attend at least five seminars.
Attend a BLS, ACLS, PALS training before the year ends.
Be able to pass the NCLEX and IELTS with a very high score.
Review for the said tests diligently.
If the Philippines is till plagued with the retrogression thingy and the said hospitals are not yet hiring by May, I would apply for a call center job just to earn money.

Financial Goals:

I need to save at least Php 24,000 by the end of 2009.
I should open a time deposit account by June with at least Php 10,000.
Start another online business venture before July and earn money from it.
When I get hired, I need to save half of my salary.

Personal Goals:

Continue doing my daily devotionals.
Memorize at least four bible verses every month.
Keep 'verse cards' to help me remember.
Stop using the words bitch, fuck, shit. Stop cursing, in general. (Although, I really don't curse, a lot.)
Throw the trash every night.
Start a new blog.

2008 Year-End Rundown of Questions

2008-12-30T20:00:00.003+08:00

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
I really can't think of anything. I just realized I didn't do anything new and exciting. That's not cool. Oh, well. Oops. I just realized just now, 8:59 PM, that I did something new. I've tried online business. I baked this year. I baked from scratch. I made my own money (from the garage sale) and spent it all.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Surprisingly, I have kept some of my New Year's resolutions. I'm currently looking at my planner (the 2008 Belle De Jour Planner) and I am really thankful that I was able to achieve some of it.

Here are the goals that I've set for myself:

Have a job as a nurse/Be a nurse at SLMC, MedCity, etc. - Not YET done! Finding a job as a nurse is quite daunting. But, I have faith that I will find one this new year.

Help in paying the utilities - Since I don't have a job and I got turned down in People Support (because I wasn't accepting a salary lower than Php 16,00), I really can't help in paying the utilities.

Be a Board Top Notcher - I am not a topnotcher but I DID PASS the Philippine Nursing Licensure Examination which is an amazing feat itself. I was really ecstatic when my cousin called me to say that we passed the exam. I am now a registered nurse of the Philippines! Woohoo...

Pass the NCLEX, CGFNS, IELTS, TOEFL - Gosh! Processing my papers would take at least 9 months. So, I believe that by the end of this year, I will be able to pass the NCLEX, CGFNS, and IELTS.

Read books - Well, I didn't read the books that I wrote here but I read books this year which is better than what I did last year. I read Alan Corey's Millionaire by Thirty, Bill Clinton's Giving, James Patterson's Along Came a Spider, and 13 Chapters of Stephenie Meyer's Twilight. The best book among the four for me is the one by Alan Corey. I suggest that you go buy and read it.

Read the BIBLE everyday - I thank GOD for letting me read the whole Bible. Well, by tomorrow I would only be around 10-15 chapters short. I failed to read my Bible selections during our Liliw immersion. But, I am really happy that I got to read about 95% of the Bible. I feel truly blessed. And, it really was a blessing. God's Word came at the right time. He really knows what I'm going through and I feel his guidance. Thanks talaga kay LORD!

Exercise, Lose at least 4lbs/month, Stop impulsive eating - I was faithful to these for about 5 months and then I fell from the wagon. Very Oprah! Haha. I even lost 20 lbs during my 5 months of faithful exercise, and mindful eating. Even though, I'm back to my original weight I am not that hard on myself. I actually feel a bit better because I realized that I could do it. If I had done it for 5 months, I could surely do it again but this time, I will not gain the weight back! I really have faith in myself and with GOD.

Have a semi-annual check-up - I only did this once. So, maybe... It's a half-done resolution.

Save at least Php 4,000 a month - I wasn't able to do this. Too bad. But, at least my new account is still active. And right now, I have Php 4,000 in my bank. Hehe. I read or heard somewhere that in order to be great, one must have a horrible start (or something to that effect). Php 4,000 will become Php 40,000,000. I know I could do it.

Stop cursing, Stop using the words b!tch, f^ck, Sh!t - I did not fare well on this resolution. I really have to watch my mouth more this coming year.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes. My friend Shyn and her hubby Boo gave birth to a super cute baby girl named Raziella Therese a.k.a. Tetet. She's my inaanak and I am a very terrible godmother. I promise I will make-up for it on her 1st birthday next year. Promise!

Did anyone close to you die?
Nope. Thank God.

What countries did you visit?
Nada.

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
I would like to have more motivation/inspiration for the coming year. And, I hope that my good outlook continues. Positive thinking does a lot for you.

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
June 1 and 2. The Nursing Licensure Examination. Its one of the most tiring and very anxiety-filled days of my life.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Being a registered nurse of the Philippines. I am a professional. This is it! I am really an adult now.

What was your biggest failure?
Biggest failure? Hmm... I really can't think of any. Maybe the fact that I 'half-reach' some of my goals. But I am looking at it at a positive light because if I could do it once then. I could do it again.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Maybe the last cold I got this December. It was a really terrible cold. I even have trouble breathing at night because my nostrils are filled with snot.

What was the best thing you bought?
The best thing I bought was Alan Corey's book.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Hmm... Behavior that merited celebration. I'd like to say that my behavior is qualified but aside from me, I would have to say Alvi. She knows the reason why.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My dad. But, that's all that I will say.

Where did most of your money go?
Food, movie tickets, transportation, and books.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I really, really, really got excited when I learned about the Nursing Licensure Exam results. I also got really, really excited when Alan Corey sent me back an email. It was so exhilirating to find out that he's really reading his messages.

What song(s) will always remind you of 2008?
Womanizer by Britney Spears, If I Were a Boy and Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It) by Beyonce, Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat, Superhuman by Chris Brown and Keri Hilson, Love Story and White Horse by Taylor Swift, Ever Ever After by Carrie Underwood, So Close by Jon McLaughlin.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? – HAPPIER!
ii. thinner or fatter? -- FATTER! But, with a more positive outlook!
iii. richer or poorer? -- RICHER! Really.

What do you wish you'd done more?
Exercise. Really. I should've exercised more.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
I should've complained less. There's a lot to be thankful for.

How many one-night stands?
NONE. Never will.

What was your favorite TV program?
Grey's Anatomy, Pushing Daisies, Keeping Up With The Kardashians.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope.

What was the best book you read?
Like I said, Alan Corey's book, Millionaire by Thirty.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hmm... Taylor Swift.

What did you want and get?
Too many to mention. Probably, passing the licensure exam.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Its a between Tropic Thunder, The Dark Knight, and Iron Man. But, I am leaning towards Iron Man. And then, there's Sex and the City. There are a lot of good movies this year. There's John Lloyd's and Sarah's A Very Special Love.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Nothing really special. I turned 20. Gosh. I can't even remember what I did on my birthday. I am really spaced out. What the hell did I do on my birthday?

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

If there's a thing that would've made my year more satisfying, that would probably be the new generation of MacBook Pro.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

If it's nice, if it fits, then, go! Or, if its black and spandex, then, I'm good! Hehe. :))

What kept you sane?
My friends. The Bible. And, most especially, my sister.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmm... Definitely, Robert Downey Jr. and Patrick Dempsey (not because of Grey's but because of Enchanted).

What political issue stirred you the most?
Hmm... Nothing really. But, the political issue that made me feel great was Barrack Obama winning. Its not only a success by the American people its an achievement by the human race as a people. It made me believe that nothing is impossible.

Who did you miss?
My mom.

Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm... I didn't meet a lot of people this year. Maybe the people who bought some of my merchandise. Hehe.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
The one with Alvi and Aemiel.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
That I am very thankful this year. I am more content. I like that about me. Thanks to the LORD ALMIGHTY who speaks to my heart through HIS WORD.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
Hmm... That I'm still lazy and I still am an impulsive something.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Storybook endings fairytales coming true... Deep down inside we want to believe they still do... In our secretest heart... It's our favorite part of the story... (Ever Ever After by Carrie Underwood).

Was 2008 a good year for you?
Very good year!

What was your favorite moment of the year?
Hmm... Like I said passing the Nursing Licensure Exam.

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Finding out a very ugly truth.

Where were you when 2008 began?
At home.

Who were you with?
Yaya, Kamille.

Where will you be when 2008 ends?
Probably at home. But maybe we will drop by the celebration in Ayala.

Who will you be with when 2008 ends?
Yaya, Kamille, and Papa.

Do you have a new years resolution for 2009?
Yup.

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2008?
Nope. I only had 1 Margarita and 1 Cosmopolitan.

Do a lot of drugs in 2008?
Nope. Never will.

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Yup.

How much money did you spend in 2008?
A lot. Really really big numbers.

What was your proudest moment of 2008?
Please refer to my answers above.

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?
It was in Eastwood. May tama na ako. Pero konti lang. I was shouting "Josef, Josef." We saw Josef of Big Brother and we were sort of happy and struck that we saw some kind of celebrity. Gosh. That was embarrassing.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change something, what would it be?
The day I stopped exercising.

What are your plans for 2009?
I have big plans for myself.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I am more positive. I am more content.

What are your wishes for the new year?
Wish for my family :: Contentment, Richer in every way

Wish for my friends :: Great jobs! Great careers!

Wish for the country :: Food for everyone. Education for all. Peace. Love. Yes to eradication of poverty and hunger. Quality healthcare.

Wish for myself :: Happy life! Blessings in Love, Career, Friendships, Family, Health, Wealth, Christian Life.

2008-12-24T09:24:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

Finally, Someone born on March 1

2008-12-13T21:05:00.002+08:00

Jensen Ackles and I were born on March 1! I am always wondering who has the same birth day as I do. Finally, my favorite Supernatural brother was born on March 1. Although he was born 10 years earlier. He was born March 1, 1978 and I was born March 1, 1988. This information is so refreshing for me. Hehe! :))

Kaye is High-Maintenance

2008-11-03T16:22:00.002+08:00

My friend Bnong once said to me that my future boyfriend is going to have a hard time keeping me happy because I am high-maintenance. I protested and said that I wasn't high-maintenance. Paris Hilton is high-maintenance but not me. And now, I'm doubting what I said before. Maybe Bnong was right. Maybe I am high-maintenance.

Taylor Swift

2008-10-07T08:12:00.002+08:00

With my current state of unemployment and laziness, I have been spending my time listening to lots of songs and watching to lots of television.

Now, the artist who's been playing on my iPod constantly is Taylor Swift. She has really good songs. If you are into country music, I think that you'd really enjoy listening to her. Here are my top two favorite songs from her.

I think that that song, Love Story, is part of her Fearless album which I think will be released on the 11th of November. You could pre-order in Amazon.com. Or you could just simply wait until November 11.

Another song from her self-titled album that I really love is Teardrops on my Guitar. The guy in the music video is Tyler Hilton. He's the same guy on One Tree Hill's soundtrack. He sang the song When the Stars Go Blue with Bethany Joy Lenz (a.k.a. Haley). I hope that you do enjoy this music video.

McSwimmy

2008-09-25T10:48:00.001+08:00

I was watching last night's episode of E! this morning and I came across this video. This is just hilarious.

Gelatone

2008-09-22T19:20:00.004+08:00

I am really digging this new found gem on Greenbelt. Its called Gelatone. A small place located at the 2nd floor of Greenbelt 3, near Music One. They serve Italian favorites like penne, spaghetti, panini but I believe that their gelatos are the hot things sold in their store.

There are several flavors you could choose from. I bought the 500 grams to share with the folks here at home. I chose three flavors - strawberry, mascarpone, vanilla with chocolate. I love gelato! It really is better tasting than ice cream. Its more creamy and more flavorful with less fat, less sugar, less air. This means that you get more from your money. I love it.

From the three that I bought, I'd have to say that my favorite is strawberry. I am a berry person. Blueberries, strawberries. I really love it.

Could you tell? I love the gelato.

What? Laarni Won?

2008-09-14T21:43:00.003+08:00

All I could say is that the people really got it wrong. Its like Big Brother Teen Edition 2 once again. Bugoy should've won just like Robi should've won. Argh. I find this totally unacceptable. Really. Anyway, Bugoy will do even better just like Christian Bautista did better than Erik Santos.

Attract Happiness

2008-08-26T16:48:00.003+08:00

I am making a conscious decision to think positive. I want to think positively so that positive things will happen to me. I somehow got it now. When I burden myself with negative things, my mind and heart is so burdened by it I really become an unpleasant person. When things irritate me and I retaliate with a bad attitude, my day gets ruined.

From now on, I will let all negativity slide. At least, I will try.

Come to me. Improved attitude, come to me. Great family, come to me. Healthy life, come to me. Money, come to me. Great job, come to me. Happiness, come to me.

Where To?

2008-08-25T13:50:00.002+08:00

A quick one. In 10 - 15 years, I should have traveled in the following places:

New York, USA
Las Vegas, USA
Boston, USA
Paris, France
England
South Korea
Hawaii
Amanpulo, Palawan
Cebu, Philippines
Camiguin, Philippines

I would really love to go there. I really would.

DVD Torture

2008-08-25T11:23:00.002+08:00

Imagine yourself in a place where everything you want is right within your reach and you can't have anything of it.

I was tortured yesterday. Music One in Greenbelt was having a great sale. Original DVDs were being sold at half the price! Being the movie buff that I am, I was totally cringing over the fact that I couldn't buy any of it because I am trying to save money. But, darn! The Friends DVD Set was only 500 which used to be 1200. Imagine? It was terrible. If I had the money, I could've bought just about everything there. IF I had the money.

Argh...

Rain, Rain...

2008-08-22T20:57:00.002+08:00

I remember during highschool, asian series took over the crown of the most watched shows from the mexican telenovelas. The arrival of Meteor Garden signaled the dawn of the new kind of entertainment. Of course, I am one of those people who went gaga over the boy group F4. I am one of those people who got 'kilig' over the love team of San Chai and Dao Ming Si. Meteor Garden pretty much elevated the standards of making Filipinos 'kilig'. They raised the bar high... Until Full House reached my screen.

Full House was shown on the Philippine television just about the same as Meteor Garden. I wasn't really paying a lot of attention to it then, because I was focused on another Korean drama. It really doesn't matter that I haven't seen it before. I am just so happy that I got to see it now.

Full House is such an amazing series. I really love it. I am totally going crazy. The last time that my 'fanaticism' (Is that even a word?) reached this level was during the Meteor Garden days. More than the story, I am really drawn to the characters in the drama. I find myself smiling over the thought of Young Jae's arrogant behavior. He is so endearing. I actually don't know whether who of the two I find endearing Young Jae or Rain. Does it matter, really?

I think I fancy Rain. I'm smitten. Really, really smitten. I can't even begin to describe it.

Rain... Rain... Never go away...

Okay, I think I'm going to puke with what I just said. I am ridiculous.

Because of this new found interest, I think I am going to learn Korean. And study what I can about Korean. I am going nuts!

Hay... Rain.

What They Call Life: The Past, The Present, The Future

2008-08-04T12:25:00.005+08:00

I just couldn't contain my excitement when I saw my highschool friend, Miguel, playing in Game Ka Na Ba. I love it. Its so refreshing to see someone from your 'past' (past here, doesn't pertain in anyway to any romantic relationship) and its even better to see them on tv. Hehe. Miguel lost some weight, huh. Ang taray! And, he graduated Magna Cum Laude at the Ateneo de Manila University. I love it. There's no doubt in my mind that he would graduate with honors in college. I love it talaga!

Makasali nga sa Game Ka Na Ba.

I just printed over 100 pages of PDF files regarding my CGFNS and NCLEX application. Gosh! I never thought that right after passing the Local Nursing Licensure Examinations, I would find myself bombarded by a juggernaut of things to do. At the moment, I have finished browsing all of them and it seems like I've got mountains of stuff to do and a whole lot of money to spend. Oh, well I believe that everything will work out well.

Yesterday, my sister and I went to Greenbelt to attend the church service and to purchase some stuff that we need. Anyway, after the mass, some of the church volunteers handed out envelopes to fund churches that need help. Then, suddenly out of nowhere some lady blurted out something to this effect, "Di nga ako binibiyayaan, bakit ako magbibigay?" (Please note that these were not her exact words. But it sure sounded like that.) My sister and I were startled. We both were saying, "Omigosh!" I was really shocked not by the thought that she didn't give any donation but by the fact that she was so cynical. Maybe she has a lot of problems right now. I pray that GOD show her the many blessings in her life. May she realize that she is a blessing to somebody and may she realize that GOD has blessed her in so many ways.

LORD, I thank you for the blessings that you have given me.

Tong-Pats, MERALCO,VAT, Sisterhood

2008-08-01T18:58:00.005+08:00

Ted Failon is one intelligent, and funny guy. He's one of the three news anchors of TV Patrol World. I listen to him every morning in his radio show with Korina Sanchez - the news commentary program, Tambalang Failon at Sanchez. In that radio show, Ted and Korina sometimes use 'salitang kanto' and Filipino slang to make their show more appealling, less intimidating, more informative, and greatly satisfying. I think just now, he was caught off guard by what he just said. While reporting in TV Patrol World, it seems like he unconsciously made a mistake by using the word 'tong-pats' (patong, or bribe). I think it was really funny.

Anyway, what's up with this MERALCO issue? I really hate that GSIS is meddling with the affairs of a private company. GSIS has a lot of trash and whatnots to fix in their own backyard and they want to fix MERALCO's problems? I think that that is just stupid. Winston Garcia is a greedy businessman who has way too much regard for his self. As much as I would like to hate the Lopezes for sort of monopolizing businesses, well, its a business. The best thing, I think, is to introduce new players to compete with MERALCO. The new ones could post competitive prices.

If I were the president of the Philippines, I would not remove the expanded Value Added Tax (eVAT) instead, I would allot the money that I gained to increase the salaries of the teachers, nurses. I would also provide for additional rooms, equipment, personnel, etc. in government hospitals, as well as government schools. The money that the government gained from the issuance of eVAT amounts to billions of pesos. The government is so stupid to give a 'stipend' kind of thing for the 'less fortunate'. You are teaching the people to rely on free stuff. You don't teach them how to be resilient, how to be resourceful. Giving them fish is not the answer. Let us teach them how to fish.

Anyway, I am looking forward to the sequel of the ultimate chick flick, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. I feel like I am most like Alexis Bledel although, I am more of America Ferrera's size. Hehe. I hope to watch this with my close girl friends namely, Rocie, Ste, Iris, Beth, Aica.

Now, What?

2008-07-28T16:01:00.002+08:00

I guess I am now at the point of my life where everything seems unsure, more than ever. Having received the good news of passing the June 2008 Local Nursing Licensure Examination, I thought that I would finally be able to plan my life. But, it's the other way around. There are a lot of options and I have a lot of things that I want to do and I don't know where to begin. I have a lot of goals and I don't know which one to prioritize. I really need a lot of time to think but I don't have the luxury of time. It's hard. This is hard. But, I know that by GOD's grace, I will be on the right track.

17667 MIRANDA, RN

2008-07-25T00:21:00.003+08:00

I've always had this feeling. That I will pass. And, I did pass.

My heart is full of gratitude and praises for our GOD. LORD, I am overwhelmed, and overjoyed by this wonderful blessing that you have given me. You have given me the title of RN. Thank you for this blessing and I appreciate it very much.

I pray that I may become to grow as a loving, compassionate, intelligent, wise, GOD-fearing, client-centered NURSE. I pray that I may become GOD's instrument to care for the people who are in need.

Thank you.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

Finding Passion

2008-07-23T11:32:00.002+08:00

One of the things that really irritates me is when I watch the television and when I hear people say that, "Singing is my passion," or that, "Acting is my passion." All of this they answer because they are part of a contest that is scouting to find the best new singers and actors.

I feel like the word PASSION has become an ordinary word with an ordinary meaning. I believe that many have mistaken it for LIKE. I think that when some people say that doing this is my passion, what they really mean is that they like doing that.

But, maybe it IS their passion and I am just jealous that I haven't found what I am passionate about.

I'm already 20 years old and I feel that I'm missing out a lot on living because I believe that I haven't found my calling - the thing that I could be passionate about. I want to find that something or whatever that I would love doing for the rest of my life. I want to make a big impact around the world. I want the world to be a better place and I want others to follow suit.

I pray to GOD, that being a Christian, he would lead me to that special something, someone, somewhatever that I'll be passionate about.

Review: The Dark Knight

2008-07-20T00:09:00.002+08:00

If you haven't seen the current Batman sequel, you should set a date and watch it.

When I read the reviews from Yahoo and Eonline, I thought that the critics were exaggerating regarding how great this film was. They weren't. The movie sure lived up to the hype that was surrounding it. I'd have to say that so far, this is the best movie I've seen this year.

Although the Batman is the hero of the story, I'd have to say that Heath Ledger's performance as the Joker is outstanding. He was really freaky. He sort of reminded me of Dr. Hannibal Lecter in The Silence of The Lambs. I was shocked, thrilled, and dumbfounded by the Joker. I even caught myself gasping with mouth open. I'm not kidding.

The sounds were great. We watch the movie at Glorietta 4's THX Cinema, and believe me when I tell you that my feet were trembling. They were shaking everytime there's an explosion. The whole experience was riveting. Fascinating.

One might think that this movie is like the typical comic book super heroes. You know the typical storyline of the hero being confronted by the evil in the world and at the same time fighting his own demons and battling with the desire to regain normalcy in life. And, of course, there's the love angle part but, this Batman is not your ordinary superhero flick. It's complex. I believe that there is depth in our hero's character that the director, Christopher Nolan was able to tell the audience. Then, there's the ultimate villain, Joker, motivated by gratification of causing pain and fear among the people. Joker's character, which was impeccably played by Heath Ledger, is what made this movie different and great.

I think Heath outshined them all and it sucks that this is the last film that he finished. It's disheartening to know that we could not see his growth as an actor. It sucks, really.

I also would like to commend Gary Oldman who played the role of the Lt. James Gordon, and Aaron Eckhart who played the role of Harvey Dent/Two Face. Although they played a supporting role, they did a great job!

The actors were perfectly cast. I loved everyone of them. They bring something good to the table.

The movie is not just a movie. It really is an experience. It is an exciting ride you don't want to miss!

2008-07-11T19:07:00.002+08:00

I Dream of NYC

For a couple of weeks now, I've been searching about everything about New York City - from the different hotels, the places to visit, the best time to go to NYC - everything that a traveler needs to know when visiting NYC. In my case, a wannabe traveler.

I'm salivating over the fact that someday in the very near future, I could go and visit NYC and really have a blast with my sister or with my family or alone. I really don't care who I'm with I just want to visit the place.

I don't know why I became so hooked with this city. Maybe its because I am a fan of Sex and the City and the movie Serendipity. I really don't know. I just feel that I was meant to go there. I feel that New York and me have a connection. I feel like I am meant to experience that place.

I know it. I will go there. I know. I just know.

2008-07-08T20:19:00.002+08:00

Being unemployed has given me a chance to think, to reflect, and most especially, to watch movies. I have seen more movies these past two months than what I have seen the past year. I have seen Sex and the City, Get Smart, Wanted, The Happening at the theaters. I also saw Once, The Shawshank Redemption, Disturbia, Silence of the Lambs, and Shakespeare In Love through DVDs (Original DVDs, mind you!).

I want to watch the following at the theaters: Hancock, Batman, Eagle Eye.

I also want to buy DVDs of Ocean's Eleven, Twelve, Thirteen. Hehe...

This is such a total waste of space.

2008-07-02T20:06:00.002+08:00

It was me time today. I went to H Salon to pamper myself. My mom sent some money to have my hair cut, and a foot spa with a pedi. Its no big, really.

The best part of my day was being able to watch the movie Wanted at the G4 theatre. The movie stars Angelina Jolie, Morgan Freeman, and James McAvoy.

I believe that this movie is the most action-packed movie I've seen since Mission Impossible III (which is not at all that heart-thumping). The movie is very entertaining.

McAvoy (Wesley) is a 'lost' boy who doesn't 'fit' in. He's got a lot of angst and personal problems. Now, his world gets rattled by the death of his estranged 'father' which was made known to him by the uber ripped and edgy Ms. Angelina Jolie (Fox). Confused, beaten, and scared from the chase by the so-called 'murderer' of his 'father', he decided to join forces with his father's 'Fraternity'. There, he learned how to be an assassin. He kills people that is revealed by threads, literally.

Now, at the end, he learned that he was working for the people he thought he was fighting against. Very ALIAS. The name of the culprit - SLOANE. Very Alias!

The man who he thought killed his father, was his father after all. If only he learned about this earlier, he wouldn't have killed him.

Now, the best fight scene I've seen since I-don't-know-when-or-what was his fight scene at the textile building. I think that it was really cool. He's only got two guns, and just lived through the shooting by getting his predator's guns.

Morgan Freeman and Angelina Jolie were perfectly casted. Although James McAvoy delivered a wonderful performance, I think that Shia LaBeouf could've done the same. I was hoping that he could've 'upped' his acting.

All in all, it was a very entertaining movie. The ticket price is very worth it.

2008-06-28T08:48:00.002+08:00

Review: Once
written on June 20, published just now

DISCLAIMER: I'm not good in writing synopsis.

The first time I heard the song 'Falling Slowly', I was immediately hypnotized by it. It captivated me and made me want to watch the movie 'Once'. The song stood out from all the Academy Award Nominees. I knew when I heard it, it would win. It did.

After many months of just knowing the song, I finally got a copy of the movie. Today, I bought a VCD of the movie. I actually wanted to get a DVD copy but there are none. But even though that's the case, I still bought it. I don't want to miss the opportunity to watch this movie.

The movie is a story about a GUY who met a GIRL. But, unlike your typical Hollywood boy meets girl kind of flick, the movie's strength lies in the sincerity, and simplicity of its storytelling.

The guy, whose girlfriend left him for London, is a guitarist and a vacuum cleaner mechanic. He sings at the streets to let his songs be heard and earn some money. Then the girl came. She really liked the song of the guy. They strike a conversation and then, she learned that he was a vacuum cleaner mechanic and as fate would have it, she has a broken vacuum cleaner. Then they met again.

She was really very nosy but likeable. She asked him who his songs were for. He said his story - he told how his girlfriend screwed him and who was now in London. During their conversations, you would really see, feel, and hear the chemistry between them. Its impossible not to.

She, on the other hand, is a mother of a little girl. His husband wasn't with them. She tells that their relationship wasn't working, although she wishes that there is a father who would help in raising the child.

The story continues as they create, and record songs with a band. They created a great demo CD.
Now the guy, is to set out for London. He wants the girl to come with him. But she doesn't. Her husband wants to work things out. I know that he really likes her. And, I know that she feels the connection, too.

The movie is so enthralling. The movie was done in such clarity and such honesty, you really believe that this story is happening. You begin to sink into the magic of human connection. You believe that what's happening is real.

My favorite part of the movie were the last 3 - 8 minutes before the credits. It just showed how deep the connection really is between them. The part I loved most was when the guy was walking in the airport. I think he was crying. That really touched me. I think the guy was torn whether to pursue who he loved before or the new found love. That was heart breaking. I loved it.

The picture quality wasn't great, of course. I think they used a regular camcorder, although I am really not sure about that. But I think, that it really didn't matter because you are into the story. Actually, the poor quality of the cinematography added to the truthfulness of the story.

I think that the spontaneity, the build-up of how the songs were sung in the movie were really good. Its not like your typical Hollywood musical where out of nowhere people will sing and dance. Its not believable. Unlike this movie, there's a reason and a story behind every song. I liked the way how the songs were sung and how it was incorporated into the movie.

I love the songs. The songs were great. They have this deep quality to it. The songs that were sung are the type of songs that make your heart ache. You would really feel every word, every melody. Glen Hansard (the Guy) is a great singer-songwriter. I love him!

If you haven't seen this movie, you should grab a copy and watch it. It will make you believe that it is possible to find something great in the simplest of ways.

Is Maria a Kobe?

2008-06-26T14:45:00.002+08:00

I am following theWimbledon matches through television and the net. I find tennis very entertaining and intense. I must have gotten the knack for the sport from my father who is a tennis addict.

In the past few weeks (counting the time the Celtics defeated the Lakers), I have been reading a lot of 'hate' articles for Kobe. It feels like whatever team that Kobe is playing against is favored to win. They don't like Kobe. I really don't understand that.

I think that Kobe is just trying to prove himself that he could win a championship without Shaq. It seems that his motivations may not be right, but give him a break. Every player wants to be THE PLAYER to bring their team to victory. Every player has dreamt of being the 'savior' of the team, the 'indispensable' player.

Now, this week is tennis at Wimbledon. Of course, I am rooting for my favorites Roger Federer, Novak Djokovic (who, by the way lost Round 2 to Safin). For the females, I am rooting for the following women (in this particular order: Maria Sharapova, Ana Ivanovic, the Williams sisters, and Daniela Hantuchova).

Here's the thing, I think that Maria is experiencing the same hate articles as Kobe. I couldn't understand why. They whine about her grunting which they think is disrespectful, they complain that she is too hung up on fashion rather than her game. They just diss her - a lot, and its really irritating me. Can't a girl be pretty and have game? Its like stereotyping blond women as airheads. Its so wrong.

This year, Maria, Roger, and Serena, came out the Wimbledon courts sporting cute outfits (although Serena's frock was off track). I think the clothes were really very pretty to the point that they upstaged the game itself. It may sound wrong, but it's inevitable. Sporting tournaments are an advertiser's paradise. Aside from religion, and politics, sports is what most people get passionate about - supporting their favorite team whatever it takes.

Why don't we enjoy the game and stop dissing the players? After all, they are part of the reason why we watch it.

2008-06-11T17:08:00.002+08:00

Wow. This has been a rebirth for this blog. I thought I wouldn't be able to write again but I did. I am. This feels weird. Staying at home doing nothing. Wah. I'll write something better. I just need to write again. Even if it's nonsense.

2008-01-06T12:06:00.001+08:00

I don't want this to end.

I just realized that the past Christmas vacation is going to be my last 3-week long Christmas vacation. I can't believe it. It's going to be at least 3 months before I graduate. The real world is inevitable.

Here are my plans after I graduate:

Review for the Local Board Exams.
Take the Local Boards. Pass with flying colors. Sana top-notcher.
Take the NCLEX, CGFNS while scouting for a job as a nurse at either St. Luke's Medical Center or Medical City.
Work as a nurse 2 years tops at either the ER, CCU, ICU, OR. (Departments shown in order)
While working, I would process my VISA, Passport, and other immigration stuff for working at USA.
While I am working in either New York, New Jersey, Los Angeles, Chicago, Boston, I would like to pursue either a Master's Degree or I'd like to proceed with Medicine.
Hopefully, I'll own a posh apartment.

Ayun. I'm ambitious. Hehe… But before I head out for my real world goals, I'm here to ask for my last school incentive to my parents, my titas and titos. So, here it goes:

A Php 50,000 shopping spree.
Mac Book Pro 17"
Sony Cybershot DSC T-200
iPod Touch 16 GB
Gold's Gym Glorietta Subscription for 1 year

2008-01-04T12:55:00.001+08:00

Watching Oprah three times a day has become a habit of mine for the past 2 weeks. Oprah is shown at 9 in the morning at the Hallmark Channel (Channel 37 for Sky Cable Subscribers), then at 11 AM at Studio 23, and at one o'clock in the afternoon at Hallmark. Actually, there is still a primetime showing of the talk show at 9 in the evening but I don't watch that. My eyes are glued watching either Grey's Anatomy, The Amazing Race Asia, and Pinoy Big Brother.

Today, the Studio 23 episode was enlightening. Really.

See, I've been stuck for the past few months wondering how great life would be if I could be rich in an instant. I dreamt about having my own place at One Rockwell or at the Manansala Tower or The Residences at Greenbelt or even have our own house and my own room at Bel Air, Makati. You know, the good life. How great it would be to have my own car and money without having to worry about the payments for utilities because I have sufficient money in the bank to cover it. But, today's show revealed that even in the tiniest place, people could actually live comfortably and happily. The episode asks us this question: How much do you really need?

I pray that I may genuinely realize the value of what I have and be content and be happy with it.

I want to congratulate myself for not missing any workouts this week. Woohoo. I love it. I hope that I'll be able to maintain this.

I'm deeply disappointed that I didn't follow my study schedule for the board exams. Oh, well. I could start over.

2007-12-31T08:58:00.001+08:00

What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
I don't know. Nothing really stood out. Maybe the Liliw Immersion. I've never done that.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Noooo…

Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

Did anyone close to you die?
Hay. Kalungkot. Yes. Somebody died. My aunt in Davao died from cancer.

What countries did you visit?
Argh... Err... I was stuck here in the Philippines!

What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Determination, optimism, and uh, more money - I guess.

What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I don't know. Nothing.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Omigosh. I really can't think of any. Siguro, that yaya, Kamille and I weren't starving.

What was your biggest failure?
When my mom and I had a fallout later this year. Yeah, its my fault. That was terrible. But everything is okay na.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nope. But, I think I may have some illness. I'll find out later this January.

What was the best thing you bought?
The best thing I bought was L'Oreal True Match Foundation. Hehe.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Tita Gaging. She's very nice to me and my sister. She kept cool. She's very helpful.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Myself.

Where did most of your money go?
My money went to Fraps, Books (a lot of them), Food.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Hmm… When Bnong gave me the Colbie Caillat CD. And he asked me about the baseline data. Hehe.

What song(s) will always remind you of 2007?
Bubbly by Colbie Caillat

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? – happier from last year
ii. thinner or fatter? -- fatter
iii. richer or poorer? -- poorer; yeah, this year quite sucked!

What do you wish you'd done more?
Read. Exercise.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Buy. Eat.

How many one-night stands?
None. Never will.

What was your favorite TV program?
Kid Nation. Prison Break. Grey's Anatomy. The Amazing Race Asia 2.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope.

What was the best book you read?
None. The book that I remembered reading was The Death and Life of Charlie St. Cloud.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Colbie Caillat and Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

What did you want and get?
Thanks to Bnong, Teska, Mama, Janice. I got CDs from Bnong (Colbie Caillat), Teska (Red Jumpsuit Apparatus), Janice (Rihanna), Mama (Bag and this purple dress).

What was your favorite film of this year?
I really don't know. Maybe One More Chance. Haha.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Sari sari. My health team and I went to Yellow Cab in Morato The five of us finished the whole pizza. Beth, Rocie, and I went to Glorietta ate at Yellow Cab and then we saw a movie. Ano pa ba? Wala na yata. I turned 19.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Watching Beyonce's concert. I'm depressed this fourth quarter because of the fact that I didn't get to see Beyonce live in concert.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
I'd have to say Bland. I am boring.

What kept you sane?
Sleeping. Really. Sleeping helped me cleared my mind.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Marc Nelson!

What political issue stirred you the most?
The Manila Peninsula issue. I think that that was stupid. And, oh the curfew. Whew!

Who did you miss?
Mama! Papa!

Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm… Siguro the Liliw peeps.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
Wah. The Liliw incident. What happens in Liliw stays in Liliw.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
I think I was the optimist this year.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
Overspending. Yikes!

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Hmm… Pictures of you pictures me…

Was 2007 a good year for you?
Yeah. I think so. The good outweighed the bad.

What was your favorite moment of the year?
I remember. The cute guy incident that happened 3 weeks ago. Mr. Honda WGK 132, who are you? Grabe!

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Wala. The year siguro is made of small happy moments.

Where were you when 2007 began?
Sa bahay lang..

Who were you with?
With yaya and my sister.

Where will you be when 2007 ends?
Sa bahay lang din.

Who will you be with when 2007 ends?
Sila din.

Do you have a new years resolution for 2008?
Yup.

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2007?
Yeah. I got drunk. Hehe. In Liliw, Garden Heights. Hehe.

Do a lot of drugs in 2007?
Nope.

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Yeah.

How much money did you spend in 2007?
Hmm… For myself… Lets see… If you're asking if how much money I spent for myself (unnecessary things) I would have to say mga 1,500 a month. Hehe… Rough estimates lang yan.

What was your proudest moment of 2007?
When I learned that the maisan in Liliw started and that they are already harvesting the corn.

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2007?
When I got drunk in Garden Heights. I remembered I spilled Red Horse habang nag-kkwentuhan. Hehe. Kakahiya.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2007 and change something, what would it be?
Nothing. I think I really like this year.

What are your plans for 2008?
Super dami talaga. As in sobrang dami. I need a new entry for that. As in.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I think I'm more focused now.

What are your wishes for the new year?
May this year be about achieving my goals, giving back to the world, and being a better Christian. à yan pa rin ang goal ko

2007-12-22T19:15:00.001+08:00

I'm currently using MS Word 2007 to write this entry. The new MS Word has this capability of publishing your entry directly from Word to your Blog. This is kinda cool. I'm really reaping the benefits of buying an original Office 2007 software.

I also fiddled with One Note 2007. I love this program. It's a digital notebook where you could do just about anything. I use it for doing unnecessary things like copying recipes from the internet, getting pictures of clothes, compiling my schedule. It's a virtual organizer, calendar, doodle pad, scrap book rolled into one program. Love it!

Its now officially Christmas vacation. Yes! Finally!

By the way, here's my Christmas Wish List. It's not too late to send your gifts to me:

Two Front Row Tickets for the Maroon 5 Concert in the Philippines on March 5
Original audio CDs
1. Colbie Caillat – Coco
  è Thanks to Bnong for giving this to me. I appreciate it. The deal is still on! Don't worry.
2. The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus – Don't You Fake It
  è Thanks to Teska. I love this.
3. Rihanna – Good Girl Gone Bad
  è To pretty Janice, thanks for giving this to me. I love this album. Super ingat na ingat ako dito. Hehe.
4. Alicia Keys – As I Am
5. Corinne Bailey Rae – Corinne Bailey Rae
6. Avril Lavigne – The Best Damn Thing
7. Maroon 5 – It Won't Be Soon Before Long
8. Fergie – The Dutchess
9. Justin Timberlake – Future Sex/Love Sounds
Original DVD Collections
1. Friends Boxed Collection (Seasons 1 – 10)
2. Sex and the City Boxed Collection
3. Grey's Anatomy
4. House MD
5. Ally Mc Beal
6. Lost
Cosmetics, Kikay Stuff
1. Clinique Happy
2. Blush Brush, Eye Shadow Brush
3. Du Wop Lip Venom
4. Max Factor Volume Couture Waterproof Mascara
5. Max Factor Natural Brush On Satin Blush in Pink Dream, Delicate Mauve
6. Max Factor No Color Mascara
7. L'Oreal Facial Wash, Toner, Pimple Fighting Cream
8. Elseve Shampoo, Conditioner for Frizzy Hair
Books
1. NCLEX Reviewers
2. The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks (Hardbound)
Things to satisfy my being OC
1. Starbuck's Organizer
2. Humor Post Organizer
3. Jollibee Organizer
4. Colored Envelopes
Techie Stuff
1. MacBook Pro
2. iTouch
3. Samsung SGH U600 10.9 Edition
4. Sony Cybershot DSC T200
Clothes, Undergarments, Shoes
1. Cute watch with a second hand
2. NIKE rubber shoes
3. Duffel Bag
4. Panties, Bras

2007-11-10T14:21:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, happy birthday to my mother dear! Hehe. I miss you! Sobra. Sana natanggap mo na ang e-card. Hehe. Sensya na. Yun lang ang kaya ko. Hehe. I love you! Take care.

If I were rich, I would've sent you Jimmy Choo shoes. You love shoes, eh! Hehe... Di bale, there will come a time I will be able to buy you things that you desire and we'll travel and see the world. I won't promise. I'm not good at keeping promises. Basta!

To other things...

My days of sleeping, and pigging out on whatever is on the fridge is going to be over. I'm back to school by Monday. I'm feeling really lazy.

This sem is not as toxic as the past semesters but, this sem is the most critical. It is the hanging bridge between student life and real life. My career is on the line. I can't believe that I just said that. Wow. Career. This is it!

Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday mornings will be my NCM115 Lectures and in the afternoon, I will be attending my in-house reviews. Thursdays, Fridays, and Saturdays are clinical rotations. I'm excited to go back to Liliw Laguna for my community duty. I am also looking forward to my ER rotations. Hay. Pero, I am not fond of the graveyard shifts. I think we have four graveyard shifts. Argh.

Last Thursday, after the enrollment and the orientation, I went to Greenbelt because I wanted to buy a DVD of AL Gore's Academy Award Winning film, An Inconvenient Truth: A Global Warning (AIT). So, I went to Music One with an intention of buying only one film but, I ended up buying four titles. I bought three Discovery Channel documentaries and a VCD of An In Convenient Truth.

The movie AIT was so alarming and it really struck something in me. I was deeply touched by the film. I was ashamed of myself. Really. But what this film does is that it gives you an option to do better. The most touching part for me in the film was the animated polar bear trying to cling on a floating ice but, he died eventually because of the long distance he had to swim through to reach a safe place. Hay. Grabe! One thing I pledge to do is to learn more about the ways I could help the place we live in. I will make myself informed and put my knowledge into action.

Visit http://www.climatecrisis.net

Last Thursday, I also went to Powerbooks to buy books. I bought The Death and Life of Charlie St. Cloud (TDALOC) by Ben Sherwood and Gone with the Wind (GWTW) by Margaret Mitchell.

I've finished reading TDALOC. It wasn't disappointing but I think that the reviews were overrated for the book. It isn't as touching as Nicholas Sparks' The Notebook. The book was nice. I think its very Hollywood-y. I think it would be a good Hollywood film especially if Clint Eastwood would direct it. But, I don't think he'd do this film. The story is not as compelling as Million Dollar Baby, and Mystic River. But, who knows, he could work his magic on the story and make it beautiful.

The story has magical elements to it. Sometimes, it is believable other times, its not. The love story between Charlie and Tess is the kind of story that is not that believable. There is something missing. Their love story didn't capture me but the character of Charlie St. Cloud is someone that I wish was real. Hay. Its mediocre. Gosh. I can't believe I said that to a book which Nicholas Sparks said was 'touching, wise, and full of hope'. Anyway, kanya kanyang taste. I'd give 5.5 stars out of 10.

Five days ago, I saw Mystic River, a film by Clint Eastwood. It was great. I just loved the way how Mr. Eastwood tells the story in a very simple way yet, its simplicity is intense. The film is a tragedy. And, it really breaks my heart that it is such. I was so drawn with the three main characters, I was really hoping for a positive ending for them. Clint Eastwood delivered the story in such a way that you really felt the emotion of the characters. You really know the characters. Its as if I am part of their friendship. Grabe!

The actors were also great. No surprise with Sean Penn winning the Academy Award for Best Actor. Super! I totally forgot that he was Sam in I am Sam. He is so believable. Its amazing how he shows such emotion with great intensity and simplicity. It was effortless for him. And, Tim Robbins. Wow. He was great, too. I am really not familiar with Tim Robbins but with the way he protrayed a man who was damaged from molestation as a kid. Man, it was great! The whole cast was great! Kevin Bacon, Laura Linney, Laurence Fishburne. The movie is 9 stars out of 10. Galing!

Super sana hindi na lang namatay si Dave Boyle. Sana hindi na nilagay ni Jimmy sa kanyang kamay ang batas. Sana si Sean ay na-figure out niya ng mas maaga ang lahat. Sana sinabi ni Sean ang nangyari. Hay. Ganda talaga.

Last night, I saw Unfinished History: JFK Assassination in Discovery Channel. It was freaky. The episode attempted to answer the mysteries surrounding the JFK Assassination through the use of the lenses during that fateful day. The historians gathered pictures, films that were taken during that day and placed it in the site of the parade and the assassination. Its fascinating how from different angles you could see the horror of the murder of a person. The episode was fascinating, thrilling, and sickening at the same time. While I was watching, I can't help but gasp in horror. Grabe! Ibang level talaga. Gusto ko tuloy mag-dig deeper into the JFK Assassination. I'm really intrigued.

Boob Tube. Watch the latest season of Grey's Anatomy every Monday in Studio 23, Heroes eat Crime and suspense, Prison break at Crime and Suspense. Amazing Race Season 12 at AXN. America's Next Top Model at ETC, and Amazing Race Asia 2 at AXN. Wooohooo!!!

I hope to finish reading Gone with the Wind, A Million Little Pieces, and Never Let Me Go before 2008.

GOD bless!

2007-11-04T19:08:00.000+08:00

I had a terrible day. The money that my father sent through Western Union is still with them. They wouldn't let me claim it because I am short of one ID card. See here's the problem, I only have one ID and that is my School ID. I am not a registered voter so, I don't have a Voter's ID. We don't have a car so, I don't have a driver's license. I am not working so I don't have SSS, GSIS, etc. My passport is already expired. Damn it! How could I possibly claim it? They kept on telling me that I should have an NBI Clearance. Eh, how would I be able to get an NBI Clearance? First, my school doesn't require that and I am not yet working. Second, its Sunday!

I went there at about 10 AM and they said all that crap. So, I asked if there was any other way that I could claim the money for my tuition. They said that I should bring my birth certificate and my registration form this sem. I said that how could I give them my reg form for this sem eh, the money needed for my enrollment is with them.

Anyway, I went home to get a photocopy of my birth certificate (BC). So, when I went back, I expected that I will finally be able to claim the money. But, when I presented my BC, the lady said that they still wouldn't release the money because what they needed was the original BC. Hello? First of all, when I asked earlier, they didn't specify that I should bring the ORIGINAL copy. Second, why would I bring the original when even schools don't require the ORIGINAL. Certified True copies will do. Frustration is an understatement of what I felt. Dang it! I was cursing them in my head. Damn it!

After that, I went home. I was so frustrated I slept and tried to forget about it. When I went back to Western Union, I brought folders containing original BCs of our whole family. I brought all my IDs (college lang). I also brought even my expired Passport as well as my father's ID. I mean everything would prove that I am not a fraud and that the money is really intended for me. But guess what, when I went back, they said that they are out of funds and that I should go some other time.

The whole ordeal of going back and forth to Shaw Blvd. was tiring, irritating, frustrating, and most of all, expensive. When I went home, I just couldn't contain myself and I cried. See, here's the thing, I am not the kind of person who demands, and shouts at employees when they don't get what they deserve as a customer. I couldn't stand for what I deserve. I just sit and let them give me less of what I deserve. I am a pushover. Argh! I am not an honorable woman (Please watch Episode 2 of Grey's Anatomy Season 4 to find out why I think I am not honorable).

I pray that they don't encounter someone who presents two IDs but turns out to be a fraud.

To better things...

Advance happy birthday to mama and papa! Mama, you will be forever 24 years old for me. Hehe... Papa, you will always be better looking than Christopher De Leon.

Belated happy birthday Aeda! I miss you friend! Super nalito talaga ako. Feeling ko September 26 ang birthday mo. Mali pala. Happy birthday! May you have more fulfilled and GOD-centered years!

Couchpotato-ness...

AXN had a one hour special yesterday and presented the racers for the new season of The Amazing Race Asia (TARA). I was thrilled to find that Marc Nelson (model, host of Sports Unlimited) is there and Rovilson Fernandez (host of Game Plan, editor of Maxim) is also there. God! uber HOT si Marc Nelson!

I saw Marc Nelson once in Play Underground in Powerplant. And, grabe! He's better looking in person. Hay! Hot! As in.

Sizzling. Hot. --- Tagline ng billboard ni Marc Nelson sa EDSA. For Kenny Rogers. Yummy!

Hay. As long as the two Filipino teams are in the race, I won't stop watching TARA2.

Christmas is coming. I'll be posting my wish list. Watch out for it. Hehe.

2007-10-11T00:22:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, belated happy birthday to my most missed friend - Aeda Ruth Roy San Diego. Di ka na teen. As in totoo. Wah. I miss you Ada! Uwi ka na dito. Di ko nakakalimutan yung date natin pag-uwi mo dito. Manonood tayo Little Mermaid ng Trumpets. Love you.

Next. Thank you very much to RC dahil nakilala ko ang tumutulong sa pagtapos ng integral part ng aming paper. Kay Mr. Bataller, salamat. Pasensya na sa pangungulit. Kay Ate Melcah (referred by Aeda) sa pag-meet sa amin. Thanks talaga. Kahit di pa tapos yung paper namin, super indebted na ako sa inyo. Thanks.

Darn. Hell week na naman. I don't know how to squeeze in everything with the time I have. There are quizzes in ER, finals in ER, finals in EENT. And then, there's Research. There's the defense. Pagod na ako. Super masama na talaga ang pakiramdam ko. Ilang days pa, bibigay na talaga tong katawan ko. Feeling ko magkaka-lagnat na ako in three days.

I am totally drained. Hirap na ako. Deadlines. Finals. Potek! Hirap na talaga ako. GOD, I lift up everything to YOU. Help me carry my burdens. Wah.

2007-09-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

What do you call male bitches?

There are just some egotistical, selfish, self-centered, in-denial gay guys. Good thing he doesn't read this. He is more obsessive compulsive than I am. He worries about things that shouldn't need worrying. He's self-centered. He thinks that everything is about him. I'll refer to him as Mitch - as in, male bitch. I so want to tell him this, "You know what, you are not Ally McBeal because you don't look cute when you let everything revolve around you. You think everything is personal. You have this Savior, Grandiosity Complex which is anything but funny, and cute. So, will you please stop and just get lost. And, you have the nerve to turn everything against me. Mitch! Go to hell."

2007-08-27T06:01:00.000+08:00

Its been ages since I have posted my last entry. I would be a liar if I said I was too busy to write. I am busy but I am just too lazy to try to write. Anyway, I don't need to explain. Its not like I have a following.

These past few days, I've been watching Ally Mc Beal on DVD. I am done with Seasons 1 and 2. I love the show! Its funny yet touching at times. Its so nice to tackle the eccentricities of human beings. What's even better is that they sure have great music played during the show.

The show is about lawyers getting through their adult life. They are the weirdest yet very lovable characters that you'd ever see in television. Its weird how they hear songs by Barry White, and Al Green from their heads and dance to it. They have weird dance steps, as well.

What I am most intrigued is the way they treat love in the story. Love is treated in different ways. There's a lot of love.

I am still a firm believer of happy endings but, I keep an open mind of the possibility of having a tragic end. What I am most bothered is the fact that in the show, some people have become so cynical about love.

I do believe in happy endings. And happy endings doesn't always mean that you are with someone. You could be alone yet still be happy. I believe that each one of us has somebody. GOD created that somebody for us. I know it. And, its up to us to find them.

2007-07-05T15:33:00.000+08:00

I still have the Transformers hang-over. I really love the movie. Its even better than SpiderMan 3. Its funnier and has more action-packed scenes. Shia was great and was very charming in the film. He still has that Even Stevens quirkiness, and charm. I love it! I'll definitely watch Disturbia. So, you better watch Transformers because you'd really miss a lot if you don't.

2007-05-21T11:37:00.000+08:00

Its the start of our 1-week vacation. Yeah! You heard it right. One week. Well, better than nothing. See, here's the problem, I only have one week and yet I still have a lot of things to do for our community documentation. This has been such a plague. Although, I really enjoyed our 3 week stint at Baybay Sapa, this documentation stuff has been such a pain. I get tired of doing the documentation. And, when I close my eyes to sleep, all I coild think about is the documentation. Its haunting me! This stuff which is supposed to be a group work - well, about 75% of it, I made it myself. Sheesh...

Hay! Kaasar!

2007-05-14T08:21:00.000+08:00

Today is Election Day in the Philippines. And, although I am not yet a registered voter these are the candidates that I would have voted for.

Manny Villar - because of his rags to super rich story; and, well he has a very nice ad; and he's the only one who could shake his hips in that weird, awkward, and funny way
Kiko Pangilinan - because I think he is very intellectual and I think he is approachable; and, c'mon, he is Sharon's husband
Chiz Escudero - he delivers his points very well; I believe he is very principled; and he looks like Bamboo
Alan Cayetano - I think he is principled and I think that he listens; plus, his brother Lino Cayetano is super cute
Joker Arroyo - I think that his image in the Erap case still sticks to my head; Plus, pag bad ka, lagot ka!
Mike Defensor - he is very loyal; I think loyalty is a great quality and although, I believe he is loyal to the wrong person, I still believe that that quality of his stands out; plus, si tol yan noh! ine-endorse siya ni manny pooh-quiao tsaka ni keanna... hehe...

2007-05-13T18:52:00.000+08:00

Crap! I typed something in here and I think I pressed something that totally erased everything that I've written. Now, I am pissed!

Catching Up

2007-05-13T18:32:00.000+08:00

Its been ages since my last post. I've been busy. I still am busy. But, thank GOD for a three-day vacation and I am able to do trivial things that doesn't concern school.

School's been such a pain. I have a very tight schedule. I have lots of things to do. And, most importantly, I have to go to my hospital duties this summer. The only thing that's keeping me sane is the thought that I only have one week left of this duty and I will be free. Well, free for just one week. I can't complain. One week is good enough.

Anyway, I have a lot of stories that I wasn't able to write about. That sucks, you know. But, those stories will always be forever etched in my memory.

Wow. I am just so giddy about this new template. I really like it. Although, I would have loved if the creator of this template made this template in pink. I am really fond of the color pink. I think its cute. Hehe...

I still have a lot of things to do. But, I'd like to indulge in writing about my guilty pleasure - TV Shows.

The Amazing Race All Stars is already finished and I am certainly not happy with the results. It would have been a great season if Charla and Mirna won the race. I mean, they certainly have gone through and succeeded great challenges. Actually, I would have loved if Dustin and Kandice also won. Okay, I am becoming shady. Lets put it this way. It would have been great if Eric and Danielle lost. I don't like them. I just don't. Argh...

I am beginning to regret that I haven't been religiously watching American Idol. From the clips that I have seen, I think the Bon Jovi night was great. I wasn't able to watch it. Grr... The last thing I saw was the BeeGees night where surprisingly, Lakisha (I have no idea how to spell her name) was eliminated. I actually thought that Lakisha ang Doolittle (I am still not sure about the spelling) will be the final two contestants.

Gilmore Girls is cancelled. After seven seasons, they are going to leave our TV sets. Not only is Gilmore Girls cancelled, 7th Heaven is also cancelled. This just sucks. I really love these two shows. Oh well. I am going to miss Rory, Lorelai, Ruthie, Lucy, Matt, Kevin, and the Twins, and oh, Mr. & Mrs. Camden.

I am enjoying Heroes. And, I can't wait for the complete seasons of Grey's, House, Prison Break to be sold in the malls.

2007-04-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

I can't believe that anybody is capable of killing 32 people. I can't believe someone is capable of killing. This is just horrendous. Terrifying is just an understatement of what transpired in VA Tech. I am thinking that maybe he's been going through a lot and that he just snapped. But, we all go through tough stuff. Killing is never a solution. Oh, God. I am scared. Really scared.

2007-03-21T05:43:00.000+08:00

Its been ages since my last entry. And, a lot of things happened. Many things. Things... I'll probably never forget. And, of course, things I'd like to forget.

Lapit na ang bakasyon... Ma-uupdate ko din ito... Super busy lang talaga sa school...

2007-01-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

You Are Most Like Carrie!

You're quirky, flirty, and every guy's perfect first date.But can the guy in question live up to your romantic ideal?It's tough for you to find the right match - you're more than a little picky.Never fear... You've got a great group of friends and a great closet of clothes, no matter what!
Romantic prediction: You'll fall for someone this year...
Totally different from any guy you've dated.

Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You?

2007-01-30T17:09:00.000+08:00

You Should Be a Romance Novelist

You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart.
You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer...
And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories.
As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.
An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

What's" Your Thinking Style?

2007-01-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Assist in major operations such as nephrectomy, cholecystectomy, laparascopic cholecystectomy.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Nope. I still have the list. And, boy, I was good at failing this year.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope.

Did anyone close to you die?
Thank GOD - none!

What countries did you visit?
Argh... Err... I was stuck here in the Philippines!

What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Determination, optimism, and uh, more money - I guess.

What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Hmm.... Probably, December 22 and 19. Hehe... The reason is safe with me! Bleh! :-p

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I really can't think of any. Oh, the fact that I am now in my 3rd year! Yeah. That IS an achievement. Nursing's tough!

What was your biggest failure?
I didn't win my battle against bulge, overspending, laziness.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Illness. I was sick most of the time this year. I've been plagued by fever and cough and colds.

What was the best thing you bought?
The best thing I bought this year was my new BIBLE.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Definitely my sister. She's very focused this year.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Myself.

Where did most of your money go?
I don't want to know. For real.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Hmm... That time when I was supposed to * and then he * but then he * and he * so I felt so much better. Oh, and there was this time when he * and I said no but he * and then I *. Hay... I really got excited with...

What song(s) will always remind you of 2006?
Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? -- fatter
iii. richer or poorer? -- poorer; yeah, this year quite sucked!

What do you wish you'd done more?
Read.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Buy. Eat.

How many one-night stands?
None. Never will.

What was your favorite TV program?
Prison Break. One Tree Hill. Survivor.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yeah.

What was the best book you read?
I only read like 2 books this year. One, The Bridges of Madison County. Two, hmm... Make that one book. I didn't like this book. So, no good books this year.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Wreckers.

What did you want and get?
Thanks to Arjei, Rocel, and Kenneth. I got Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro, Grey's Anatomy OST for Season 2, and Prison Break DVDs (Pirated) and Ferrero Rocher.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Well, this year was my first time to ever watch Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. I love this movie!

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
It was my 18th birthday. Went to RedBox and drank Margarita.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Watching a concert. Finishing my PRC sheets.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Hmm... I don't have a personal fashion concept. But, I really loved browsing magazines and loved haute couture.

What kept you sane?
Probably, music.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Wentworth Miller, Jason Lewis, Yul Kwon.

What political issue stirred you the most?
The rape issue between Daniel Smith and that Nicole.

Who did you miss?
Mama! Papa!

Who was the best new person you met?
Health Team!

The most touching experience you've had this year?
Hmm... Wala...

What did you like most about yourself this year?
Wala talaga.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
Everything, I guess.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
You're not alone together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand...

Was 2006 a good year for you?
Let's say it was half full...

What was your favorite moment of the year?
December 19 and 22

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Hmm... I don't know.

Where were you when 2006 began?
Sa bahay lang..

Who were you with?
Yaya, Kamille, Papa.

Where will you be when 2006 ends?
Sa bahay lang din.

Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
It remains to be seen.

Do you have a new years resolution for 2007?
A lot

Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2006?
Yeah. Relative to the other 17 years of my existence.

Do a lot of drugs in 2006?
Nope.

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Yeah.

How much money did you spend in 2006?
Stop the money questions!

What was your proudest moment of 2006?
Enrolling for 3rd year. Capping and Pinning Ceremony.

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
OMG. That VGH incident.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
I should've controlled my spending.

What are your plans for 2007?
A lot. I'll think about it.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I have a lot of realizations. I am more overwhelmed with my deficiencies now, more than ever! Lowest point.

What are your wishes for the new year?
May this year be about achieveing my goals, giving back to the world, and being a better Christian.

2006-12-31T07:16:00.000+08:00

I had a bad dream again...

Anyway, belated happy birthday to Jesus Christ...

Happy New Year later...

And, uh... I have a lot of things to do... Argh...

New Year.... But somethings never change...

2006-12-09T07:30:00.000+08:00

This terrifies me
Every single part
They are burning and fearing
All at the same time

It doesn't stop
This plague I'm experiencing
It's all too overwhelming
I think I'm drowning

The worst part is not over
I just saw a prelude
My dreams, could they really tell
Or is it just my mind playing

The hardest part?
I might say goodbye
Without even beginning to tell
what I truly feel inside

But maybe its better
Or, it really IS best this way
So, that dream won't come true
Because I really won't let it

LORD, take this fear from me
Its just, well, too much
Its a little 'too' of everything
Too scary, too confusing, too complicated

What happens next?
What'll I do?
What could become of me?
Who am I right now?
I don't know.

2006-12-02T21:02:00.000+08:00

Another 4 day vacay, and I still am not productive. Well, except for the good news of renewing my commitment to HIM, my saviour.

Anyway, this is so typical of me. Laying around like a pig, eating, and sleeping. Watching tv all day. Argh... I just hate this...

I loved that Candice is out of Survivor. I don't like her. And, the tribal council is like the worst tribal council ever! All of them are illogical, irrational, and stupid. Argh... I hope that Yul and Ozzy are in the final two. Or, Yul and Becky. Actually, I just like Yul to win this season. He's smart and played the game well. I am just happy that Candice got voted out.

Of all the reality shows that I am watching right now, Survivor is the only show that jived with what I wanted to happen. Did that make sense?

Okay.

I have my Starbucks organizer. Woohoo... After all 21 fraps! Finally!

2006-11-29T17:00:00.000+08:00

I only need to buy 3 more beverages from their holiday menu, and I'll have my very own Starbucks organizer... Woohoo! I am excited.

We took our finals for Hema this morning. It was definitely hard. I read the handouts and it wasn't enough. I am pretty sure that I am going to fail but, by GOD's grace... I know I'll pass.... Hay...

Gagawa na ako ng wish list ko... Hehe...

Ciao...

2006-11-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

And the game changes...

Survivor has gotten better. Somehow, Aitu has the power over the whole tribe. And, of course, Jonathan also has a slight power to change things. Haa... I love this show. The bluffing, the deception. Its pretty much like our everyday lives - only, it is shown on the tv and emotions are exaggerated and magnified. I hope that Yul and Ozzy are in the final two.

Hay...

See... Here's the deal. I hope that Yul recognizes the fact that somehow he made a mistake by showing th hidden immunity idol to Jonathan. I mean, that guy could use it against him. But, looks like from a preview next week, Jonathan is siding with Aitu for now. I hope that any Aitu member should win the next immunity challenge. And, they should vote for Adam. Then, Candice. Then, Parvati. And, when there are 5, which hopefully would be Jonathan, Yul, Ozzy, Becky, and Sundra... Well, that's a new playing field. The four Aitu members would be scrambling to get Jonathan to their side because they will stand a greater chance to win the million bucks at the finals if the were with the bad guy - Jonathan... But, it would be nice if the final four were the Aitu members.

Grabe!

2006-11-23T17:42:00.000+08:00

If I had a Tired Scale of 1 to 10, my rating would be a 20. I am that tired.

See, this is my very first time to scrub in for a major surgery. I scrubbed in for a Radical Nephrectomy. This patient has a tumor near his kidneys and they had to remove it. this operation took a long time. The surgery started around 9 in the morning and it was finished at 3 in the afternoon. This means that I stood up for 6 hours straight without any breaks - even bathroom breaks. It was tiring! As in. But, the good thing though is that by GOD's grace the surgeons were able to successfully remove the tumor. There was even a time during the whole surgery when I thought that the patient wasn't going to make it because I kept on hearing that there was a bleeder.

Surgery is so intense. I would love to be a surgeon and have that adrenaline and that intensity. Surgeons... Ah... There are a handful of good-looking surgeons. And, I happen to bump into one of these good ones, a lot.

Maybe I am exaggerating and ignoring the fact that St. Luke's is a place where doctors work and student nurses get a taste of what it is to be a nurse. And, it is not very far from possible that doctors and student nurses would bump into each other. But a girl can dream, right?

See, every single time that I have my duty in St. Luke's, I always see this doctor. I don't know his name. But, what the heck? The first time that I saw him was in OPD. I was assigned in the HEENT section of the OPD, and there he is. Well, I also saw this cute intern there. But, he stood out because he looks so matured and smart and he IS very attractive. Next, in Annex III. It wasn't really the assigned area for me but because our group got dissolved, I was asigned there. In one of the days that I was there, I saw him again. Hmm... Gwapo talaga. And then, now! He was having a surgery. Oh, gosh. Gwapo talaga. Astig. Hay, my very own McDreamy.

A very long surgery is tiring.

2006-11-19T06:20:00.000+08:00

Aitu did it again. Woohoo! I just love it when underdogs win. Go Aitu! But, Jenny was voted out in a surprising second elimination. Didn't like her though, so no big deal. Now, that they are already 5 persons in Raro, its time to break the Rob and Amberish thing going on between Candice and this other guy. Time to vote off that other guy. Parvati and this black guy should align theirselves with Jonathan. Its time to cut the head off that Alex guy. I think his name is Alex.

Anyone from the Aitu tribe wins. Will there be a merge? Not yet, I hope. The Aitu tribe should continuously win the challenges. Please.

Speaking of winning, I pray that Pacquiao wins today!

Umm... on the other hand, I've wasted another 3 days of doing nothing. Thanks to my laziness I am cramming once again to get things done today. I never learn! Help!

2006-11-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

This just sucks! I can't believe that the team I'm rooting for - Ernie and Jeena of The Amazing Race Asia is already out of the competition. This just sucks! Those Indian models got lucky. Crap! It would've been great if the two Filipino teams were two of the three remaining teams to race till the end. Crap! I guess I would now be Aubrey and Jacq's fans. Go Team Pinoy!

2006-11-12T10:20:00.000+08:00

The Amazing Race Asia
I was disappointed when I saw the pilot episode of TARA last Thursday. It was not as exciting as the original version. The only reason the had me glued to the TV is the fact there were 2 Filipino teams who are part of the reality show. As in! Nakaka-disappoint talaga. Anyway, I'll still watch the show because Ernie and Jeena, and Aubrey and Jacq is still there. Hehe...

Survivor
I loved what happened yesterday. Woohoo... Galing ng Aitu... In spite of the fact they were just 4 people in the tribe and Jonathan and Kandice left them they stillwon both the Reward Challenge and the Immunity. Loved it! Super duper loved it! Talk about Karma... Sayang sana si Jonathan na lang ang tinanggal ng Raro kahapon. I would love to see that the top 3 will be an all Asian tribe... Hehe... Mag-memerge na kaya next week?

CDs Galore
I have 3 new acquisitions. The 3 CDs are Switchfoot's The Beautiful Letdown, Sheryl Crow's Very Best CD, and The Wreckers' Stand Still, Look Pretty. Loved the 3 cds. Ganda ng mga kanta. My favorite so far is the song Cigarettes by The Wreckers.

One Tree Hill
Nasa season 3 na ako ng OTH. Hay... Ang daming gwapo sa show na 'to!

2006-11-06T13:36:00.000+08:00

Wouldn't it be nice if I had 89 million pesos? Wow. That'd be great! Its just that I could give the gifts that I really think my friends and family would really love. Its just that whenever I think of a person and I think of the best gift I'd give them, I always think that because of money constraints I couldn't give them what I really want to give them... Do I make sense?

Anyway, today's the last day of sembreak. This sucks! I still don't want to go back to school. It would be great if there will be an extension. Like, a one week extension. I still have a lot of things to do - eat, sleep, watch tv, eat, sleep. Hehe... No, seriously. I still have to organize my files on the PC. I also want to re-type all my handouts so that they could be filed in an organized manner. I want everything to be filed according to subject. I want them to be color coded. I am OC. Hehe... I can't help it.

I am loving One Tree Hill. I love Hilarie Burton. I like her character - Peyton! Hay. Daming cuties! Cute boy... alert! (In Mojo jojo's sound effect...)

Hmm... I miss... Hay... Sobra!

I've been having dreams lately. They involve a lot of unbelievable scenes but I do hope that some of them come true. Oh, well...

Lapit na Pasko. Regalo ko.

Siya nga pala, I bought 3 cds today. Switchfoot, The Wreckers, and Sheryl Crow. Take note: orig yan. Hehe... Proud ako sa mga original na gamit ko. Hehe. I'll listen to it today. And, I'll give you my rating. As if!

Gusto ko na ng bagong lay-out!!! Patulong.

2006-10-31T16:44:00.000+08:00

I just got home from shopping. Well, not the kind of shopping that Carrie Bradshaw does. Shopping, as in scouting for clothes that I'd wear for the holidays, going to National Bookstore, buying some books from the C&E Bookshop. Well, actually, I may have gone shopping like Carrie because I've spent over 8,000 bucks today for all those things. And, I am not done yet with my shopping list. Unlike Carrie who buys shoes and clothes, I shop for books and more books and a little clothing on the side.

I can't believe that in a span of 4 hours, a person could spend so much. Argh... I wish I had more money.

My mom sort of hired me to be her personal shopper. She has this birthday she had to attend to this November and she wanted a top. Since, clothing are expensive abroad, she thinks that she could get more from her money by letting me buy clothes for her here in the Philippines. I think that her idea is great especially now that I am on a break from school stuff. See, the problem is she has no definite idea on what she would like to wear. She is also torn on whether she would rather buy a top or she would have it made just for her.

I went to look for the perfect top for her. I was thinking that she should have a metallic blue green baby doll top then she should have an obi tied aroud her waist. Then, she could pair it off with her most flattering pants. I was also thinking that since its winter, she could go for a more wintery clothing. Like, a baby pink shirt or a purple shirt then with a white knit coat and a funky belt. My mom... she likes to feel young.

So, I was in Glorietta. I went to Marks & Spencer and saw very promising pieces for my mom and me... Oh, and by the way, I bought two cute undies from M&S. I like them a lot. They're pink. Anyway, the problem with M&S is that they are uber expensive. They carry clothes that have my size and are super cute and are uber expensive, as well. Argh...

Times like these make me wish that I won the lottery so I could literally shop till I drop.

I also went to several shops - Cinderella, U2, Sari-Sari, etc. They showed nice clothes but, I am not quite sure whether they are the ones that my mom would approve. And besides, she has not given me any money to fund this clothing churva. Money down muna!

I am becoming kikay. As in! Super! I have outgrown my Candy days and I am now a certified Preview, Mega, and InStyle femme. Love it! Ito na ba ang epekto ng panonood ng America's next Top Model at ng Project Runway...

Oh, and by the way, sabi ni Rocel maganda daw ang One Tree HIll. Now, I am torned. Which is which ba talaga? Original Friends DVD Season 1 or One Tree Hill Season 1 Pirated?

Omigosh, I can't believe it. I am visiting Beauty Bar and checking out DuWop's products. Gosh. They are so expensive... And, by any chance, does anybody know where I could buy L'oreal Vive Pro? My hair is so unruly... I always have a bad hair day...

2006-10-28T16:39:00.000+08:00

I am becoming one of them. I was dreading this. I don't want to be like them. Or, does every girl come to a point and become one? Then, after this crossroad, she discovers her true self and settle for that true, found self. I hope I find my true self. Stat!

I've seen the first season of Prison Break. And, I've finished watching the whole Sex and the City series. And, boy were they great!

I love Sex and the City. I love the four girls - Carrie, Miranda, Samantha, Charlotte. I'd like to think that I find something in them that is very much like me. I love Carrie. I love the way Carrie writes. Its very candid. Love 'em all. Too bad they had to end it. I swear they could have survived 10 seasons. The writing is very smart. They are funny. Not only that, they also make you think about your life, relationships, friendships, etc.

My favorite episode in the show was when Smith Jerrod (Jason Lewis) was shut out by Samantha Jones (Kim Cattrall) in a party. Samantha joined her ex-beau, Richard and went up to his hotel room and had sex. Samantha didn't enjoy the sex and she went down the elevator feeling really down. When the elevator door opened, Smith was still there. He said something like this, "I'd like to make sure that you get to your home safe."

Ahww... That is definitely sweet.

Most of my favorite kilig scenes are the scenes Samantha and Smith had.

There's this another episode that I really enjoyed. Its the episode where Samantha and Smith were walking on the sidewalk. And then, Smith was reaching for Samantha's hand. But, the cynic in Samantha refused to hold Smith's hand which caused her to fall flat on her butt. By the end of the episode, Smith couldn't take that Samantha is so... so... weird about holding hands so, he said something like this, "Samantha, stop that effing shit and just let me hold your hand."

Here's the recap of that episode from the HBO site:

Smith and Samantha's relationship hits an odd plateau when the actor tries to take Sam's hand as they're walking down the street. Samantha is so eager to refrain from the PDA that she actually trips and falls down an open hatch on the sidewalk. Smith isn't having any of this, telling Samantha in no uncertain terms that he loves her, and wants to be able to express his feelings. Samantha grudingly accepts, realizing that maybe a little hand-holding isn't so bad after all.

Ahww... Samantha has a great guy with him! Hay... Kaloka...

Then, another episode that really touched me was when Smith decided to shave his gorgeous hair for Samantha. The gal was diagnosed with cancer and the hair loss was bothering her (y'know because of chemo). So, she decided to liberate herself from that effing emotional burden of cancer and decided to shave her hair. Smith found her in the bathroom and decided to shave his hair so that Samantha wouldn't feel bad about losing her hair. Samantha said, "Your hair is your thing..." But, Smith dismissed Samantha's comment and shaved his hair. This is episode 90 entitled Out of the Frying Pan.

Ahww... Super duper sweet!

I love him na!

I love the love story of Smith and Samantha! Its even better than what Carrie and Big had. Hay, super romantic!

Prison Break naman...

I love Wentworth Miller. The concept of the series is sort of new. Its a break to all the medical stuff I've been seeing. Its an Alias kind of show with a bit of 24. And, Michael Scoffield (Wentworth's character) is not the usual CIA agent, doctor, attorney. He is a Structural Engineer turned Prisoner. Hay... Gorgeous!

The show's pacing sometimes bores me but, with Wentworth Miller on the screen - it's hard not to watch. Actually, the show itself is only a 75% for me but, I really like Wentworth Miller!I really find the government controversy in the series a bit of confusing. I also find some characters irritating and I think some characters are not really needed. I think that the casting is poor except for the prisoners and of course, Wentworth Miller.

I love saying his name. Wentworth MIller.

2006-10-23T19:56:00.000+08:00

I am pissed because I haven't seen any episode of The Amazing Race 10. Oh, well. I am more excited about the Asia version of The Amazing Race. Not because Aubrey Miles is there but because I think Allan Wu is so gorgeous. Haha... And, because another Filipino team is there.

It is technically sem break but, my sem break doesn't start until I finish the grand case presentation revision. I hope to finish it by tomorrow. I have a lot of things that I want to do this break. I want to have a lot of sleep and rest. I need it badly. I terribly need it. Argh...

I want to learn tennis. I want to learn how to play the guitar...

2006-10-22T07:34:00.000+08:00

This is my best take on bisaya...

LORD, daghang salamat kaayo kay na-pass ko gid ang aku-ang mga concepts sa nursing. Salamat gyud...

I really meant what I said. But, I sound blah...

Hehe...

Thanks and praise be to GOD talaga. Akala ko talaga ay mag-reremovals ako. Salamat talaga.

2006-10-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

Naranasan niyo na ba yung panahon... yung panahon na talagang nasasaktan ka na... yung panahon na talagang damang-dama mo na sobra-sobra na lahat yung problema mo... yung panahon na gustung-gusto mo ng ma-iyak... pero, hindi ka maiyak?

Pinipilit mo yung sarili mo na maiyak. Umaarte ka. Nag-fifeeling ka na artista at pinipilit mong lumuha. May tumulo nga pero peke naman. Hindi siya tunay na mga luha. Yun yung mga iyak na hininog sa pilit. Yun yung mga iyak na hindi ka maka-konek.

Ang hirap kapag hindi ka maka-iyak. Mahirap talaga. Lalo na kapag ganyan at parang sasabog na yung puso mo sa samu't-saring lebel ng emosyon. Galit. Inis. Pagkabigo. Sakit. Pagkamuhi. Pagka-pagod. Pagsasawa. Basta! Yung mga masasakit na emosyon. Yung mga nakakaiyak dapat.

Ang dami kong nararamdaman ngayon. Madami talaga. Iba-iba. Sari-sari. Different, sa ingles. Di ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula.

Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako maka-iyak. Bwisit!

2006-10-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

Milenyo is a good for nothing typhoon. Without power, how am I supposed to finish the things that I should be doing? And, you've caused a lot of damaged homes, fallen trees, broken dreams. Ang daming casualties. Pweh!

So, ngayon, mag-ccram na naman ako dahil ngayon lang kami nagka-ilaw. Hay naku!

Kaasar!

2006-09-25T17:02:00.000+08:00

Hay...

Case Presentations are a pain in the ass. Although I really find them interesting and although I enjoy making them, it really does get to me sometimes. I sometimes find myself staring at the monitor blankly because the pressure is just too much. But, I really learn a lot from making this sort of stuff. I just hope I had more books which I could use. Unfortunately, my books are limited. Library is an option but - nah! Never mind.

How can something that you really enjoy doing be such a pain in the butt? You love what you're doing yet, you find yourself staring blankly at something and realize that this is just too much. There are a lot of things that you could do but, you end up following what you like and even though its causing you so much pain, you just do it... Stupid!

2006-09-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

I have drank my first San Mig Light last night. I wasn't forced, really. Not that forced. Okay. I felt forced but, I gave in. So, the guilt is all on me. Too much drinking is bad. I only had several sips. And, I am a responsible drinker. Didn't like the taste of the beer. Nasty! For me, ha. I still like Margaritas.

I have slurry speech today... Could this be a hang-over? Whatev.

I am really guilty. I told my mom about it. She said she trusted me and that I know what is right from wrong. Hmm...

Hay... What is happening?

Bought 2 CDs yesterday - the APO Cd, and the One Tree Hill Vol. 1 OST. I love the One Tree Hill CD. My fave song is Track 13 - The First Cut is the Deepest by Sheryl Crow. I love the song. Should I say, can relate ako. Hehe. Whatev.

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What is it? I am naive. I am in quiet desperation. I am concealed. Yet, transparent. Hmm... When the stars go blue... Where do I go when I am lonely?

The tears that I can't cry out are the most painful tears.

2006-09-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

Its been quite a while. Its been hard. Its making me crazy. You are making me crazy. I can't sleep. I wake up thinking of you. Damn it! You inspire me. I want to be better. I am in pain. I don't know. This is bullsh*t! I hate this. I so want to give this up. But, I won't. I can't. My head's turning. So fast. My thoughts are this and you. And you and this. This makes me feel sick. I want to be better. But, its as if I'm crumbling. I am crumbling. I am crumbling and I hate myself for letting you make me crumble. Like cookies. This thing, it can't stop moving. This sensation and feeling is so overwhelming. Crying myself to sleep is not working. Studying makes it even worse. Ring the alarm! Code Red. Code Black. You have got to call a code. I am confused. Confused. In circles. Everything. I am in circles. My thoughts are running around. I want to be better but I am crumbling. Argh... I feel crappy. I am very much in crap...

2006-09-19T09:53:00.000+08:00

I am so tired.I'm tired and I haven't even done half of what I'm supposed to do. Argh... Can this get any worse?

There are a lot of over due projects. A lot of case presentations. A lot fo things to do. I don't hink that even if I am awake for the whole week, I will be able to do anything. Argh...

I need to finish everything...

Hay!

And, I might flunk OR, Labor and Fluids. BUt, GOD willing, that will not happen...

Hay.... May duty pa ngayon.... I hope we get dismissed early...

Alrighty... I better get back to work...

And, by the way, I have two new crushes... The first one is Zeus Balasico (?) and the other is ahem... secret... Hehe...

Hay....

I love Sex and the City. I love all its episodes... Got to see Seasons 1 - 3 already. I will finish it on the next 2 weeks. Four more seasons. Then, I'm off to watching Friends/Scrubs.

I hope Grey's Anatomy, LOST, Dr. House will all be shown in studio 23 starting this month with their new episodes.

Hay... excited to see Dr. Presto Burke.

2006-09-04T16:58:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: If you are part of batch Insignis, don't read this if you are too narrow-minded. This is a very subjective view of all the things that happened. And, besides, this is a diary - although published - it is still personal.

This was such an exhilirating day! Whew! Loved it!

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate batch MAGIS for winning the Talents Unlimited by a landslide. Hinakot niyo ang lahat ng awards! Galing! Proud to be a part of batch Magis. Second, I also would like to congratulate batch CENTENNIALES for being the over-all champions for this SNA Days. You guys deserved it. Umm... I could be a biatch and ignore the other batch, but see, I am not like that. So, to the sophomores, congratulations too. Talaga namang pinakita niyo sa amin na you are very much willing to work hard for everything. Ipinakita niyo sa amin ang inyong determination. Congrats!!!

If you still remember, mga around this season, ay naganap din ang SNA Days. At, that time super naasar kami sa batch Centenniales dahil ipinagmayabang nila yung Blue and White uniform nila. Sad to say, I have to admit kaming batch Magis ay nagyabang din. Gusto ko sanang gumamit ng mga defense mechanism at sabihin na ginawa lang namin yun dahil medyo nabastusan kami sa mga Insignis at nag-retaliate lang kami, pero I won't. I know that what we did was wrong. So, sorry for that. We shouldn't have done it. It was such in bad taste. But, nevertheless, nagawa na yun at ika nga, the damage has been done. Although we can't take it back, we apologize. I apologize.

Magis and Centenniales are tight. We are friends. We played several games but we didn't fight over it. We played fair. We did it for camaraderie and friendship building.

Hmm... I have a lot of ideas, thoughts, etc. I don't know where to start. Halos isang week din yung dapat na-ikwento ko.

Simula sa umpisa.

Hmm...

Opening of SNA Days
The opening, as usual, starts with the parade of the batches. First up, batch Insignis (Remarkable yata yung meaning, I'm not sure). Their batch color is purple. I love the color. Cute din yung mga jersey ng volleyball players nila. Tapos, yung batch name nila ay naka-print sa shirts nila as an ambigram. Asteg nga, eh. Syempre pa, sakop nila yung buong center bleachers dail ang laki ng population nila, eh. Tapos, may churva pa sila na cardboard na may purple stuff on it, tapos instead of pompoms or balloons, yun ang ginamit nila para sa pag-cheer. Cute but corny kasi super rehearsed yung dating nila. Hindi na spontaneous. Pero, syempre ang effort dun ay di mo naman makaka-ila. Gwapo ang escort. Di ko nakita yung muse.

Second, batch Magis. Pink power! Pangit yung uniform ng mga cheerdancers kasi yung pagka-pink nun ay Stabilo Boss kind of pink. Shocking kung shocking. Pweh. Pangit yung color. Pero, di pangit ang mga taong nag-susuot. Special shout out to my bestieh Choi and Mia, Jay-ar, Belle, Arman, Mara. Galing niyo guys!!! Proud to be your friend and bestieh!!! Syempre, dahil walang pondo ang batch namin na kuntento na kami sa pink na flaglets, mangilan-ngilan na pink balloons at mga sariling gawang banner. Yun na. Yun lang. Wala kaming 1.2 million na pondo. Mahirap. Hehe... Pretty ang muse namin. Si Janice. Hehe. Cutie naman ang escort namin. Si numero singko - Robbie.

Third, batch Centenniales. Ang walang kamatayang blue na batch color. Hay. Medyo sosyalin kasi may mga balloons sila na madami. Hehe... Daming cute sa kanila. Hehe... :-) Kakakilig. Grabe!!! Hmm... The best costume na nakita ko sa lahat ng SNA Days for cheering. Asteg ang costume. Simple pero maganda. Pretty din yung muse nila. Astigin kasi player pa sa volleyball. Manuel yata yung last name. Galeng!!!

Cheering Competition
We sucked. Pangit yung sa Magis. Paano ba naman? Eh, di magkatugma-tugma yung mga sched ng mga cheerdancers. Tapos, yung lech*ng instructor na bayad ng 1000 per session ay di umaattend. Paano kaya yun? Hay... Kung siguro mga 3 practice days pa, kinaya namin sila. Pero, kahit gunun, go Choi, Mia, Belle, Jay-ar, Arman!!! Pretty pa rin.

Second placer ang Insignis. For me, common ang steps. Hindi masyadong complicated. Pero, maayos compared sa amin. Balita nga namin sa may Libis daw sila nag-ppractice. Correct me if I'm wrong. I don't know where the hell Libis is. I don't go out kasi. Meron bang pwedeng pag-praktisan dun? What-ev. Corny yung concept nila sa umpisa. Parang pang-sabayang pagbigkas lang. The costumes could have been better. Pero, I still love the color purple.

First place, Centenniales. Hands down. Maayos. MAy dating. May hatak. May energy. Although, I still believe that Invictus' cheering was still better. Maganda ang concept. Tsaka naghanda din. Napapanood nga namin silang mag-practice pag-gabi. Kasi diba, night shift ako ngayon. Hay... Congrats.

Seniors love Juniors. Juniors love Seniors. Centenniales and Magis SOLID. Hay...

Insignis vs. Magis (Men's Basketball)
Close fight. But Magis prevailed. Super intense ang mga cheerers ng both teams.

Insignis vs. Magis (Men's Volleyball)
Wah na. Dito na chumurva ang lahat. Dito na nag-umpisang mam-boo ang Insignis. Bastusan. PAlitan ng mga hurt ful words. Syempre, it takes two to tango. Kaya we can't blame Insignis for everything. Dapat, hindi na namin pinatulan ang mga ganoong bagay. Ang immature tuloy naming tingnan. Nagsusulat kami sa board. Kampihan ang Centenniales at Magis. Solid kami. Pero, syempre, outnumbered pa rin kami. But, we didn't let that bother us kasi naman walang iwanan sa ere. Cheer nila kami. Cheer din namin sila. Hay....

Siya nga pala, may silent war pa yata sila na chinuchurva. Pagkatapos ng isang game, nag-suot sila ng red ribbons. I was like. What the hell? So, childish. What war? Bakit kami ng Centenniales friends. Argh...

Insignis vs. Centenniales (Men's Volleyball)
Championship ito. Panalo ang Insignis. Clap. Clap. Clap. Panalo. Woohoo. Congrats. Magaling naman kasi sila talaga especially Yancy. Super galing niya. Lupet pumalo ng bola. Pero, in fairness sa Centenniales, nasasalo naman nila ang mga spike ni Yancy. I like Yancy. Galing niya eh. Gusto ko siyang dukutin at isama sa batch namin. Hehe...

Hay...

Galing talaga...

Men's Volleyball Champion

Insignis
Centenniales
Magis

Women's Volleyball Champion

Centenniales
Magis
Insignis

Men's Basketball Champion

Centenniales
Magis
Insignis

Women's BAsketball Champion

Centenniales
Insignis
Magis

Cheering

Centenniales
Insignis
Magis

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Talents Unlimited
Solo Champs:

Magis
Centenniales
Insignis

Duet Champs:

Magis
Insignis
Centenniales

Dance Champs:

Magis
Insignis
Centenniales

Gaya-gaya:

Magis
Insignis
Centenniales

Hay....

Gaya-gaya... Ang lupet ng Insignis. May props. Pinagka-gastusan talaga nila. Super prepared sila. Yung ginaya nila is from the MTV Music Awards yata. It was supposed to be Christina Aguilera yata. When I saw their props, I thought it was the end. Kasi bongga yung props pero syempre, nas performance din talaga.

Sino ba sa amin? Eh di ang Pussycat Dolls. Choi, Jay-ar, Vice, and other gays from our batch strut their stuff sa stage. Ang baon lang ay energy at talent. Galeng. Super enjoyable talaga sila. Asteg talaga. Galing nila prumoject. Go Choi!!! Go Jay-ar!!! (My crush kaya lang bading) Go Vice!!! (My crush kaya lang bading din. Mas maganda pa sa akin.) Hehe... Love em....

Hay... Ang dami ko ngayong mga crush... From batch Centenniales ay si basketball guy na si Reyes. From Insignis, yung guy na kumanta sa duet. Hay... Isipin ko muna yung iba..

Thank GOD for this gift. Thank you for you compassion and mercy. You really see the truth but wait. Praise GOD. We lift up this victory to YOU. YOURS is the GLORY, oh Lord. :)

2006-08-28T12:15:00.000+08:00

Just finished eating my lunch.

After this entry, I'll sleep once again.

Hay. I'm so tired from last night's duty. We are now assigned in East Avenue Medical Center. Last night, we had the chance of working in the Trauma section of ER. The Trauma section is where all the good stuff goes. You know, the very gruesome and the very bloody part of ER. Toxic kagabi! There were a lot of cases last night. Most of the cases were from stab wounds and gunshot wounds. Trust me when I say that it was such a bloody night. Of course, it was Sunday night. Alam mo na, ang mga tanggero ay nagkagulo. Ayun, nagsasaksakan. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.

I was so excited with this rotation because I want to feel that adrenaline rush when a lot of things are happening. Eustress. I want to feel eustress. I want to be always on call. Do a lot of things. And, do these things right. I want to feel the drama of ER. I want it to be like Grey's Anatomy. I want it fast. Dramatic.

But, unfortunately (debatable statement), I was stuck with one patient. He got stabbed on his lower left thorax. Fortunately for him, the stab wound didn't hit any major organs. The x-ray and ultrasound came back negative. I was stuck with him the whole time - comforting him, explaining to him that his relatives were still looking for money to buy his meds, staying beside him while being super frustrated with the fact that my colleagues were assisting the doctors with suturing large cuts in the head and doing CPR to a dying person. I was miserable. Just standing there, talking to him. Doing nothing hmm... significant.

I want action. I want it fast. I want drama. I want to handle a patient that I could talk to then, suddenly goes to cardiac arrest and be the one to resuscitate him, then, he'd live. Argh... I guess that drama queen should just rely on House's and Grey's medical drama. Argh...

But, when I think about it. I did gain something from that experience. I do believe that out of all of us, I was the only one who really made a patient feel better. I was the only one who stayed with a patient long enough (very LONG, actually), that because of my company he really felt better that someone was there who will not leave his side.

Now I know why nurses work. It is the simple thank yous from their patients that keeps them going. It was nice to hear, "Salamat. Di mo ako iniwan."

2006-08-21T08:34:00.000+08:00

Two months. Jeez. Two months of school work. Hindi na maubusan. Kahit three day-vacation kami ngayon, parang kulang pa rin. Strike parang. Talagang kulang. Ang daming mga requirements tapos, finals pa ng mga concepts. Jeez. Super daming dapat gawin. Ang dami ko pang hindi nagagawa. Hay... Tapos, nawawala ko pa yung notebook ko ng to-do list. Ay, naku!

Grrr....

Buti na lang at may magandang palabas. Super adik na adik talaga ako sa Grey's Anatomy at Lost. Sana ay magsimula na ang Season 3. Siya nga pala napanood ko na yung final season ng Alias. Wah!!! Super naiyak ako.

(Spoiler ahead!) Rambaldi's churva is true after all. May existent na serum or whatev it is na nagbibigay ng never-ending life. Of course, Sloane got hold of it (He never changed!). Pero, the APO team of the CIA won't let him have it kasi naman, ano na lang kaya ang gagawin niya. Eh, may confrontation scene dun. Si Sloane, Vaugh, Sydney and Jack ay nandun sa parang cave kung saan nandun yung remains (?) ni Rambaldi. Vaughn and Jack were held captive by Sloane's guards pero, Sydney has the thingy that Sloane needs. So, mag-e-Xdeal dapat. Pero, bigla ba naman binaril ni Sloane si Jack. Shet! Grabe talaga yun. Right after that, Sydney shot Sloane, as well. As in baril kung baril. So, nalaglag si Sloane sa parang water-filled na churva. Ang dramatic na part ay yung last conversation ni Sydney at ni Jack.

Shet! Naiyak talaga ako dun. Super. Iyak. Waah!!! Super love ko yung relationship nilang dalawang mag-ama. Wah! Ang intense nung pag-uusap nila. Ang galing ng acting. Hands down. Dapat na nominate sina Jennifer Garner and Victor Garber para sa Best Actress and Actor category sa Emmy's. Hay! Damn Ben Affleck for getting Jennifer Garner pregnant. If it weren't for him, I believe that Alias would have reached at least 2 more seasons.

I was satisfied with the ending. Ang galing talaga nito ni J.J. Abrams!

Hay....

May bago akong pinapanood na series. House. Dr. House is the weirdest yet, smartest doctor in medical TV shows that I have seen although, McDreamy and Dr. Preston Burke of Grey's Anatomy are super gwapo and smart as well. Asteg! Maganda ang House kasi talagang parang mystery talaga yung pag-treat sa bawat case ng mga pasyente. Tsaka weird talaga siHouse. Well, combination ng smart, weird, apathetic. Hay! Hmm... Focused sa medical conditions talaga ang House so super exciting and interesting itong show na 'to. At, super ganda ng hospital nila dito! Asteg! Daig ang Seattle Grace Hospital ng Grey's.

BTW, hindi naman pala ganun ka ganda ang St. Luke's. Magand lang. Pero, na-hype lang. Pero, tingnan na lang natin yung bagong SLMC sa may The Fort. Mukhang hotel. Hmm...

Hay....

Grabe!!!

Ang dami ko pang gagawin!!!

Okay... Ano nga ba ang mga dapat kong gawin?

Finsh Case Pres Drug Study
Charge batteries of DigiCam
Hanapin ang to-do list notebook
Gawa ng 3 NCPs at Journal Reaction para sa duty homeowrk
Gawa ng pwedeng maibigay sa VGH-Pedia Ward
Gawa ng reviewer para sa Labor & Delivery
Gawa ng report for HDM
Gawa ng reviewer for HDM
Magbasa sa OR Nursing
Gawa ng list ng mga textbooks
Bili ng textbooks
Many more...

Hay tulong!!!!

Gusto ko na talagang maging doctor.

2006-06-22T06:32:00.000+08:00

It was one of those days where everythings just seemed so right and yet there are some things that were wrong but nevertheless, you enjoyed the day.

The past three days were one of the most fulfilling, and nerve wracking days of my life. We had our duty in Valenzuela General Hospital. And, boy! Sumabak kaagad kami sa aksyon! Asteg. We were assigned in the DR (Delivery Room) - a place where life is supposed to be brought in to this world.

Naka-witness na kaming na several deliveries. At, sawang sawa na ako sa itsura ng vagina. Pero, kahit sawang sawa na ako, na-aamaze ako sa female reproductive system, kasi ngayon pa lang talaga nag-sink sa akin na super powerful ng muscles natin at super powerful ng uterus. At, superpowerful din ng mothers dahil super sakit talagang manganak. Makikita mo talaga sa facial expressions nil na super nasasaktan na sila. Super! Saludo ako sa mothers!

Ang galing talaga ni LORD!

Tapos, doon ko din na-realize na talagang maraming tao ang hindi pa enlightened kasi pinapalaglag nila yung anak nila. Yung isang case dun ay uminom ng Cytotec kaya nalaglag yung anak. Induced abortion. Grabe! Naaawa ako.

Ang dami kong natutunan, first day pa lang. Madami pa ang mapupuntahan namin. Kaya mas madami pa akong matututunan! Asteg! Galing talaga. Tapos nakapag-IM injection na ako. Tsaka, nakapag-IV push na din ako. Nakapag-assist na ako sa isang minor surgery. Nakakangalay. Nakapag-catheterization na din ako.

Pero, nothing beats the experience of witnessing an actual delivery. Grabe! Alam mo yung super overwhelmed talaga ako. Yung tipong ang galing talaga ni LORD. Imagine talagang super HE thought of everything. Galing!!!

Ipag-pray niyo na ma-kumpleto ko yung mga PRC sheets ko para konti na lang yung gagawin ko for fourth year. Sana ay madaming manganak next week sa duty namin!!!

2006-06-10T19:18:00.000+08:00

I only have 2 more days left until their so-called vacation (--not!) ends.

First, happy birthday to my friend Rocel! Happy 18th birthday Rocel. Actually, kahapon yung birthday niya at nag-celebrate kami sa house niya. Ang saya! Dahil may mini-reunion kami nina Beth and Iris. Haay... Nakaka-miss!

We miss you Beth and Iris!!! Especially ang aking buddy na si Beth. Wah! Nalulungkot na naman ako. Kita na lang tayo ulit.

Hay. Ang dami ko palang taong na-mimiss.

Second, ang dami kong dapat bayaran! Well, buti na lang at nabayaran ko na yung ibang dapat bayaran. Bali mga 1 grand na lang ang kulang. Pero, may mga dapat pang bilhin for the tacklebox tapos, books na super mahal at super dami. Hay....

Third, pagod na pagod na ako sa kaka-practice ng kanta para sa pinning and capping. Paulit-ulit na lang. Kaya bukas ay aabsent ako may excuse na naman ako. Sabi kasi ng aking EENT doctor ay hindi dapat ako salita ng salita dahil inflamed ang aking temporo-mandibular joint. Kaya muffled yung hearing ko sa right ear tsaka painful siya.

Fourth, gusto kong muling basahin ang Anatomy, Pharmacology, and Funda books ko kasi mag-dduty na kami sa mga hospital. Totoong tao na ang makakasalamuha namin. Hindi na lang puro dummy... I want to be ready. I want to be the best nurse that I could possibly be. And, if I do good, I will proceed to medicine. :) Hay wish ko lang.

Fifth, alam niyo ba na pumupunta ako sa mga websites ng universities na may medicine -- Harvard, Cambridge, Yale, Princeton, Stanford (ambisyosa!). Ayun. Ang daming requirements... I doubt that I could get in the universities. Siguro, sa St. Luke's MedSchool na lang ako. :)

Sixth, gusto ko na talagang maging doctor. Kung hindi neuro surgeon, gusto ko sa cardio ako. Hay...

Hay buhay... I hope that everything will be okay.

Please pray for my grandmother who is currently in the ICU. And Dx ay pneumonia. hay... I love you lola beer!

2006-06-02T18:47:00.000+08:00

There has been an unfortunate accident that just happened 2 minutes ago. Yaya fell because I took the computer chair away from her where she was suppose to sit. It was an accident but I feel horrible because yaya was really hurt. And, although I said my sorry I think its not enough. Waah! This is just horrible. She hates me again.
There isn't going to be any vacation for me. This sucks!
I love watching Grey's Anatomy. If you haven't seen this show, well, you better grab a copy of the first season. Great!
I think, I want to be a doctor.

2006-05-26T15:05:00.000+08:00

Random Thoughts....

I'm very happy that Taylor Hicks won over Katharine McPhee. I love his song, Do I Make You Proud.

Clay Aiken was sooo cute on the season finale of AI.

I am currently listening to Carrie Underwood's CD. I'm on the 5th track. I'm loving her CD.

I bought pirated DVDs for tomorrow's happening. Can't wait to see Beth!!!

Ang mahal ng tuition fee namin!

Do you have souveneir suggestions para sa pinning and capping namin? We're thinking of a tumbler. You know, the Starbuck's tumbler. I think its cute and useful.

Ahem... Praise GOD that I passed Pharmacology!

I think Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes' daughter's name is not so cute. Suri. Hmm... I think Sayuri is better. Hehe... Pang-geisha.

BJ and Tyler of The Amazing Race won! Woohoo! In your face Joseph and Monica. Beh!!!

...Don't Forget to Remember Me...

I still haven't settled this matter, yet. Did Brad cheat on Jen for Angelina? I like Jen and Angelina. Argh... That Brad Pitt...

And, I wish that Britney finds a better man for her. Kevin is so not worth it.

Wah!!! Mag-bblue and white uniform na kami! YEhey! Praise GOD! To GOD be the glory!!!

2006-05-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

American Idol
I can't believe it. CHRIS DAUGHTRY is out from the competition. That, Katherine should have been out way before Paris. Argh... Si Elliott na lang yung natitira sa mga bets ko. Hey! Yung mga taong pwedeng mag-vote, paki-vote naman si Elliott tsaka si Taylor. Tanggalin na si Katherine Mc Phee. Ah shet! Final Two: Taylor Hicks and Elliott Yamin!!!

Amazing Race
Last week, na-depress ako dahil napaka-bitc*y nina Joseph and Monica at last place sina BJ and Tyler. Pero, masaya na ulit ako dahil ayon sa recaps na nabasa ko ay naka-bounce back sina BJ & tyler at 1st place na sila! Yehey! Sana sila ang manalo.

Survivor: Panama Exile Island
Ang stupid ni Shane. At least, from the time na nakapanood ako ng Survivor ay wala naman siyang super foul na ginawa.

Sana matanggal na si Aras kasi kahit na I find him cute siya ang pinaka-matinding competitor next to Terry. Sana ang dalawang survivors na matira ay si Terry at yung blonde girl. Kasi gusto kong manalo si Terry.

Si Cirie ay magaling. Hehe! Pero, ayaw ko siyang manalo. Please lang.

2006-05-03T18:14:00.000+08:00

i just need to let this out.

i am super duper frustrated with myself. i haven't changed a bit. i am still the same unfocused student, who wouldn't care that much about studying. argh... i mean, i shouldn't be ranting kasi i am not studying naman ng sobra. yung study ko kasi is equal to browsing, or wasting my time making reviewers i don't review. yun ang studying ko. sheesh! grabe! kailangan ko ng matagpuan ang aking this is it moment at mag-aral ng mabuti.

ang dami dami kong iniisip. kung tutuusin mas mahirap pa itong summer kaysa sa mga past semesters. and to think na 9 units lang 'to. hirap na hirap ako kahit hindi nag-aaral. naiinggit tuloy ako kay paulo kasi siya nakikita ko na nag-aaral siya. tapos si arman nag-aaral din. alam mo yun? oarang ako lang ang hindi nag-aaral. argh!!!

the good news is its never too late. i still have 3 weeks to make it all better. kanina sabi nina arrell na hini na daw kami makaka-abot ng 1.75 sa card. siguro mga 2.00 na lang daw ang pwedeng highest grade namin. pero, alam ko through hardwork and by GOD's grace ay kakayanin kong abutin ang 1.75 na yan.

in one of oprah's shows, i learned that when you have a dream and you want to make it happen, you should make a plan and write it down. they said that dreams and plans written down are most likely to come true. that's why, i am writing downmy plan.

for this summer, this is my plan:

Goal: A 1.75 in all of my subjects this Summer
How will I achieve this? (Sub-Goals):
Starting tomorrow, all of my quizzes in all of my three subjects: Pharma, Nutri, Funda will never fail. A failing grade is unacceptable. A passing grade is fine but not advised. A perfect score is my ultimate goal.

I will review everyday and give equal weight and urgency for all three subjects. If it couldn't be helped, I will focus on the subject needing more attention. (Duh!)

When I take down notes, I'll make sure that I will review them. Reviewers are meant to be reviewed. So, I will review.

Avoid TV distractions. My only companion is music. Five days without TV is better than my whole life full of tv and me being unemployed.

Focus, Discipline, Love for learning. For GOD's greater glory.

I KNOW I COULD DO THIS!!!

2006-04-30T12:12:00.000+08:00

Jesus Take the Wheel
Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her Mama & her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus, take the wheel___
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me Oh, why, oh

You and Me
Life House

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and
I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words,
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

2006-04-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

The past week was hell. Quizzes everyday. Failing miserably - everyday. Well, passing some. But, mostly failing. Will I ever pass Nursing?

Anyway, I am trying to adjust from this chaotic sem. I'm not well adjusted, I don't think I ever will. But, hey. A girl's gotta do what she's gotta do. Study. Study. Study. How I wish that after 6 grueling weeks of studying, I will be able to go to Amanpulo and rest. Hay... Mga panaginip ko.

I have 3 new crushes. In case you're watching Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition, nakita niyo na siguro sila. Ang mga crush ko ay sina Mikee, Gerald, and Aldred. Syempre, ang major crush ko ay si Mikee. Siya yung smart guy from Ateneo tsaka major crush ko din si Aldred yung guy na marunong magluto. Hay!!!

MIkee reminds me of someone.... Someone na... Ah, basta someone!

2006-04-04T07:45:00.000+08:00

No vacation for me.

Hay... I'm too busy about a lot of school stuff. I need to enroll this Wednesday. I am still waiting for my tuition fee from my mom. I have a lot of books to buy. Alphabetically arranged na ang mga students so, most probably lahat ng mga M ang last name ay kasama ko. Pero, according to my friend Arman, from Mar - Quis yung mga kaklase ko. Which also means na kasama ko si Arman kasi Noob siya, eh.

I am sort of happy about the section thingy kasi medyo marami-rami akong kakilala sa section ko. And, I am happy about that. But, if I really think about it, that's the time when everything just sinks in. Wala na si Beth.

Waah! Ang drama ko! Pero, talaga. Mami-miss ko si Beth! Miss ko na nga si Beth, eh! Grabe! Alam mo yun? Waah! Nakakalungkot.

Beth, Aeda, Charm, and I has always been patners. Pero, syempre... Umalis si Aeda sa Canada. Tapos si Charm, naunang umalis sa bagong school. And then, Beth and I na lang ang natira. Super close kami ni Beth pero, mas nag-grow yung friendship namin ng umalis sina Aeda and Charm. As in! Last last sem. Partners kami ni Beth. Sa HEalth Care. Partner ko sa Bed Bath, Oral Care, Vital Signs, Parenteral Medications. Alam mo yun! Super intimate na nga namin, eh. Hehe. Super transparent kami. Tapos, talagang lahat kinukwento niya sa akin. Tapos, ako naman talagang lahat kinukwento ko sa kanya. As in! Mami-miss ko talaga si Beth. As in! Super! Yung mga Jollibee and McDo moments namin kapag wala na sina Rocel. Yung mga food trip sessions namin na kung anu-ano lang ang binibili namin - Kikiam, Siomai, Ice Cream, Cheese sticks. Waah! Super mami-miss ko talaga lahat yun.

Siguro, akala ni Beth na madali lang tanggapin yung thought na pumasa ako. Pero, sa totoo lang hindi. Kahit na masaya ako dahil na-bless ako at pumasa ako, malungkot pa rin kasi wala na siya dun. Yung tipong, gusto kong maging masaya kaya lang it will be happier if I could share it with Beth. Hay! Mag-aadjust kaming pareho. Hay! Pero, one thing's for sure - friends pa rin kami.

At tuloy pa rin ang aming PaLuWagAN!

Hehe...

I pray that we may find GOD's purpose for all of this...

2006-04-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

I could sing of YOUR love forever. I could sing of YOUR love forever.

I am truly amazed by the LORD's power. I am truly in awe. I can't believe how blessed I am. Though sometimes I feel that I am not worthy of it, I know that because He died for me... I am some special being.

Grabe! I can't of anything else to say but thank you. I can't express how wonderful this feels basta, thank you na lang. Those two words aren't even enough to show you the depth of how I am feeling. I am so amazed at your marvelous power. Grabe!

LORD, super salamat talaga. I can't believe that I passed this stage of my education as a Nurse. Super overwhelmed talaga ako! As in! I mean passing the Microbio is one thing. Pero, passing the Battery Exam - that is super wow na talaga!

You see, guys, the Battery Exam that I took (which was taken on the same day of Pacquiao and Morales' fight) was not an easy thing. Actually, the questions were UPCAT type na mas madali pa, pero ang catch is time pressured ito. Four part test ito. Sort of confident naman ako sa first three parts, pero, nung sinasagutan ko na yung fourth part bigla ba namang sinabi nung proctor na 15 minutes (or is it 20) na lang. Eh, super dami pa ng hindi ko nasasagot. Mga around 20 - 40 items pa. Eh, abstract reasoning na mataas ang degree of difficulty pa naman yun. Kaya nga that time, nung super under pressure ako, sinabi ko na lang na, "LORD, kayo na ang mag-takeover sa hands ko. I-guide mo na lang kung anong circle ang i-shshade ko." Tapos, alam mo yun, talagang hindi ko na binasa yung mga questions. As in super ni-lift up ko na lang talaga lahat kay LORD. Talagang, ngayon ko na-realize na it was not me answering the Battery Exam. There was this higher being guiding me all throughout. Grabe! Super wow talaga ang powers ni LORD! Woohoo! Testimony to!

Tapos, parang yung MICRO. Alam mo yun. Hindi talaga ako yung tipo ng student na super duper aral sa subject na yun. I only study for 2 hours fora a certain exam (which is hindi sapat sa mga MICRO concepts). Tapos, nag-aaral lang ako that morning. Hindi talaga ako makapaniwala. Pero, pagdating naman ng mga major exams... nag-aaral na talaga ako. Hehe! Pero, wow talaga! Super grabe itong blessings na 'to!

Dahil dito sa mga biyayang natanggap ko, I realized a lot of things. Muling na-affirm yung love ko for GOD and yung faith ko sa kanya. That, eventhough I might lack the qualities of a good student, with ORA et LABORA, I can do anything. God is so powerful... that ang Divine interventions niya ang nag-papasa sa akin. Grabe!

I bring back all the glory to you.

2006-03-31T13:45:00.000+08:00

LORD, thank you for the blessings. Salamat dahil pumasa ako sa removals sa MICRO. Sana po bukas, sa pagtanggap ko ng mahiwagang envelope, nawa'y mabuting balita din ang dala nito.

I made a lot of realizations from this nerve-wracking experience of taking the removals exam. First, I am so lazy. And, I need to change that. Second, I am very proud of myself. Tsk... tsk... Baguhin din yun.

I am truly humbled by this experience.

That in all things GOD may be glorified.

Next, please take notice of the flickr badge on thee left side of the screen. Nice pics noh! Syempre, litrato ko yan. Hehe! Thank you Leo for introducing me to this flickr thingy.

I am so loving country music right now. That is because of Bucky Covington. He's not the best singer but, I really like him. I like the songs he sings in AI5. I love the songs that they're singing.

My Bets for AI5:

Chris Daughtry
Mandisa
Kellie Pickler (I don't like her voice but she's very charming.)
Bucky Covington
Elliott Yamin

I love the songs: Drops of Jupiter, Real Good Man, I Don't Wanna Be. All of these were songs that were sung on AI5.

God, help! Thank you for all the blessings!

2006-03-24T21:06:00.000+08:00

You can never be too happy in this life.

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate my sister for graduating with honors in St. Scholastica's College. Take note: Silver Medalist yan. Hehe! Proud sister! She truly deserves it. She worked hard for it. Her GC-ness paid off. :)

And, although I am truly happy for my sister, a sort of bad news ruined my mood. I learned that I am going to take removal exams for Microbiology. Not bad, actually. I mean, its better than Failing. But, I feel so inferior. I know that I could've done better. But, there's no crying over spilled milk. What's done is done. And, all I can do is strive to be better this removals, which by the way will be harder according to our professor.

Lord, help! I know you won't leave me.

Pero, pwede iyak muna ako. Nahihiya ako sa magulang ko. Waah! :(

2006-03-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

okay, what i'm about to write is downright senseless... i'm so frustrated, angry, and everything else i don't want to hurt anybody with what i'm about to say.

i worked so hard para sa churva namin. but then si ms. churva to nth level ay nag-walkout chenes sa amin without cheverling our side. what's frustrating is that si ms chuva ay hindi man lang naging mas-open minded to hear our side. chuva talaga!

i chuvster worked hard for this. everyone did. and walk out? damn you!

buti pa ang micro... aminado ako ay super pabaya ako churva sa subject niya. but then again, i know in my heart, i will pass the subject. alam ko na ilang madamdaming pag-aaral lang ay okay ako. i know it. i just know it. churva talaga!

hay....

serious na ako...

may quote akong nabasa... ang ganda.... may this help me and all those who are frustarted with life and problems...

As you go through life may this forever be your goal: Look upon the doughnut and not upon the hole...

2006-03-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

Your Stripper Song Is

I'm" a Slave 4 U by Britney Spears
"I'm a slave for you. I cannot hold it; I cannot control it.I'm a slave for you. I won't deny it; I'm not trying to hide it."
You may seem shy, but you can let your wild side out when you want to!

What Song Should You Strip To?

You Are Los Angeles

Young and fun, you always know where the best parties are.And while you tend to keep things carefree and casual...You certainly can glam it up when you need to.
Famous people from Los Angeles: Tyra Banks, Jake Gyllenhall, Freddie Prinze Jr.

What American City Are You?