DISCLAIMER: If you are part of batch Insignis, don't read this if you are too narrow-minded. This is a very subjective view of all the things that happened. And, besides, this is a diary - although published - it is still personal.

This was such an exhilirating day! Whew! Loved it!

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate batch MAGIS for winning the Talents Unlimited by a landslide. Hinakot niyo ang lahat ng awards! Galing! Proud to be a part of batch Magis. Second, I also would like to congratulate batch CENTENNIALES for being the over-all champions for this SNA Days. You guys deserved it. Umm... I could be a biatch and ignore the other batch, but see, I am not like that. So, to the sophomores, congratulations too. Talaga namang pinakita niyo sa amin na you are very much willing to work hard for everything. Ipinakita niyo sa amin ang inyong determination. Congrats!!!

If you still remember, mga around this season, ay naganap din ang SNA Days. At, that time super naasar kami sa batch Centenniales dahil ipinagmayabang nila yung Blue and White uniform nila. Sad to say, I have to admit kaming batch Magis ay nagyabang din. Gusto ko sanang gumamit ng mga defense mechanism at sabihin na ginawa lang namin yun dahil medyo nabastusan kami sa mga Insignis at nag-retaliate lang kami, pero I won't. I know that what we did was wrong. So, sorry for that. We shouldn't have done it. It was such in bad taste. But, nevertheless, nagawa na yun at ika nga, the damage has been done. Although we can't take it back, we apologize. I apologize.

Magis and Centenniales are tight. We are friends. We played several games but we didn't fight over it. We played fair. We did it for camaraderie and friendship building.

Hmm... I have a lot of ideas, thoughts, etc. I don't know where to start. Halos isang week din yung dapat na-ikwento ko.

Simula sa umpisa.

Hmm...

Opening of SNA Days
The opening, as usual, starts with the parade of the batches. First up, batch Insignis (Remarkable yata yung meaning, I'm not sure). Their batch color is purple. I love the color. Cute din yung mga jersey ng volleyball players nila. Tapos, yung batch name nila ay naka-print sa shirts nila as an ambigram. Asteg nga, eh. Syempre pa, sakop nila yung buong center bleachers dail ang laki ng population nila, eh. Tapos, may churva pa sila na cardboard na may purple stuff on it, tapos instead of pompoms or balloons, yun ang ginamit nila para sa pag-cheer. Cute but corny kasi super rehearsed yung dating nila. Hindi na spontaneous. Pero, syempre ang effort dun ay di mo naman makaka-ila. Gwapo ang escort. Di ko nakita yung muse.

Second, batch Magis. Pink power! Pangit yung uniform ng mga cheerdancers kasi yung pagka-pink nun ay Stabilo Boss kind of pink. Shocking kung shocking. Pweh. Pangit yung color. Pero, di pangit ang mga taong nag-susuot. Special shout out to my bestieh Choi and Mia, Jay-ar, Belle, Arman, Mara. Galing niyo guys!!! Proud to be your friend and bestieh!!! Syempre, dahil walang pondo ang batch namin na kuntento na kami sa pink na flaglets, mangilan-ngilan na pink balloons at mga sariling gawang banner. Yun na. Yun lang. Wala kaming 1.2 million na pondo. Mahirap. Hehe... Pretty ang muse namin. Si Janice. Hehe. Cutie naman ang escort namin. Si numero singko - Robbie.

Third, batch Centenniales. Ang walang kamatayang blue na batch color. Hay. Medyo sosyalin kasi may mga balloons sila na madami. Hehe... Daming cute sa kanila. Hehe... :-) Kakakilig. Grabe!!! Hmm... The best costume na nakita ko sa lahat ng SNA Days for cheering. Asteg ang costume. Simple pero maganda. Pretty din yung muse nila. Astigin kasi player pa sa volleyball. Manuel yata yung last name. Galeng!!!

Cheering Competition
We sucked. Pangit yung sa Magis. Paano ba naman? Eh, di magkatugma-tugma yung mga sched ng mga cheerdancers. Tapos, yung lech*ng instructor na bayad ng 1000 per session ay di umaattend. Paano kaya yun? Hay... Kung siguro mga 3 practice days pa, kinaya namin sila. Pero, kahit gunun, go Choi, Mia, Belle, Jay-ar, Arman!!! Pretty pa rin.

Second placer ang Insignis. For me, common ang steps. Hindi masyadong complicated. Pero, maayos compared sa amin. Balita nga namin sa may Libis daw sila nag-ppractice. Correct me if I'm wrong. I don't know where the hell Libis is. I don't go out kasi. Meron bang pwedeng pag-praktisan dun? What-ev. Corny yung concept nila sa umpisa. Parang pang-sabayang pagbigkas lang. The costumes could have been better. Pero, I still love the color purple.

First place, Centenniales. Hands down. Maayos. MAy dating. May hatak. May energy. Although, I still believe that Invictus' cheering was still better. Maganda ang concept. Tsaka naghanda din. Napapanood nga namin silang mag-practice pag-gabi. Kasi diba, night shift ako ngayon. Hay... Congrats.

Seniors love Juniors. Juniors love Seniors. Centenniales and Magis SOLID. Hay...

Insignis vs. Magis (Men's Basketball)
Close fight. But Magis prevailed. Super intense ang mga cheerers ng both teams.

Insignis vs. Magis (Men's Volleyball)
Wah na. Dito na chumurva ang lahat. Dito na nag-umpisang mam-boo ang Insignis. Bastusan. PAlitan ng mga hurt ful words. Syempre, it takes two to tango. Kaya we can't blame Insignis for everything. Dapat, hindi na namin pinatulan ang mga ganoong bagay. Ang immature tuloy naming tingnan. Nagsusulat kami sa board. Kampihan ang Centenniales at Magis. Solid kami. Pero, syempre, outnumbered pa rin kami. But, we didn't let that bother us kasi naman walang iwanan sa ere. Cheer nila kami. Cheer din namin sila. Hay....

Siya nga pala, may silent war pa yata sila na chinuchurva. Pagkatapos ng isang game, nag-suot sila ng red ribbons. I was like. What the hell? So, childish. What war? Bakit kami ng Centenniales friends. Argh...

Insignis vs. Centenniales (Men's Volleyball)
Championship ito. Panalo ang Insignis. Clap. Clap. Clap. Panalo. Woohoo. Congrats. Magaling naman kasi sila talaga especially Yancy. Super galing niya. Lupet pumalo ng bola. Pero, in fairness sa Centenniales, nasasalo naman nila ang mga spike ni Yancy. I like Yancy. Galing niya eh. Gusto ko siyang dukutin at isama sa batch namin. Hehe...

Hay...

Galing talaga...

Men's Volleyball Champion

1. Insignis
2. Centenniales
3. Magis

Women's Volleyball Champion

1. Centenniales
2. Magis
3. Insignis

Men's Basketball Champion

1. Centenniales
2. Magis
3. Insignis

Women's BAsketball Champion

1. Centenniales
2. Insignis
3. Magis

Cheering

1. Centenniales
2. Insignis
3. Magis
   

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Talents Unlimited
Solo Champs:

1. Magis
2. Centenniales
3. Insignis

Duet Champs:

1. Magis
2. Insignis
3. Centenniales

Dance Champs:

1. Magis
2. Insignis
3. Centenniales

Gaya-gaya:

1. Magis
2. Insignis
3. Centenniales

Hay....

Gaya-gaya... Ang lupet ng Insignis. May props. Pinagka-gastusan talaga nila. Super prepared sila. Yung ginaya nila is from the MTV Music Awards yata. It was supposed to be Christina Aguilera yata. When I saw their props, I thought it was the end. Kasi bongga yung props pero syempre, nas performance din talaga.

Sino ba sa amin? Eh di ang Pussycat Dolls. Choi, Jay-ar, Vice, and other gays from our batch strut their stuff sa stage. Ang baon lang ay energy at talent. Galeng. Super enjoyable talaga sila. Asteg talaga. Galing nila prumoject. Go Choi!!! Go Jay-ar!!! (My crush kaya lang bading) Go Vice!!! (My crush kaya lang bading din. Mas maganda pa sa akin.) Hehe... Love em....

Hay... Ang dami ko ngayong mga crush... From batch Centenniales ay si basketball guy na si Reyes. From Insignis, yung guy na kumanta sa duet. Hay... Isipin ko muna yung iba..

Thank GOD for this gift. Thank you for you compassion and mercy. You really see the truth but wait. Praise GOD. We lift up this victory to YOU. YOURS is the GLORY, oh Lord. :)

Just finished eating my lunch.

After this entry, I'll sleep once again.

Hay. I'm so tired from last night's duty. We are now assigned in East Avenue Medical Center. Last night, we had the chance of working in the Trauma section of ER. The Trauma section is where all the good stuff goes. You know, the very gruesome and the very bloody part of ER. Toxic kagabi! There were a lot of cases last night. Most of the cases were from stab wounds and gunshot wounds. Trust me when I say that it was such a bloody night. Of course, it was Sunday night. Alam mo na, ang mga tanggero ay nagkagulo. Ayun, nagsasaksakan. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.

I was so excited with this rotation because I want to feel that adrenaline rush when a lot of things are happening. Eustress. I want to feel eustress. I want to be always on call. Do a lot of things. And, do these things right. I want to feel the drama of ER. I want it to be like Grey's Anatomy. I want it fast. Dramatic.

But, unfortunately (debatable statement), I was stuck with one patient. He got stabbed on his lower left thorax. Fortunately for him, the stab wound didn't hit any major organs. The x-ray and ultrasound came back negative. I was stuck with him the whole time - comforting him, explaining to him that his relatives were still looking for money to buy his meds, staying beside him while being super frustrated with the fact that my colleagues were assisting the doctors with suturing large cuts in the head and doing CPR to a dying person. I was miserable. Just standing there, talking to him. Doing nothing hmm... significant.

I want action. I want it fast. I want drama. I want to handle a patient that I could talk to then, suddenly goes to cardiac arrest and be the one to resuscitate him, then, he'd live. Argh... I guess that drama queen should just rely on House's and Grey's medical drama. Argh...

But, when I think about it. I did gain something from that experience. I do believe that out of all of us, I was the only one who really made a patient feel better. I was the only one who stayed with a patient long enough (very LONG, actually), that because of my company he really felt better that someone was there who will not leave his side.

Now I know why nurses work. It is the simple thank yous from their patients that keeps them going. It was nice to hear, "Salamat. Di mo ako iniwan."

Two months. Jeez. Two months of school work. Hindi na maubusan. Kahit three day-vacation kami ngayon, parang kulang pa rin. Strike parang. Talagang kulang. Ang daming mga requirements tapos, finals pa ng mga concepts. Jeez. Super daming dapat gawin. Ang dami ko pang hindi nagagawa. Hay... Tapos, nawawala ko pa yung notebook ko ng to-do list. Ay, naku!

Grrr....

Buti na lang at may magandang palabas. Super adik na adik talaga ako sa Grey's Anatomy at Lost. Sana ay magsimula na ang Season 3. Siya nga pala napanood ko na yung final season ng Alias. Wah!!! Super naiyak ako.

(Spoiler ahead!) Rambaldi's churva is true after all. May existent na serum or whatev it is na nagbibigay ng never-ending life. Of course, Sloane got hold of it (He never changed!). Pero, the APO team of the CIA won't let him have it kasi naman, ano na lang kaya ang gagawin niya. Eh, may confrontation scene dun. Si Sloane, Vaugh, Sydney and Jack ay nandun sa parang cave kung saan nandun yung remains (?) ni Rambaldi. Vaughn and Jack were held captive by Sloane's guards pero, Sydney has the thingy that Sloane needs. So, mag-e-Xdeal dapat. Pero, bigla ba naman binaril ni Sloane si Jack. Shet! Grabe talaga yun. Right after that, Sydney shot Sloane, as well. As in baril kung baril. So, nalaglag si Sloane sa parang water-filled na churva. Ang dramatic na part ay yung last conversation ni Sydney at ni Jack.

Shet! Naiyak talaga ako dun. Super. Iyak. Waah!!! Super love ko yung relationship nilang dalawang mag-ama. Wah! Ang intense nung pag-uusap nila. Ang galing ng acting. Hands down. Dapat na nominate sina Jennifer Garner and Victor Garber para sa Best Actress and Actor category sa Emmy's. Hay! Damn Ben Affleck for getting Jennifer Garner pregnant. If it weren't for him, I believe that Alias would have reached at least 2 more seasons.

I was satisfied with the ending. Ang galing talaga nito ni J.J. Abrams!

Hay....

May bago akong pinapanood na series. House. Dr. House is the weirdest yet, smartest doctor in medical TV shows that I have seen although, McDreamy and Dr. Preston Burke of Grey's Anatomy are super gwapo and smart as well. Asteg! Maganda ang House kasi talagang parang mystery talaga yung pag-treat sa bawat case ng mga pasyente. Tsaka weird talaga siHouse. Well, combination ng smart, weird, apathetic. Hay! Hmm... Focused sa medical conditions talaga ang House so super exciting and interesting itong show na 'to. At, super ganda ng hospital nila dito! Asteg! Daig ang Seattle Grace Hospital ng Grey's.

BTW, hindi naman pala ganun ka ganda ang St. Luke's. Magand lang. Pero, na-hype lang. Pero, tingnan na lang natin yung bagong SLMC sa may The Fort. Mukhang hotel. Hmm...

Hay....

Grabe!!!

Ang dami ko pang gagawin!!!

Okay... Ano nga ba ang mga dapat kong gawin?

1. Finsh Case Pres Drug Study
2. Charge batteries of DigiCam
3. Hanapin ang to-do list notebook
4. Gawa ng 3 NCPs at Journal Reaction para sa duty homeowrk
5. Gawa ng pwedeng maibigay sa VGH-Pedia Ward
6. Gawa ng reviewer para sa Labor & Delivery
7. Gawa ng report for HDM
8. Gawa ng reviewer for HDM
9. Magbasa sa OR Nursing
10. Gawa ng list ng mga textbooks
11. Bili ng textbooks
12. Many more...

Hay tulong!!!!

Gusto ko na talagang maging doctor.

It was one of those days where everythings just seemed so right and yet there are some things that were wrong but nevertheless, you enjoyed the day.

The past three days were one of the most fulfilling, and nerve wracking days of my life. We had our duty in Valenzuela General Hospital. And, boy! Sumabak kaagad kami sa aksyon! Asteg. We were assigned in the DR (Delivery Room) - a place where life is supposed to be brought in to this world.

Naka-witness na kaming na several deliveries. At, sawang sawa na ako sa itsura ng vagina. Pero, kahit sawang sawa na ako, na-aamaze ako sa female reproductive system, kasi ngayon pa lang talaga nag-sink sa akin na super powerful ng muscles natin at super powerful ng uterus. At, superpowerful din ng mothers dahil super sakit talagang manganak. Makikita mo talaga sa facial expressions nil na super nasasaktan na sila. Super! Saludo ako sa mothers!

Ang galing talaga ni LORD!

Tapos, doon ko din na-realize na talagang maraming tao ang hindi pa enlightened kasi pinapalaglag nila yung anak nila. Yung isang case dun ay uminom ng Cytotec kaya nalaglag yung anak. Induced abortion. Grabe! Naaawa ako.

Ang dami kong natutunan, first day pa lang. Madami pa ang mapupuntahan namin. Kaya mas madami pa akong matututunan! Asteg! Galing talaga. Tapos nakapag-IM injection na ako. Tsaka, nakapag-IV push na din ako. Nakapag-assist na ako sa isang minor surgery. Nakakangalay. Nakapag-catheterization na din ako.

Pero, nothing beats the experience of witnessing an actual delivery. Grabe! Alam mo yung super overwhelmed talaga ako. Yung tipong ang galing talaga ni LORD. Imagine talagang super HE thought of everything. Galing!!!

Ipag-pray niyo na ma-kumpleto ko yung mga PRC sheets ko para konti na lang yung gagawin ko for fourth year. Sana ay madaming manganak next week sa duty namin!!!

I only have 2 more days left until their so-called vacation (--not!) ends.

First, happy birthday to my friend Rocel! Happy 18th birthday Rocel. Actually, kahapon yung birthday niya at nag-celebrate kami sa house niya. Ang saya! Dahil may mini-reunion kami nina Beth and Iris. Haay... Nakaka-miss!

We miss you Beth and Iris!!! Especially ang aking buddy na si Beth. Wah! Nalulungkot na naman ako. Kita na lang tayo ulit.

Hay. Ang dami ko palang taong na-mimiss.

Second, ang dami kong dapat bayaran! Well, buti na lang at nabayaran ko na yung ibang dapat bayaran. Bali mga 1 grand na lang ang kulang. Pero, may mga dapat pang bilhin for the tacklebox tapos, books na super mahal at super dami. Hay....

Third, pagod na pagod na ako sa kaka-practice ng kanta para sa pinning and capping. Paulit-ulit na lang. Kaya bukas ay aabsent ako may excuse na naman ako. Sabi kasi ng aking EENT doctor ay hindi dapat ako salita ng salita dahil inflamed ang aking temporo-mandibular joint. Kaya muffled yung hearing ko sa right ear tsaka painful siya.

Fourth, gusto kong muling basahin ang Anatomy, Pharmacology, and Funda books ko kasi mag-dduty na kami sa mga hospital. Totoong tao na ang makakasalamuha namin. Hindi na lang puro dummy... I want to be ready. I want to be the best nurse that I could possibly be. And, if I do good, I will proceed to medicine. :) Hay wish ko lang.

Fifth, alam niyo ba na pumupunta ako sa mga websites ng universities na may medicine -- Harvard, Cambridge, Yale, Princeton, Stanford (ambisyosa!). Ayun. Ang daming requirements... I doubt that I could get in the universities. Siguro, sa St. Luke's MedSchool na lang ako. :)

Sixth, gusto ko na talagang maging doctor. Kung hindi neuro surgeon, gusto ko sa cardio ako. Hay...

Hay buhay... I hope that everything will be okay.

Please pray for my grandmother who is currently in the ICU. And Dx ay pneumonia. hay... I love you lola beer!

1. There has been an unfortunate accident that just happened 2 minutes ago. Yaya fell because I took the computer chair away from her where she was suppose to sit. It was an accident but I feel horrible because yaya was really hurt. And, although I said my sorry I think its not enough. Waah! This is just horrible. She hates me again.
2. There isn't going to be any vacation for me. This sucks!
3. I love watching Grey's Anatomy. If you haven't seen this show, well, you better grab a copy of the first season. Great!
4. I think, I want to be a doctor.

Random Thoughts....

I'm very happy that Taylor Hicks won over Katharine McPhee. I love his song, Do I Make You Proud.

Clay Aiken was sooo cute on the season finale of AI.

I am currently listening to Carrie Underwood's CD. I'm on the 5th track. I'm loving her CD.

I bought pirated DVDs for tomorrow's happening. Can't wait to see Beth!!!

Ang mahal ng tuition fee namin!

Do you have souveneir suggestions para sa pinning and capping namin? We're thinking of a tumbler. You know, the Starbuck's tumbler. I think its cute and useful.

Ahem... Praise GOD that I passed Pharmacology!

I think Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes' daughter's name is not so cute. Suri. Hmm... I think Sayuri is better. Hehe... Pang-geisha.

BJ and Tyler of The Amazing Race won! Woohoo! In your face Joseph and Monica. Beh!!!

...Don't Forget to Remember Me...

I still haven't settled this matter, yet. Did Brad cheat on Jen for Angelina? I like Jen and Angelina. Argh... That Brad Pitt...

And, I wish that Britney finds a better man for her. Kevin is so not worth it.

Wah!!! Mag-bblue and white uniform na kami! YEhey! Praise GOD! To GOD be the glory!!!

American Idol
I can't believe it. CHRIS DAUGHTRY is out from the competition. That, Katherine should have been out way before Paris. Argh... Si Elliott na lang yung natitira sa mga bets ko. Hey! Yung mga taong pwedeng mag-vote, paki-vote naman si Elliott tsaka si Taylor. Tanggalin na si Katherine Mc Phee. Ah shet! Final Two: Taylor Hicks and Elliott Yamin!!!

Amazing Race
Last week, na-depress ako dahil napaka-bitc*y nina Joseph and Monica at last place sina BJ and Tyler. Pero, masaya na ulit ako dahil ayon sa recaps na nabasa ko ay naka-bounce back sina BJ & tyler at 1st place na sila! Yehey! Sana sila ang manalo.

Survivor: Panama Exile Island
Ang stupid ni Shane. At least, from the time na nakapanood ako ng Survivor ay wala naman siyang super foul na ginawa.

Sana matanggal na si Aras kasi kahit na I find him cute siya ang pinaka-matinding competitor next to Terry. Sana ang dalawang survivors na matira ay si Terry at yung blonde girl. Kasi gusto kong manalo si Terry.

Si Cirie ay magaling. Hehe! Pero, ayaw ko siyang manalo. Please lang.

i just need to let this out.

i am super duper frustrated with myself. i haven't changed a bit. i am still the same unfocused student, who wouldn't care that much about studying. argh... i mean, i shouldn't be ranting kasi i am not studying naman ng sobra. yung study ko kasi is equal to browsing, or wasting my time making reviewers i don't review. yun ang studying ko. sheesh! grabe! kailangan ko ng matagpuan ang aking this is it moment at mag-aral ng mabuti.

ang dami dami kong iniisip. kung tutuusin mas mahirap pa itong summer kaysa sa mga past semesters. and to think na 9 units lang 'to. hirap na hirap ako kahit hindi nag-aaral. naiinggit tuloy ako kay paulo kasi siya nakikita ko na nag-aaral siya. tapos si arman nag-aaral din. alam mo yun? oarang ako lang ang hindi nag-aaral. argh!!!

the good news is its never too late. i still have 3 weeks to make it all better. kanina sabi nina arrell na hini na daw kami makaka-abot ng 1.75 sa card. siguro mga 2.00 na lang daw ang pwedeng highest grade namin. pero, alam ko through hardwork and by GOD's grace ay kakayanin kong abutin ang 1.75 na yan.

in one of oprah's shows, i learned that when you have a dream and you want to make it happen, you should make a plan and write it down. they said that dreams and plans written down are most likely to come true. that's why, i am writing downmy plan.

for this summer, this is my plan:

Goal: A 1.75 in all of my subjects this Summer
How will I achieve this? (Sub-Goals):
Starting tomorrow, all of my quizzes in all of my three subjects: Pharma, Nutri, Funda will never fail. A failing grade is unacceptable. A passing grade is fine but not advised. A perfect score is my ultimate goal.

I will review everyday and give equal weight and urgency for all three subjects. If it couldn't be helped, I will focus on the subject needing more attention. (Duh!)

When I take down notes, I'll make sure that I will review them. Reviewers are meant to be reviewed. So, I will review.

Avoid TV distractions. My only companion is music. Five days without TV is better than my whole life full of tv and me being unemployed.

Focus, Discipline, Love for learning. For GOD's greater glory.


I KNOW I COULD DO THIS!!!

Jesus Take the Wheel
Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her Mama & her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus, take the wheel___
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me Oh, why, oh



You and Me
Life House

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and
I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words,
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

The past week was hell. Quizzes everyday. Failing miserably - everyday. Well, passing some. But, mostly failing. Will I ever pass Nursing?

Anyway, I am trying to adjust from this chaotic sem. I'm not well adjusted, I don't think I ever will. But, hey. A girl's gotta do what she's gotta do. Study. Study. Study. How I wish that after 6 grueling weeks of studying, I will be able to go to Amanpulo and rest. Hay... Mga panaginip ko.

I have 3 new crushes. In case you're watching Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition, nakita niyo na siguro sila. Ang mga crush ko ay sina Mikee, Gerald, and Aldred. Syempre, ang major crush ko ay si Mikee. Siya yung smart guy from Ateneo tsaka major crush ko din si Aldred yung guy na marunong magluto. Hay!!!

MIkee reminds me of someone.... Someone na... Ah, basta someone!

No vacation for me.

Hay... I'm too busy about a lot of school stuff. I need to enroll this Wednesday. I am still waiting for my tuition fee from my mom. I have a lot of books to buy. Alphabetically arranged na ang mga students so, most probably lahat ng mga M ang last name ay kasama ko. Pero, according to my friend Arman, from Mar - Quis yung mga kaklase ko. Which also means na kasama ko si Arman kasi Noob siya, eh.

I am sort of happy about the section thingy kasi medyo marami-rami akong kakilala sa section ko. And, I am happy about that. But, if I really think about it, that's the time when everything just sinks in. Wala na si Beth.

Waah! Ang drama ko! Pero, talaga. Mami-miss ko si Beth! Miss ko na nga si Beth, eh! Grabe! Alam mo yun? Waah! Nakakalungkot.

Beth, Aeda, Charm, and I has always been patners. Pero, syempre... Umalis si Aeda sa Canada. Tapos si Charm, naunang umalis sa bagong school. And then, Beth and I na lang ang natira. Super close kami ni Beth pero, mas nag-grow yung friendship namin ng umalis sina Aeda and Charm. As in! Last last sem. Partners kami ni Beth. Sa HEalth Care. Partner ko sa Bed Bath, Oral Care, Vital Signs, Parenteral Medications. Alam mo yun! Super intimate na nga namin, eh. Hehe. Super transparent kami. Tapos, talagang lahat kinukwento niya sa akin. Tapos, ako naman talagang lahat kinukwento ko sa kanya. As in! Mami-miss ko talaga si Beth. As in! Super! Yung mga Jollibee and McDo moments namin kapag wala na sina Rocel. Yung mga food trip sessions namin na kung anu-ano lang ang binibili namin - Kikiam, Siomai, Ice Cream, Cheese sticks. Waah! Super mami-miss ko talaga lahat yun.

Siguro, akala ni Beth na madali lang tanggapin yung thought na pumasa ako. Pero, sa totoo lang hindi. Kahit na masaya ako dahil na-bless ako at pumasa ako, malungkot pa rin kasi wala na siya dun. Yung tipong, gusto kong maging masaya kaya lang it will be happier if I could share it with Beth. Hay! Mag-aadjust kaming pareho. Hay! Pero, one thing's for sure - friends pa rin kami.

At tuloy pa rin ang aming PaLuWagAN!

Hehe...

I pray that we may find GOD's purpose for all of this...

I could sing of YOUR love forever. I could sing of YOUR love forever.

I am truly amazed by the LORD's power. I am truly in awe. I can't believe how blessed I am. Though sometimes I feel that I am not worthy of it, I know that because He died for me... I am some special being.

Grabe! I can't of anything else to say but thank you. I can't express how wonderful this feels basta, thank you na lang. Those two words aren't even enough to show you the depth of how I am feeling. I am so amazed at your marvelous power. Grabe!

LORD, super salamat talaga. I can't believe that I passed this stage of my education as a Nurse. Super overwhelmed talaga ako! As in! I mean passing the Microbio is one thing. Pero, passing the Battery Exam - that is super wow na talaga!

You see, guys, the Battery Exam that I took (which was taken on the same day of Pacquiao and Morales' fight) was not an easy thing. Actually, the questions were UPCAT type na mas madali pa, pero ang catch is time pressured ito. Four part test ito. Sort of confident naman ako sa first three parts, pero, nung sinasagutan ko na yung fourth part bigla ba namang sinabi nung proctor na 15 minutes (or is it 20) na lang. Eh, super dami pa ng hindi ko nasasagot. Mga around 20 - 40 items pa. Eh, abstract reasoning na mataas ang degree of difficulty pa naman yun. Kaya nga that time, nung super under pressure ako, sinabi ko na lang na, "LORD, kayo na ang mag-takeover sa hands ko. I-guide mo na lang kung anong circle ang i-shshade ko." Tapos, alam mo yun, talagang hindi ko na binasa yung mga questions. As in super ni-lift up ko na lang talaga lahat kay LORD. Talagang, ngayon ko na-realize na it was not me answering the Battery Exam. There was this higher being guiding me all throughout. Grabe! Super wow talaga ang powers ni LORD! Woohoo! Testimony to!

Tapos, parang yung MICRO. Alam mo yun. Hindi talaga ako yung tipo ng student na super duper aral sa subject na yun. I only study for 2 hours fora a certain exam (which is hindi sapat sa mga MICRO concepts). Tapos, nag-aaral lang ako that morning. Hindi talaga ako makapaniwala. Pero, pagdating naman ng mga major exams... nag-aaral na talaga ako. Hehe! Pero, wow talaga! Super grabe itong blessings na 'to!

Dahil dito sa mga biyayang natanggap ko, I realized a lot of things. Muling na-affirm yung love ko for GOD and yung faith ko sa kanya. That, eventhough I might lack the qualities of a good student, with ORA et LABORA, I can do anything. God is so powerful... that ang Divine interventions niya ang nag-papasa sa akin. Grabe!

I bring back all the glory to you.

LORD, thank you for the blessings. Salamat dahil pumasa ako sa removals sa MICRO. Sana po bukas, sa pagtanggap ko ng mahiwagang envelope, nawa'y mabuting balita din ang dala nito.

I made a lot of realizations from this nerve-wracking experience of taking the removals exam. First, I am so lazy. And, I need to change that. Second, I am very proud of myself. Tsk... tsk... Baguhin din yun.

I am truly humbled by this experience.

That in all things GOD may be glorified.

Next, please take notice of the flickr badge on thee left side of the screen. Nice pics noh! Syempre, litrato ko yan. Hehe! Thank you Leo for introducing me to this flickr thingy.

I am so loving country music right now. That is because of Bucky Covington. He's not the best singer but, I really like him. I like the songs he sings in AI5. I love the songs that they're singing.

My Bets for AI5:

1. Chris Daughtry
   
2. Mandisa
   
3. Kellie Pickler (I don't like her voice but she's very charming.)
   
4. Bucky Covington
   
5. Elliott Yamin
   

I love the songs: Drops of Jupiter, Real Good Man, I Don't Wanna Be. All of these were songs that were sung on AI5.

God, help! Thank you for all the blessings!

You can never be too happy in this life.

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate my sister for graduating with honors in St. Scholastica's College. Take note: Silver Medalist yan. Hehe! Proud sister! She truly deserves it. She worked hard for it. Her GC-ness paid off. :)

And, although I am truly happy for my sister, a sort of bad news ruined my mood. I learned that I am going to take removal exams for Microbiology. Not bad, actually. I mean, its better than Failing. But, I feel so inferior. I know that I could've done better. But, there's no crying over spilled milk. What's done is done. And, all I can do is strive to be better this removals, which by the way will be harder according to our professor.

Lord, help! I know you won't leave me.

Pero, pwede iyak muna ako. Nahihiya ako sa magulang ko. Waah! :(

okay, what i'm about to write is downright senseless... i'm so frustrated, angry, and everything else i don't want to hurt anybody with what i'm about to say.

i worked so hard para sa churva namin. but then si ms. churva to nth level ay nag-walkout chenes sa amin without cheverling our side. what's frustrating is that si ms chuva ay hindi man lang naging mas-open minded to hear our side. chuva talaga!

i chuvster worked hard for this. everyone did. and walk out? damn you!

buti pa ang micro... aminado ako ay super pabaya ako churva sa subject niya. but then again, i know in my heart, i will pass the subject. alam ko na ilang madamdaming pag-aaral lang ay okay ako. i know it. i just know it. churva talaga!

hay....

serious na ako...

may quote akong nabasa... ang ganda.... may this help me and all those who are frustarted with life and problems...

As you go through life may this forever be your goal: Look upon the doughnut and not upon the hole...

Your Stripper Song Is

I'm" a Slave 4 U by Britney Spears "I'm a slave for you. I cannot hold it; I cannot control it.I'm a slave for you. I won't deny it; I'm not trying to hide it." You may seem shy, but you can let your wild side out when you want to!

What Song Should You Strip To?

You Are Los Angeles

Young and fun, you always know where the best parties are.And while you tend to keep things carefree and casual...You certainly can glam it up when you need to. Famous people from Los Angeles: Tyra Banks, Jake Gyllenhall, Freddie Prinze Jr.

What American City Are You?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

glowing inside (?) by nikki gil

happy, to let you know
you make me glow
i feel so good its true
so glad that I have you
you love me so
now all is bright
i'll always

thank you for the glow
i thank you for the joy
thank you for the love
you gave to me
i’m glowing, glowing inside
with your love shining through
i thank you for everything you do
i'm glowing inside because of you

remember my growing years
they're filled with joy
because you're there for me
you cast my fears away
you wipe those tears
you give me strength each day

i thank you for the glow
i thank you for the joy
thank you for the love
you gave to me
i’m glowing, glowing inside
with your love shining through
i thank you for everything you do
i'm glowing inside because of you

who knows what tomorrow brings
my glowing wings
you make me fly
i reach and now i touch the sky
because of youi'll soar up high
so i must

thank you for the glow
i thank you for the joy
thank you for the love
you gave to me
i’m glowing, glowing inside
with your love shining through
i thank you for everything you do
i'm glowing inside because of you

Fast, update...

Thinking about celebrating my birthday in Red Box with my college friends. Omigosh!

Shoot! Visual Aids for the family. I'm screwed. I haven't finished it, yet.

Another, we still don't have our script for our Literature project.

Oh wow. This is so frustrating. I just learned two days ago that my midterm grade in microbio is 70.48. Seventy point forty-eight nga ba? Ah, ewan. Basta mga ganun lang. Hindi pasado. Waah! How am I ever going to pass second year? Grabe! Will I ever be a nurse?

Gustung-gusto ko ang teleserye na Mga Anghel na Walang Langit. As in! Super palagi akong na-totouch. Lalo na yung mga scenes ni Nanay Lusing at ni Gigi. Super! Wala lang. Na-iinspire ako. Alam mo yung innocence tsaka simplicity sa isang bata. Ah, basta! Iba. Sana ma-extend pa sila. Matatapos na kasi, eh.

I'm thinking of spending my birthday with my college friends in Red Box Greenbelt? Wala akong pera kaya yung mga highschool friends ko, on hold muna. Hehe...

Gift ko!

Anyway, Yung Dream of this site paki-puntahan for gift ideas.

Okay, back to things that are totally mind-draining - Acads. Ewan ko ba! Ay naku! Super ang daming kailangang gawin, ang daming gastusin, ang daming bagsak, konti ang pinapasa. Ewan ko ba!

It was a very long day - worthy of chronicling, actually. But, it was so long that I'd rather have memories of it in my head. Maybe tomorrow, I'll write about it.

Okay, some random thoughts about today.

I made a wrong decision of wearing my plain white shirt instead of wearing the SNA shirt. See, I brought my SNA shirt but my jeans' button is broke and I was just worried that when we are hiking, my fly would be open and it's happy valentines to everybody. And, that SNA shirt is tight on my chest. You know naman, well-endowed.

I feel that our block doesn't deserve our adviser, Sir Messiah Dela Cruz. He is just so lenient and very approachable. He is #3 on my list: "Who I want to be my HC Adviser". He's just so... so... nice. And, we are so pasaway! We so not deserve him. Napaka-bait niya, eh.

Sermon galore sa unang araw ng community. We were reprimanded and scolded by two CIs - Sir Poten and Ma'am A (Forgot her name...) and somehow they struck a chord in me. Made me reflect on our way back to school.

I realized a lot of things... So many things... (This one I'll write tomorrow or on Friday)

Haven't seen the latest episode of American Idol.

Tomorrow's another hell day. Unit exam sa Micro - one chapter lang pero super haba at ang dadaming mememorize-in na mga gamot. Sh*t! Tapos may long test sa MicroLab. Di ko maintindihan yung mga nireport previously. Sh*t!

One helpful act I remembered from the TV series LOST:
Jack: "I only let 10 seconds of fear get through me. After that, my fear - its over." (not the same words but that's the gist of what he said)

I miss my mom.

Right after watching the new commercial of Vaseline - yeah, the one where Nikki Gil is singing the 'jingle' of a sort of mini-movie which chronicles the relationship of a mother and her daughter (with exaggerated straight and shiny hair) - I cried. Well, not cried. A degree less than crying.

I miss my mom so much.

I remember my high school graduation - which was the worst graduation one could have. Both of my parents were not here during that time. Can you imagine how terrible I felt? I mean, although, I have no awards which they could be proud of, its just a nice feeling to share your accomplishments with the people you love.

Nikki Gil has such an angelic voice. It gives the ad a more dramatic feeling. I don't mind the lengthy commercial.

But, I still use Head & Shoulders for my shampoo and Palmolive Naturals for my conditioner. :p

I had a great time cheering for our college yesterday in the inter-college sports event.

Well, panalo lang naman ang nursing sa volleyball girls, cheerdance, and basketball boys. I don't know about the other events but I am so proud. To hell with CBA. Ang yayabang! Na-technical foul nga! Hehe...

Lord, what is the reason behind what happened today? Why did you let that happen? What do you want to teach us from that tragedy?

In case you're hiding under a man hole and don't have a tv, you probably won't know that around 70 people died today from a stampede in Phil. Sports Arena a.k.a. Ultra in their hopes of winning something from the first Anniversary of Wowowee.

I was on my way to school when I heard about that tragic news. During that time, only 20 people were reportedly dead on the scene due to the stampede. I thought that was the end of the deaths but boy, was I wrong! Twenty people is tragic. Seventy is devastating.

God, I can't explain how depressed I am feeling right now.

Those people waited for almost all of their lives just to get a chance to win something. They hoped for a life-changing moment. And, I guess, that's what they got.

I just feel so depressed. Depressed as in, my-heart-is-bleeding-figuratively kind of depression. Why Lord, did you let this happen? Help us find the reason why? Are you testing the people behind Wowowee? Gosh, what is the reason?

This is so frustrating. Argh...

I love watching Wowowee. I find it very... entertaining... and charitable. Although, I get irritated by some of Willie's green jokes (which, I personally think have been mild compared to what he's done before), I really find the spirit of sharing and giving very much alive in their show. Its very inspiring to see the 'richer' Filipinos give a little of what they have to the unfortunate Filipinos. The TFC subscribers giving dollars without hesitation is so inspiring. The contestants just asking for what they need and not asking for more is... Inspiring.

The show has inspired me to want less and give more.

And, of course, eventhough the network hypes their goal of giving to the poor (which I sometimes find annoying), I don't mind. Both networks (ABS CBN and GMA) do the same. They act as if they are the only ones who should help other people. Puh-leez. Can we just get along?

Another related story...

On my way home tonight, the people inside the FX were talking about the tragedy in Ultra. What pissed me off was what the lady said. It was bashing the show. I mean saying negative things about it. In my mind, I was like, " Tumigil ka na nga. Buti nga tinutulungan yung mga mas mahihirap." If I were out of my mind, I would have gone ballistic and shouted at her. Jeez!

Can we just get along?

Pwede tama na ang network war? Kasi, kung hindi dahil diyan hindi naman i-eexploit ng both networks ang poverty ng mga Pilipino.

I feel bad. So bad talaga. Hindi ko ma-explain. I feel bad for ABS CBN because they should've known better how to handle a great deal of people. I feel bad for the people behind Wowowee because all they wanted was to help (and, of course, win the ratings war), but their intention was not enough to save lives. I feel bad for Willie because... I just feel bad for everyone.

All I can do is write about it and pray for everyone.

This is so disheartening. I am crying right now.

I am super high right now, I can't even explain. I feel like I am under a drug and I can't seem to stop thinking about Carol Banawa and whether she got through American Idol 5 or not. I saw today the auditions in Austin. And I saw her. She had a short exposure. Around 3 seconds. But I wasn't able to see the actual auditions. And, I didn't know whether she got through or not. Argh... I am positive that that's her. I saw it on the AI's site. Gosh! I'm going gaga over this thing. I do hope she got through. She definitely has a chance.

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Did she get through? I am praying she did.

I am so addicted to Dreamofthis . I found this site through Yahoo! because I was searching for a convenient wish list site which is easy to use, can be used in any site and looks cute. Right now, I already selected around 60 wishes which I hope those who know me will get for my 18th birthday. (Hint! Hint!)

Most of those wishes are expensive but, who knows my richer relatives could pitch in and buy me that MacBook Pro.

Try it! You'll get addicted to it. Hehe...

Anyway, I went to Quiapo Church this morning to pray for my father's medical exam... He's not finish yet, according to him. I hope he does fine. Please pray for him...

I had mixed emotions tonight.Well, I was able to talk to my friend from elementary (co-Kulasa) - Stephanie Hazel Arroyo through IM. We talked about school and all that stuff. Nothing much, really. And although I feel happy for them, I felt bad (again) about myself. I felt bad that I am not able to reach my full potential. I don't know. Maybe, its just me and my insecurities.

Yeah! Whatever.

Choi, taught me this new 'conio' statement, "I know. Right?" When you do it the conio way it should sound like this, "I know. Righ?" I don't know how to type it but I am sure you know how that sounds.

I am really having fun doing this wish list thingy. Its so cool to have all your wants in a site and your friends, family, anyone - rich or not so rich - could see 'em. And, maybe they could buy you those things. Sweet!

Iris made me realize something. I still don't have a plan for my 18th birthday. No big deal for me. I mean, my friends and I could just eat out (hmm, in Cabalen or TGIF, maybe?) or stay in a hotel (Westin, Intercon) or perhaps, just go to EK. Worse, in Star City. Talk about being a woman.

Sheesh!

Is it really needed to have a big birthday party? I mean, we don't have a lot of money. Y'know got to live by our means. Pwede bang i-cash na lang para makabili ako ng MacBook Pro.

Ah, ewan. What will be, will be.

Sh*t! This is so inevitable. Grabe! I can't believe it.

Jecca an I are going to meet on Friday. Excited na ako.

I am currently craving for Siomai and Indonesian Fried Rice.

Keeping my fingers crossed for Felicity Huffman as the Best Actress for Academy Awards on the 5th of March.

Finally, I can breathe... Or so I thought.

The interview that I had today was fine. It wasn't a breeze but, I think I did fine. Well, except for some grammatical mishaps. Argh... I can speak good english naman. But, when I am in such a stressful situation is either I speak my best english or my worst english. Let's just say I was neither but leaning to the worst. Got it? Whatever.

The 3 panelists who interviewed me were Sir Mes, Sir Trieste (?), Sir Ayen (?). I think I am one of the few who were lucky enough who weren't grilled on Anatomy and Health Care stuff. They asked mostly about my personal life, which I am not ashamed to talk about. Duh?!? This blog is evidence that I am sort of shameless.

Disclaimer: What you're about to read is not verbatim. I sort of altered some and I sort of remembered most of the content.

Panelists: Tell us something about yourself
Kaye: I love reading books, watching tv, watching movies. I have a happy family who loves me dearly. And, i have a strong bond with my sister....
P: So, are you the eldest?
K: Yes, I am. My sister is 10 years old. (And, my sister is 12 years old. Totally, mental drift.)

And then, in the course of conversation we landed in this topic,

P: Since your mother is working in Canada and your father is a seaman, what do you do to be the "head of the family"? (Yeah... my english is bad)
K: Well, everytime that the money we have at hand doesnt fit our monthly budget, I make sure that everytime we borrow money I see to it that we pay them as soon as I receive our monthly allowance. I make sure that our house gets paid. My sister's tuition fee gets paid. And, all the other expenses gets paid.

Blah... Blah... Blah...

I personally think that I sounded mature enough to handle the stress. And here is my personal favorite...

P: What is your greatest fear?
K: I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be left behind.
P: What will you do if you have little time to spend with your loved ones because they are leaving you?
K: I'll make the most out of the remaining time and tell them everything that I want to tell them. Like how much I love them.
P: What do you do when you are stressed out?
K: I read the Bible.
P: Why?
K: I feel that sense of security after reading the Bible. I feel re-assured that everything is going to be okay because I know that God is there for me. And his promises makes me feel secured and safe, no matter what the situation is.

And, there are some major screw-ups...

P: Do you know any characters from the Looney Toons?
K: Yes.
P: If you were to choose between RoadRunner and Coyote (then, my face starts to shift from a smiling one to a confused-naive-who-the-hell-is-coyote kind of look), who do you think resembles you the most?
K: Huh? I am not familiar with them.
P: Coyote is the one chasing RoadRunner.
K: Ahh... I am really not familiar. Can I choose another character?
P: Okay. (Sounding like why-did-you-say-yes-and-omigosh-you-don't-know-who-roadrunner-and-coyote-are kind of tone)
K: I am like Bugs Bunny. Because he has this certain positive outlook in life. Which is very much like myself. He ends eating his carrots. (I really think I sounded stupid while saying this. But, I think I sort of pulled it off with my blah english)

Over all, I think I did a good job! Thanks God for everything!

Okay, I lift everything up to God. So, whatever HE wills. I gladly accept.

I realized something. Its never too late for anything. And, I should give myself more credit. And, I am somebody. I am capable of facing anything. Gosh! This interview has taught me a lot.

i am so tired from yesterday's rendezvous in lucena. tiring but fun.

tomorrow is my interview. can't wait to get crushed by the panelists' teeth. they think i'm yummy because i am so transparent and very emotional.

God help!

still in the process of making my wish list...

Before I forget, Martina Hingis was already out of the Australian Open. I'm rooting for Maria Sharapova. And, Kobe Bryant with 81 points. Gosh, I love them!

I want to get back and play tennis with my dad.

I am ecstatic! When I log on to Yahoo! I was super surprised because Manny Pacquiao is on the top of the Buzz Log. He's no. 1. He's the most searched Sports related item. I am super proud. Finally, I a Filipino in Yahoo!

I went to National Bookstore and I saw another book by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. The title is something... something... Memory of My Whore... I can't remember the title but I find it interesting. I wanted to buy it but its too expensive - 900 bucks.

Jeez!

Tomorrow will be the last test of my midterms. And, I am going to have a hell of a weekend to celebrate freedom from midterm stress.

My friends and I are going to Quezon to film our Literature project. And, after finishing that project... Diretso na kami sa beach! Beach nga ba yun? I'll reward myself with Lays and Cream Cheese combo, a new CD, and a new book.

To crappy things, I will be having my interview on the 31st. And I don't have a smart casual attire. I need to buy slacks, long sleeved top with collar, nice shoes, and make-up (hiram na lang ako!). Sheesh!

God bless! God help!

I'm currently screen sucking while I'm doing my reviewer for tomorrow's Microbiology's Practical Exam. Certified multitasker.

I am so pissed right now. Argh. The only thing that kept me sane this week is Manny Pacquiao winning his bout with Morales. Sheesh! I am such a loser this week. I didn't do well in my Battery Exam which, by the way, is one of the deciding factors if I could still stay in Trinity and continue Nursing. I didn't do well in any of my midterms - SHE, Health Care, Physics. And, the remaining three exams, which are the remaining things that could make me feel better about my horrendous academic performance - Microbio Practicals, Lecture, and Laboratory - are doomed to be nothing but crappy stuff that will continue to crappify my life.

Life is a bitch.

God help!

Lost and Desperate Housewives bag the Best TV Series at the Golden Globes for Drama and Comedy. Yipee! And, Felicity Huffman won Best Actress for the movie Transamerica. Yipee! Although my favorite Marcia Cross didn't win Best Actress for a TV Comedy Series, that's fine with me, at least, she looks good in her gown. Haha!

And, Heath Ledger has a poor sense of style as well as the mother of his kid, Michelle Williams. Oh, I don't care. He's still one of my crushes. Of course, together with Johnny Depp. :)

What is it with the Golden Globes fashion this year? I am sort of not into it. Its too... plain, I guess. There's not much bling and most of them are going for the goth look. But, there are still those stunners that are amazingly elegant and beautiful in their dresses.

My Top 10 Best Dressed (In no particular order):
1. Felicity Huffman
2. Natalie Portman
3. Marcia Cross (but, change the color to black or white)
4. Maria Bello
5. Penelope Cruz (minus the zombie looking make-up)
6. Eva Longoria (but, I think it would have been better if her hair was shorter)
7. Sarah Jessica Parker
8. Jessica Alba
9. Charlize Theron (as always!)
10. Hilary Swank

My 5 Worst Dressed (In no particular order):
1. Michelle Williams
2. Heath Ledger
3. Harold Perinneau
4. Emmy Rossum (this gown of hers is a copy cat of what Charlize wore on the Academy Awards last year... was it the Oscars or the Golden Globes? i'm not quite sure...)
5. Hmm... Joaquin Phoenix (looks like a drug addict)

That's about it! I can't wait for the Academy Awards...

I absented myself last Saturday because I was with my sister and I was helping her out with her very first formal party. She looked great, by the way!

Anyway, Tomorrow is the Golden Globes - I think. I'm not sure. I just hope the Marcia Cross wins Best Actress in a Comedy Series. She's just amazing! Everytime I watch her - I always think of her as somebody who just stepped out from Stepford.

I am really looking forward to seeing the awards shows in Hollywood. It is very far from the awards shows here in the Philippines. I mean - theirs is just so full of glamour. Ours, is just full of controversies that are so... so... argh! Y'all know what I mean.

I just wish that one day I'll be there and my work just gets to win the Best Comedy Series or Best Drama Series. I would either be the director, the writer, or the actress (haha!). Well, we really never know. If I weren't any of the three, I would be fine covering the Golden Globes for E!.

Another thing, Filipino celebrities don't know how to wear clothes. Well, except for Cherie Gil, Lucy Torres - Gomez, and Ruffa Guttierez.

Grabe!

I just finished writing 2 comments sa site na ito Kapamilya vs Kapuso . I am so pissed off. Argh! What the hell is happening to the Philippines - the Filipinos. We fight over the littlest of things. For God's sakes! Even the TV ratings! We meddle with such corporate competition affairs that we shouldn't fight about. We don't get anything out of it. The Lopezes and the Gozons are the ones benefiting our own stupidity. Hello? Okay ka lang. They continue to generate a lot of money but, us consumers kahit na supposed to be ay nasa atin ang power, na mamanipulate pa rin nila tayo. Media!

Anyway, the comment that really pissed me off was this...

ETO ANG TOTOO


OO, MARAHIL MAS MARAMI ANG KAPAMILYA.
PANG-SOSYAL, PANG-MATATALINO AT PANG-MATITINONG TAO LANG ANG GMA-7
QUALITY TV TALAGA ITO.
HINDI TALAGA MAKAKARELATE ANG MGA MABABANG URI NG TAO D2 S KAPUSO.
NASA HIGHER LEVEL NA KASI ANG GMA.
KUNG MAPAPANSIN NIO, UNG MGA TAONG KILALANG MATALINO, KAPUSO CLA.
OO, GMA HAS LESS VIEWERS ALLOVER THE COUNTRY. PERO AMONG ALL, GMA HAS THE MOST NUMBER OF RECIEVED AWARDS. AND THESE AWARDS ARE REALLY "BIGATIN!"
MOST FILIPINOES ARE SO CHEAP!
THAT''S ABS.
LESS ANG MGA PILIPINONG MASASABING KAKAIBA. THAT''S GMA.
BUT WHEN THE TIME COMES NA MAGING HIGH-CLASS NA TAO ANG MGA PILIPINO, SURELY, MORE ARE GONNA BE KAPUSO....................
ADMIT IT OR NOT, THAT''S TRUE.........................



SABI NIO KANINA NA SA MEGA-MANILA LANG SIKAT ANG GMA= TRUE YUN
REASON:
SABI KO NGA KANINA PANG HIGH-CLASS NA TAO ANG GMA.............
GANUNG MGA TAO ANG NASA MANILA.
UNG MAG NASA PROVINCE ARE CHEAP!
ADMIT IT. D MAN LAHAT, BUT MOST!
SANA MAREALIZE NIO UNG POINT KO!



I WANT A FEEDBACK FROM ANY LOYAL KAPAMILYA!
MY e-mail: scorpion_12341981@yahoo.com
YM:scorpion_12341981
FRIENDSTER:scorpion_12341981@yahoo.com

Written by: TRUTH at 2005/12/26 - 09:40:03


The above comment really irritated me that I even posted 2 comments myself. I can't believe myself for doing this.

Eto ang comments ko...

Comment 1:
Kapamilya ako. But, I don't hate GMA-7. I mean - I choose to watch the shows of ABSCBN rather than GMA's because I find them more entertaining. And, the same goes to the loyal viewers of Channel 7. You find Kapuso's tv shows as more entertaining than those of Channel 2. So, what's the big deal? We have the right to choose whatever it is that we choose to watch.

Kaya bati na tayo mga kapuso at kapamilya. Pareho lang naman tayong mga Pilipino, eh. Di ba? Let us stop bashing each other.

It doesn't mean that what you choose is better than the other.

Like for example, kaming magkakaibigan, 2 lang kaming loyal na kapamilya tapos the three of them more-kapuso-than-kapamilya kindo of loyalty ang meron sila. But, so what? Di ba? I mean, okay lang naman yun eh. Hindi namin pinipilit ang bawat isa na pumaing sa isang channel lang. Kaya nga I feel blessed dahil ang mamature naming magkakaibigan.

When they talk of Encatadia or Etheria, we listen. We don't shut them up. When we talk of Only You or Mga Anghel, they listen. They don't shut us up. Dapat kahit na magkakaiba tayo ng mga gusto, marunong tayong i-accept ang sariling individuality ng tao. Na ang bawat tao ay may kanya-kanyang gusto at hilig.

Eh, ano kung mababa ang ratings ng Channel 2 sa Mega Manila? Eh, ano kung sa Mega Manila No. 1 ang Channel 7? Di ba?

So, sana lang ibahin na natin ang attitude nating mga PILIPINO.

Peace!


Comment 2:
I think it is so mean of you to equate the channel we watch to our economic status. That is just so unfair. It doesn't mean that if we watch Channel 7 we belong to the sosyal group na, di ba? Likewise sa channel 2. It doesn't mean that if we watch Channel 2, we belong to the cheap class. That is just so illogical and pointless. (Don't get mad.)

"MOST OF THE FILIPINOS ARE CHEAP...(pero nag-disclaimer ka at sabi mo) DI MAN LAHAT... MGA TAO SA PROBINSYA CHEAP..." (Sorry if I misquote you, tinatamad akong mag-copy and paste)

Aren't you a Filipino? If not, well go ahead and bash my nationality. If you are, you are making a big mistake by saying those words. What the fuck do you mean by cheap? Excuse me, but I am a Filipino and you don't call me cheap just because I watch more shows of ABSCBN than that of GMA.

With all due respect, I don't think that probinsyanos are cheap. What do you mean by cheap, on the first place? Kung ang cheap na ibig mong sabihin ay based sa economic status ng tao, excuse me, but have you been to Davao or Cebu? People there own farm lands which generate millions a year.

Clarify mo muna kung anong cheap ang ibig mong sabihin.

Kasi kung cheap na ugali, I don't think saying, "MOST FILIPINOS ARE CHEAP" is sosyal.

Peace!



Buti na lang may Desperate Housewives!!!

My Digestive System is screwed. I don't know what is happening to my stomach. Or maybe, its not my stomach, its what I put inside my stomach. Argh... I've been having these multiple bowel movements since last December. You see, I think that I have a pretty good digestion because my bowel movement is regular. Regular, meaning I release all my fecal stuff before I go to school. When I do that, I feel secured that I will not release any crap in school. But, behold, my rectum just won't let my shit behave. I should try and go see a doctor. There is something wrong.

Crap!

Anyway, I had another bad day today. The 83 that I got for our Return Demonstration for CPR wasn't really a big deal but, something really happened and I feel bad and ashamed for what I did.

My other HC professor is Sir Uy. He's gay - I think. And, it doesn't really matter if he is. Anyway, I must've caught him in a bad mood because he stormed out from the other room to our room because of what I didn't do.

I was supposed to call out Apostol and Rivera but, I ended up calling Rivera. So, Apostol was clueless that she was next to go. When Rivera got out and called Apostol, the latter was nowhere in sight because she was in the CR, which got Sir Uy irritated because he waited for Apostol for quite sometime which could have been prevented if only I called out for Apostol.

I said my sorry to Nats (Apostol). Then, I talked to Sir Uy. I said that it was all my fault and it wasn't Nats' fault. So, if there were any deductions to be made on Nats' part, I'll gladly accept them instead. But, Sir Uy didn't quite grasp what I meant. Jeez! Lord, please let him know what I meant by what I said.

Communication. Such a vital thing.

So please, my dear rectum cooperate.

To my disappointment, my 2 recent DVD Series purchases - which are pirated, lacks 2 CDs. I think I get it now. These DVDs are just recorded from the TV and then they save it to DVD format. Then, they sell it to people like me who doesn't have enough money to invest in original DVDs. Oh, I wish that someone would buy me original DVDs.

I once again indulged to my secret pleasure of buying pirated DVDs of my favorite TV series. Of course, I am not proud of what I did - buying fake stuff, but I won't blame myself. Anyway, I bought Season 1 of Charmed which costs 420 bucks, Season 2 of Desperate Housewives, and Season 2 of my favorite Lost. I can't wait to see all of it. Grabe!

Hmm... Di ko pa rin nabibilhan ng gift ang sister ko ng Uno Stacko(?).

What did you do in 2005 that you've never done before?
I was able to eat California Roll and drink Margarita.

Did you keep your New Year's resolutions and will you make more for next year?
No. Definitely not. I was at my worst last year.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope.

Did anyone close to you die?
Somebody close to me had somebody close to them died. So, no.

What countries did you visit?
None. Next year, sana.

What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Patience. Self-confidence.

What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
December 18 - 30. These were the days that I spent in Davao mostly, with my relatives on my mother's side. Grabe! Truly an unforgettable experience.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Hmm... I actually think that I didn't achieve anything. Siguro, traveling without my parents. Yun na siguro.

What was your biggest failure?
I am a failure the past year.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
No. I don't think so. Asthma attacks paminsan.

What was the best thing you bought?
The best thing I bought? Hmm... Books.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My mother. I can't imagine how she could handle the holidays without us. Its been 3 years - I think.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My behavior.

Where did most of your money go?
I don't want to know.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Christmas in Davao.

What song(s) will always remind you of 2005?
My Humps by the Black Eyed Peas, Because of You by Kelly Clarkson, Stickwitu by Pussycat Dolls, and Luxurious by Gwen Stefani

Compared to this time last yar, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? -- pweh! fatter
iii. richer or poorer? -- poorer

What do you wish you'd done more?
Read the bible. Exercise. Studied more.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Eating. Sleeping. Complaining.

How many one - night stands?
None.

What was your favorite TV program?
Definitely, LOST.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
None.

What was the best book you read?
Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hmmm... I don't know. I rediscovered The Corrs.

What did you want and get?
A new bible.

What was your favorite film this year?
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants.

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
I turned 17. And, I didn't do much.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Di ko alam. Wala. Even if this year sucked, I like it just the way it was.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Umm. same ol' pambahay garb.

What kept you sane?
Writing.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmm... Oprah. Definitely, Oprah.

What political issue stirred you the most?
The GloriaGate and Spying issue.

Who did you miss?
I miss my mother.

Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm... New person? Kuya Randy - Ate May's boyfriend. He's not talkative but I could talk to him naman.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
FAMILY is so importane in my buhay. And, your buhay!

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
Aeda said something and that really made me feel better.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
December 30 when we left Davao.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
Hmm... My being funny.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
What did I not hate about myself.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
With a Smile...

Was 2005 a good year for you?
Every year is a good year.

What was your favorite moment?
Christmas in Davao. Pearl Farm!

What was your least favorite moment?
Times when I feel bad about myself.

Where were you when 2005 began?
Sa bahay

Who were you with?
Yaya and Kamille

Where were you when 2005 ends?
Sa bahay ulit

Who were you with with 2005 ended?
Papa, Kamille, Yaya

Do you have a NY's Resolution?
Yes.

What was your favorite month?
March, December

Did you lose asnybody close to you in 2005?
No.

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes.

What was your favorite record from 2005?
Unplugged ni Alicia Keys

How many concerts did you see?
None.

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
No. Minimal lang. Actually, around 5 sips lang.

Do a lot of drugs?
No.

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Meron.

How much money did you spen in 2005?
A lot.

What was your proudest moment?
Di ko alam.

Most embarrassing moment?
Nahulog sa Eden.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
Hmm... Don't really know.

What are your plans for 2006?
I still don't know. I would accept whatever it is that's in store for me.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I'm better. I know I am better in a lot of things. And, I'll strive to be the best that I could be!

What are your wishes for the new year?
Peace on earth. Better governance from the government. Abolish poverty. More money. Better health. Better me.

What did you like most about yourself this year?

Your Christmas Song Is

Frosty the SnowmanWas a jolly happy soulWith a corncob pipe and a button noseAnd two eyes made out of coal Snowball fights, sledding, and tons of hot chocolate with candy canes.Christmas is all about reliving the adventures of your youth.

What Christmas Carol Are You?

We're not yet through with the packing. And, by the way, my dad and I are getting along already.

I am excited for the trip tomorrow. Davao, here we come! I am sooo excited.

At this very moment, I am still keeping my fingers crossed. I hope Jason will be the first Pinoy Big Brother winner.

Anyway, today was supposedly the worldwide release of the movie Memoirs of a Geisha but, when I called the Gateway Cineplex, the lady said that they still don't have the copy of Memoirs of a Geisha.

I saw movie reviews from Yahoo! and from Eonline. The reviews weren't as good as I thought they would be. Yahoo! gave it a 3 out of 4 rating. And, Eonline compared the movie to a beautifully wrapped present but with a disappointing content.

But, that won't stop me from seeing the movie. I' d have to see it for myself.

To more serious things...

At this moment, I hate my father. I really do. But, I don't really care. He doesn't seem to like me. I think he loves my sister more than me. I don't care if he doesn't love me or like me or whatever. I don't care if he ignores me. I don't care if he hates me too. I hate hime more. The feeling is mutual.

But, of course, I am lying to myself when I say that I don't care. Of course, I do care. He's my father, dammit! I just need to fool myself and hate him so, that I won't get hurt.

Iyak na lang ako mamaya...

This is, I think, my second time to use my free internet account in school, which I think is kinda cool. It gives me the university kind of feel. Y'know.

Anyway, since I am using my free account better use it for good things - like this precious blog of mine. Okay, so what happened today?

Well, I was supposed to wake up at 3 in the morning in order for me to read the literature homework our teacher gave us. I already finished reading the first selection entitled, Love, Faith, Time, and Dr. Lazaro by Gregorio Brillantes, which I didn't enjoy reading. The story was too boring for me. It wasn't entertaining nor insightful. I just found myself sleeping in between pages. That's how boring it was. Well, I get bored easily. I was able to answer the questions that followed but I really had a hard time because I didn't quite grasp the author's intention for writing that crappy short story.

I hate short stories that contain too many words which don't really give a good description of things. I mean, can't you do your describing in a few words while maintaining the reader's interest and at the same time, making the reader feel what you want her to feel. Well, I believe that good writers are made of that stuff.

Anyway, there's this another selection entitled Generations. I didn't read it. I was too sleepy to even think about of reading it. So, instead of reading I continued my favorite pasttime, sleeping. I slept and slept and woke up at around 630. I decided not to continue with the reading and just try to study our Health Care handouts which is no big, really. But because I didn't wake up at the right side of the bed, I just continued sleeping.

I left for school armed with my favorite Ham & Cheese Croissant because I haven't eaten, yet. Then, guess what? After meeting with my good ol' friends - Rocel, Iris, Beth, Stella - our teacher, Sir Mes approached us and said that there will be no classes today because of some meeting. But, he left us with a homework which is my cup of tea. A reflection paper answering, "What motivates me in life?" For sure, when I get into my writing-and-pouring-out-all-my-feelings mode I'll be putting a lot of time in this.

Then, here I am. Writing about my boring life. Which isn't really boring. Let's just say 1% boring and 99% rocking!

Where should I start?

We finally took the first test out of the many tests that we'll be taking as a prerequisite for the Summer (I think). The goal of course is to be able to answer the tests and meet their standards. Para maka-create sila ng good nurses.

The personality test involves two statements and we are to choose which one we liked better. You know, typical psychological testing. After taking the test, I realized that I am such a self-centered, obsessive compulsive, non-conformist person. At least, that's what I think. I wonder, do they like self-centered, obsessive compulsive, non-conformist nurses?

To uglier things...

Can somebody bring out the worst from a person? But of course.

Okay, there's this girl in our class who is really irritating me. I'm sorry but she really does. Argh... You know that kind of feeling that makes you go red in the face because you are so irritated with her even if she didn't do anything. She's the type of person that does the typical things that aren't irritating but when she does it - ooh, you just wish you have a boxing glove to punch her in the face and say "Pwede ba? I'm not talking to you." Argh... I just can't explain it. Sheesh.

I'm trying my best to be nice to her but, she does things that makes you don't like her. The words that are coming out from her mouth - they sound different. Words are so beautiful, entertaining, inspiring when it comes from anyone else but words from her mouth are morphed into Hillary Duff's songs - aka irritatingly irritating. Pweh!

There's this time that I've been rude to her. Actually, I was concerned but, because of my tactlessness my good deed made me appear like I'm the worst person on earth. And, I did feel like the worst person on earth. I was guilty after that incident and said my sincere apologies. But, even after that, argh...

Do you understand me?

Talking to her and telling how I feel about her is an option. But, I don't know if it'd work. She's putting a wall.

But you know, it also dawned on me that she might have a problem of some sort and her angst and other feelings are being channeled into the way she treats other people around her. She may be experiencing troubles that are too terrible to bear and that her worst side is bringing out the worst in me.

I hate it when I do this. I don't like talking about people. But, as you can see, I did talk about her. This will be the first time and the last that I'll talk about her.

Help!

Inevitable Things
Death. Such an inevitable thing. And two of my friends experienced the pain of losing their loved ones because God already brought them back home. Grazie and Alex lost their fathers recently. And, I just want to tell them that I truly admire the strength that they have for carrying on with life inspite of this turn of events. I have no idea what you're feeling right now but, always remember that if you need somebody to talk to or just about anything that I could help you with - I'll do my very best to be there for you and comfort you. Remember Jeremiah 29:11. Don't lose faith. Hang in there!

Pahingi ng Apple
Which is better the Macintosh or the Windows? I have no idea, really. I am thinking of buying a laptop and I don't know which one should I choose. I visited apple.com and it seems that Mac is a better choice but, I don't know. Fill me in. When buying a PC or a laptop, what questions should I ask? What are the things that I should look for in a computer? Madali lang akong kausap. Ang gusto ko lang sa computer ay makapagcreate ng word files, excel files & powerpoint presentations, tsaka makagawa & edit ng movies, makapanood ng movies, makapag-burn, easy sharing of photos, videos, and other multimedia files, makagawa ng topnotch webpage for me and for others, makapag-internet ng mabilis, makagawa ng graphics, makapag-compose ng music. Tapos gusto ko din na madali lang i-upgrade. Large memory is a must. Kung existent nga lang yung 500GB yun na ang gusto ko. Hehe! Yun!

Waah! December 2 na! Grabe talaga. Time flies. Parang kailan lang ay I'm suffering from Anatomy tapos ngayon, I'm up for interview na. Time flies talaga.

How soon is NOW? - from a Human tee

Now is gone.

Obsession
I am obsessed with Heath Ledger and Charlize Theron. Waah! And Eric Bana. And Johnny Depp. And, being the next Oprah Winfrey. Or, at least go to a Favorite Things Episode of her show.

December Reds and Blues
My cousins, Steph and Fel, will be visiting the Philippines this month. I am so excited to see them. Its been ages since we last saw eash other. Aside from that, we'll be spending our Christmas in Davao! We'll leave on the 18th and get back on the 30th. I am so excited. I have a strong feeling that this Christmas break will truly be a BREAK.

The five of us - Rocel, Beth, Stella, Iris, and myself are doing the traditional kris kringle. Nabunot ko si Harry Potter. I wonder kung sino 'to. At ano kaya ang bibilhin kong gift. At saan ako kukuha ng pera.

December is equal to getting short of cash and getting a load of expenses. Dang it! We all need money. We all don't have money

Big Night - Yeah Right!
I am not enthusiastic about the big night that the SNA prepared. Although, I admire their efforts to bring the SNA closer. I thought they knew what we liked. They are hiring some Pinoy Pop Superstar whatever. And, they are supposed to have a PBB housemate - I just hope it isn't Raquel, or Bob, or Rico, or Jenn, or JB, or Chx, or anyone that I hate. I just want to see Sam, Cass, Uma, and Jason.

And, puh-leez dun sa President ng SNA, please don't act as if you don't know what PBB is. I admire your efforts as a President. But, you are just getting on my nerves when you do that pa-cutesy stuff that aren't cute.

But, I'd still go.

Starting Over
According to Zenaida Seva, that today is a good time to start something new. And, I'll do just that.

Memoirs of a Geisha
Don't forget its on the 10th!

Injection and Bad Stuff
Today, I'll be out to pay for my tuition. I'll also buy stuff for our return demonstration for Parenteral Administration tomorrow. Also, I need to review for a test tomorrow for Literature. Can my day get any worse?

I'm scared for tomorrows return demonstration. Wrong site for injection could lead to death, y'know. I don't think I'll be a good nurse. Could I be a better architect? (Here, I go again)

Hay! Welcome back to me!

School Rantings
Ang dami kong ginagawa ngayon. Grabe! Mag-ppractice kami tomorrow na mag-inject ng tao. Grabe! Nakakakaba. I hope that I don't screw up. Sowper!

All of my teachers for this sem sucks! And, I mean all.

Yung SHE teacher namin - super kapuso (which is not bad thing naman) pero, I don't like her. Yung reasoning niya napaka-illogical. Grr! Sabi niya nung isang discussion namin, "Wala namang culture yang mga western countries. (She was pertaining to the show Pinoy Big Brother tapos, biglang wala ng culture kaagad yung western countries.)" Paki-define nga ang cuture.

I was looking forward na maging maganda ang Lit class ko. Guess what? Super boring nung teacher although, mabait naman siya. By mabait, ibig sabihin hindi nagagalit kaya pwede na. Pero, I still don't like her.

Physics. By far, ito na ang subject na favorite ko. Ayoko nung teacher at all. But, I like the subject so ayos na ako dun.

Ang aming mga Health Care teachers ay yung so-called "campus heartthrobs". Si Sir Mes and Sir Sig (na-crush ko dati). Okay lang silang teachers. I mean I have to like them dahil 5 units ang subject na 'to. Pero, I still don't like them but I don't hate them. Civil.Gusto ko yung subject. Interesting but not quite.

Lab teacher for Microbio is okay. Pero, ang hirap magpa-test. Imagine, first quiz ay over 70! Grr! Pero okay na din compared sa Lec teacher namin! Ohh, that Ms. Dotimas! Grr! Embodiment of the worst teacher. Actually, wala naman siyang ginagawang masama pero, there's something about her that makes you not like her. Ewan ko! Basta! Ayoko sa kanya. As in!

Mga Buntis
Na-shock ako nung ibalita sa amin na 3 of our batchmates got pregnant. I thought that those things only happen to stupid people. Turns out, my batchmates are stupid. Grabe! Hello?!?! I mean, high school pa lang ay tinuturo na ang condoms and pills. At ngayong college, tinuro din yan - Anatomy and Health Care. Ewan ko kung tanga lang sila o sadyang hindi nakikinig sa mga guro nila. Grr! Dang it! Stupid! O, paano na yan? You make your decisions live with it. Nakaka-frustrate!

Malapit na ang Pasko! Merry Christmas!

This is my final day to do whatever I want to. Gosh! Dang it! Ding ding ding ding... School's tomorrow. I am so not ready. I don't think that I will ever be ready for school. Sheesh!

I still want to be an Architect or an Interior Designer or a Fashion Designer. I still want to study in a university. But, I think that GOD has already given me the sign that I am so destined to become a nurse. I don't know. I could have failed last sem but by God's grace, He didn't let me. Or, I didn't want to be a failure. I don't want to be a failure that's why, I sort of studied. Well, I couldn't say for a fact that being a Nurse is what I am destined to be. If I had the power to change that, oh, I would. I definitely would. But for now, I'll just go wherever my mistakes, and my decisions take me.

Sometimes, I get tired of accepting the way things are. Sometimes, I get tired of attributing everything as God's divine plan for me. Its hard to feel helpless. You think you're strong enough to handle the problems, but then there's something bigger out there that is way too powerful, you just give up everything and let HIM make things happen.

Do I make sense?

Anyway, I had a good cry last night. A very good cry. I cried about a lot of things. I cried because I still don't want to go to school (which is not a good reason to cry, really). I cried because I felt stupid, irresponsible, stupid, ugly, supid, cruel, mean. The way I felt is comparable to what a trash might feel when she's been thrown out. I feel like a used candle. After shining brightly, giving light to those in need - after being someone of use, I already lost the light I had. My wax has finally melted, the wick has burned up. I am no candle anymore. I burned into nothingness.

I am so evil at times, I don't even recognize myself.

To other things.

Here is a copy of my grades. My GPA is 1.70. I am so not proud of my Anatomy grades. I know I could've done better with Anatomy. But then again...

PE103 (Swimming) - 1.50
CS101 (Computer) - 1.25
SOCIO102 (Socio and Anthropology) - 1.50
HAP111 (Anatomy) - 2.75
HC101 (Health Care) - 1.25

Sayang hindi na ako DL may discount pa naman sa tuition fee.

And here is my new schedule.

Mondays and Thursdays
1130 - 100 MicrobioLec
200 - 400 MicrobioLab
430 - 700 Physics and Trigo

Tuesdays
800 - 1000 PE (Team Sports)

Wednesdays and Saturdays
900 - 1030 SHE100 ( I have no idea what this is)
1030 - 1200 LIT102 (Philippine Literature! argh!)
130 - 300 HC102Lec
300 - 600 HC102RLE

That schedule pretty sucks! It really sucks! Pweh! Can't my life get any better? I wonder what lies ahead. Somebody help!

By the way, I am planning to change my mode of transportation for this sem. You see, when I was in my first year I had to allot one hour and 30 minutes for my transpo time when riding an FX bound to Cubao. Traffic is horrible in España and Quiapo. Sheesh! But this past sem, I am guilty of spending a lot of money because I wake up late and because of that I need to take a cab which can bring me to school at half the time but 5 times the transpo fee (equal to 100 bucks!). So, what I am going to try is to use the LRT.

First, I'll ride the LRT 1 (the yellow line I think) and go down at Doroteo Jose. That would take me around 10 - 15 minutes and 15 pesos? (I'm not yet sure) And, I'll walk from the LRT 1 Station to the LRT 2 Station., This will take me about 10 minutes because the walkway is so long. This will be a good exercise for me. From there, I'll ride the LRT 2 Station and go down at Cubao. Ride a jeepney to E. Rodriguez. Voila! My estimated transpo time: 35 - 45 minutes. Extimated transpo fee: around 50 pesos

Jeez! I am tired of writing about it. Do you think that this is a good idea? I don't know. I may have to rely on the good ol' cabs!

Ayoko pang mag-end ang sembreak! Nooooooo! Please not yet. This is so unfair. I'm not yet bored. Besides, I have thiscared. I only know around 7 people in my block. Screw that enrollment! Sheesh. Argh...

This is my current favorite song.

Because of You
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Si Papu ay nandito na! Hehe. Kararating lang niya from Spain - I think. Woohoo!

We were expecting him this week but we didn't expect him to arrive early morning. Oh, well. Anyway, he noticeably lost a lot of weight whereas, I have remained my old, fat, gorgeous me. He emphasized that he was busy working. Hehe. Halata naman.

Pasalubong! Weh! Wala naman masyado. Chocolates. DigiCam (na hindi ko ma-install yung software). Sweater (as if my snow dito). D&G Parfum Light Blue (mabango).

Astig.

I'm just glad he's back. And safe. And gwapo. Hehe.

I'm back.

I finished reading Arthur Golden's Memoirs of a Geisha. Grabe! I never hated a character from a book until this novel! How I hate Hatsumomo. If you ever saw Princess Sarah (the cartoons in ABSCBN), you'll definitely think that Hatsumomo is the twin sister of Lavinia. Argh! What an envious, self-centered biatch!

I like the story. Its very telenevola-ish but with a punch of refinement and culture. I love how Golden describes the kimonos worn by the geishas. But, I don't like the last 5 chapters. It was quite boring.

The story made me look at geishas on a different light. Now, when I see one I'd look at them with respect. Sayuri is such a lovable hero. Hay!

If in case you haven't read this book, it would be worth buying.

Rating: 8.7 out of 10