My Digestive System is screwed. I don't know what is happening to my stomach. Or maybe, its not my stomach, its what I put inside my stomach. Argh... I've been having these multiple bowel movements since last December. You see, I think that I have a pretty good digestion because my bowel movement is regular. Regular, meaning I release all my fecal stuff before I go to school. When I do that, I feel secured that I will not release any crap in school. But, behold, my rectum just won't let my shit behave. I should try and go see a doctor. There is something wrong.

Crap!

Anyway, I had another bad day today. The 83 that I got for our Return Demonstration for CPR wasn't really a big deal but, something really happened and I feel bad and ashamed for what I did.

My other HC professor is Sir Uy. He's gay - I think. And, it doesn't really matter if he is. Anyway, I must've caught him in a bad mood because he stormed out from the other room to our room because of what I didn't do.

I was supposed to call out Apostol and Rivera but, I ended up calling Rivera. So, Apostol was clueless that she was next to go. When Rivera got out and called Apostol, the latter was nowhere in sight because she was in the CR, which got Sir Uy irritated because he waited for Apostol for quite sometime which could have been prevented if only I called out for Apostol.

I said my sorry to Nats (Apostol). Then, I talked to Sir Uy. I said that it was all my fault and it wasn't Nats' fault. So, if there were any deductions to be made on Nats' part, I'll gladly accept them instead. But, Sir Uy didn't quite grasp what I meant. Jeez! Lord, please let him know what I meant by what I said.

Communication. Such a vital thing.

So please, my dear rectum cooperate.

To my disappointment, my 2 recent DVD Series purchases - which are pirated, lacks 2 CDs. I think I get it now. These DVDs are just recorded from the TV and then they save it to DVD format. Then, they sell it to people like me who doesn't have enough money to invest in original DVDs. Oh, I wish that someone would buy me original DVDs.

I once again indulged to my secret pleasure of buying pirated DVDs of my favorite TV series. Of course, I am not proud of what I did - buying fake stuff, but I won't blame myself. Anyway, I bought Season 1 of Charmed which costs 420 bucks, Season 2 of Desperate Housewives, and Season 2 of my favorite Lost. I can't wait to see all of it. Grabe!

Hmm... Di ko pa rin nabibilhan ng gift ang sister ko ng Uno Stacko(?).

What did you do in 2005 that you've never done before?
I was able to eat California Roll and drink Margarita.

Did you keep your New Year's resolutions and will you make more for next year?
No. Definitely not. I was at my worst last year.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope.

Did anyone close to you die?
Somebody close to me had somebody close to them died. So, no.

What countries did you visit?
None. Next year, sana.

What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Patience. Self-confidence.

What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
December 18 - 30. These were the days that I spent in Davao mostly, with my relatives on my mother's side. Grabe! Truly an unforgettable experience.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Hmm... I actually think that I didn't achieve anything. Siguro, traveling without my parents. Yun na siguro.

What was your biggest failure?
I am a failure the past year.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
No. I don't think so. Asthma attacks paminsan.

What was the best thing you bought?
The best thing I bought? Hmm... Books.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My mother. I can't imagine how she could handle the holidays without us. Its been 3 years - I think.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My behavior.

Where did most of your money go?
I don't want to know.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Christmas in Davao.

What song(s) will always remind you of 2005?
My Humps by the Black Eyed Peas, Because of You by Kelly Clarkson, Stickwitu by Pussycat Dolls, and Luxurious by Gwen Stefani

Compared to this time last yar, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? -- pweh! fatter
iii. richer or poorer? -- poorer

What do you wish you'd done more?
Read the bible. Exercise. Studied more.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Eating. Sleeping. Complaining.

How many one - night stands?
None.

What was your favorite TV program?
Definitely, LOST.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
None.

What was the best book you read?
Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hmmm... I don't know. I rediscovered The Corrs.

What did you want and get?
A new bible.

What was your favorite film this year?
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants.

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
I turned 17. And, I didn't do much.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Di ko alam. Wala. Even if this year sucked, I like it just the way it was.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Umm. same ol' pambahay garb.

What kept you sane?
Writing.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmm... Oprah. Definitely, Oprah.

What political issue stirred you the most?
The GloriaGate and Spying issue.

Who did you miss?
I miss my mother.

Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm... New person? Kuya Randy - Ate May's boyfriend. He's not talkative but I could talk to him naman.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
FAMILY is so importane in my buhay. And, your buhay!

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
Aeda said something and that really made me feel better.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
December 30 when we left Davao.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
Hmm... My being funny.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
What did I not hate about myself.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
With a Smile...

Was 2005 a good year for you?
Every year is a good year.

What was your favorite moment?
Christmas in Davao. Pearl Farm!

What was your least favorite moment?
Times when I feel bad about myself.

Where were you when 2005 began?
Sa bahay

Who were you with?
Yaya and Kamille

Where were you when 2005 ends?
Sa bahay ulit

Who were you with with 2005 ended?
Papa, Kamille, Yaya

Do you have a NY's Resolution?
Yes.

What was your favorite month?
March, December

Did you lose asnybody close to you in 2005?
No.

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes.

What was your favorite record from 2005?
Unplugged ni Alicia Keys

How many concerts did you see?
None.

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
No. Minimal lang. Actually, around 5 sips lang.

Do a lot of drugs?
No.

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Meron.

How much money did you spen in 2005?
A lot.

What was your proudest moment?
Di ko alam.

Most embarrassing moment?
Nahulog sa Eden.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
Hmm... Don't really know.

What are your plans for 2006?
I still don't know. I would accept whatever it is that's in store for me.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I'm better. I know I am better in a lot of things. And, I'll strive to be the best that I could be!

What are your wishes for the new year?
Peace on earth. Better governance from the government. Abolish poverty. More money. Better health. Better me.

What did you like most about yourself this year?

Your Christmas Song Is

Frosty the SnowmanWas a jolly happy soulWith a corncob pipe and a button noseAnd two eyes made out of coal Snowball fights, sledding, and tons of hot chocolate with candy canes.Christmas is all about reliving the adventures of your youth.

What Christmas Carol Are You?

We're not yet through with the packing. And, by the way, my dad and I are getting along already.

I am excited for the trip tomorrow. Davao, here we come! I am sooo excited.

At this very moment, I am still keeping my fingers crossed. I hope Jason will be the first Pinoy Big Brother winner.

Anyway, today was supposedly the worldwide release of the movie Memoirs of a Geisha but, when I called the Gateway Cineplex, the lady said that they still don't have the copy of Memoirs of a Geisha.

I saw movie reviews from Yahoo! and from Eonline. The reviews weren't as good as I thought they would be. Yahoo! gave it a 3 out of 4 rating. And, Eonline compared the movie to a beautifully wrapped present but with a disappointing content.

But, that won't stop me from seeing the movie. I' d have to see it for myself.

To more serious things...

At this moment, I hate my father. I really do. But, I don't really care. He doesn't seem to like me. I think he loves my sister more than me. I don't care if he doesn't love me or like me or whatever. I don't care if he ignores me. I don't care if he hates me too. I hate hime more. The feeling is mutual.

But, of course, I am lying to myself when I say that I don't care. Of course, I do care. He's my father, dammit! I just need to fool myself and hate him so, that I won't get hurt.

Iyak na lang ako mamaya...

This is, I think, my second time to use my free internet account in school, which I think is kinda cool. It gives me the university kind of feel. Y'know.

Anyway, since I am using my free account better use it for good things - like this precious blog of mine. Okay, so what happened today?

Well, I was supposed to wake up at 3 in the morning in order for me to read the literature homework our teacher gave us. I already finished reading the first selection entitled, Love, Faith, Time, and Dr. Lazaro by Gregorio Brillantes, which I didn't enjoy reading. The story was too boring for me. It wasn't entertaining nor insightful. I just found myself sleeping in between pages. That's how boring it was. Well, I get bored easily. I was able to answer the questions that followed but I really had a hard time because I didn't quite grasp the author's intention for writing that crappy short story.

I hate short stories that contain too many words which don't really give a good description of things. I mean, can't you do your describing in a few words while maintaining the reader's interest and at the same time, making the reader feel what you want her to feel. Well, I believe that good writers are made of that stuff.

Anyway, there's this another selection entitled Generations. I didn't read it. I was too sleepy to even think about of reading it. So, instead of reading I continued my favorite pasttime, sleeping. I slept and slept and woke up at around 630. I decided not to continue with the reading and just try to study our Health Care handouts which is no big, really. But because I didn't wake up at the right side of the bed, I just continued sleeping.

I left for school armed with my favorite Ham & Cheese Croissant because I haven't eaten, yet. Then, guess what? After meeting with my good ol' friends - Rocel, Iris, Beth, Stella - our teacher, Sir Mes approached us and said that there will be no classes today because of some meeting. But, he left us with a homework which is my cup of tea. A reflection paper answering, "What motivates me in life?" For sure, when I get into my writing-and-pouring-out-all-my-feelings mode I'll be putting a lot of time in this.

Then, here I am. Writing about my boring life. Which isn't really boring. Let's just say 1% boring and 99% rocking!

Where should I start?

We finally took the first test out of the many tests that we'll be taking as a prerequisite for the Summer (I think). The goal of course is to be able to answer the tests and meet their standards. Para maka-create sila ng good nurses.

The personality test involves two statements and we are to choose which one we liked better. You know, typical psychological testing. After taking the test, I realized that I am such a self-centered, obsessive compulsive, non-conformist person. At least, that's what I think. I wonder, do they like self-centered, obsessive compulsive, non-conformist nurses?

To uglier things...

Can somebody bring out the worst from a person? But of course.

Okay, there's this girl in our class who is really irritating me. I'm sorry but she really does. Argh... You know that kind of feeling that makes you go red in the face because you are so irritated with her even if she didn't do anything. She's the type of person that does the typical things that aren't irritating but when she does it - ooh, you just wish you have a boxing glove to punch her in the face and say "Pwede ba? I'm not talking to you." Argh... I just can't explain it. Sheesh.

I'm trying my best to be nice to her but, she does things that makes you don't like her. The words that are coming out from her mouth - they sound different. Words are so beautiful, entertaining, inspiring when it comes from anyone else but words from her mouth are morphed into Hillary Duff's songs - aka irritatingly irritating. Pweh!

There's this time that I've been rude to her. Actually, I was concerned but, because of my tactlessness my good deed made me appear like I'm the worst person on earth. And, I did feel like the worst person on earth. I was guilty after that incident and said my sincere apologies. But, even after that, argh...

Do you understand me?

Talking to her and telling how I feel about her is an option. But, I don't know if it'd work. She's putting a wall.

But you know, it also dawned on me that she might have a problem of some sort and her angst and other feelings are being channeled into the way she treats other people around her. She may be experiencing troubles that are too terrible to bear and that her worst side is bringing out the worst in me.

I hate it when I do this. I don't like talking about people. But, as you can see, I did talk about her. This will be the first time and the last that I'll talk about her.

Help!

Inevitable Things
Death. Such an inevitable thing. And two of my friends experienced the pain of losing their loved ones because God already brought them back home. Grazie and Alex lost their fathers recently. And, I just want to tell them that I truly admire the strength that they have for carrying on with life inspite of this turn of events. I have no idea what you're feeling right now but, always remember that if you need somebody to talk to or just about anything that I could help you with - I'll do my very best to be there for you and comfort you. Remember Jeremiah 29:11. Don't lose faith. Hang in there!

Pahingi ng Apple
Which is better the Macintosh or the Windows? I have no idea, really. I am thinking of buying a laptop and I don't know which one should I choose. I visited apple.com and it seems that Mac is a better choice but, I don't know. Fill me in. When buying a PC or a laptop, what questions should I ask? What are the things that I should look for in a computer? Madali lang akong kausap. Ang gusto ko lang sa computer ay makapagcreate ng word files, excel files & powerpoint presentations, tsaka makagawa & edit ng movies, makapanood ng movies, makapag-burn, easy sharing of photos, videos, and other multimedia files, makagawa ng topnotch webpage for me and for others, makapag-internet ng mabilis, makagawa ng graphics, makapag-compose ng music. Tapos gusto ko din na madali lang i-upgrade. Large memory is a must. Kung existent nga lang yung 500GB yun na ang gusto ko. Hehe! Yun!

Waah! December 2 na! Grabe talaga. Time flies. Parang kailan lang ay I'm suffering from Anatomy tapos ngayon, I'm up for interview na. Time flies talaga.

How soon is NOW? - from a Human tee

Now is gone.

Obsession
I am obsessed with Heath Ledger and Charlize Theron. Waah! And Eric Bana. And Johnny Depp. And, being the next Oprah Winfrey. Or, at least go to a Favorite Things Episode of her show.

December Reds and Blues
My cousins, Steph and Fel, will be visiting the Philippines this month. I am so excited to see them. Its been ages since we last saw eash other. Aside from that, we'll be spending our Christmas in Davao! We'll leave on the 18th and get back on the 30th. I am so excited. I have a strong feeling that this Christmas break will truly be a BREAK.

The five of us - Rocel, Beth, Stella, Iris, and myself are doing the traditional kris kringle. Nabunot ko si Harry Potter. I wonder kung sino 'to. At ano kaya ang bibilhin kong gift. At saan ako kukuha ng pera.

December is equal to getting short of cash and getting a load of expenses. Dang it! We all need money. We all don't have money

Big Night - Yeah Right!
I am not enthusiastic about the big night that the SNA prepared. Although, I admire their efforts to bring the SNA closer. I thought they knew what we liked. They are hiring some Pinoy Pop Superstar whatever. And, they are supposed to have a PBB housemate - I just hope it isn't Raquel, or Bob, or Rico, or Jenn, or JB, or Chx, or anyone that I hate. I just want to see Sam, Cass, Uma, and Jason.

And, puh-leez dun sa President ng SNA, please don't act as if you don't know what PBB is. I admire your efforts as a President. But, you are just getting on my nerves when you do that pa-cutesy stuff that aren't cute.

But, I'd still go.

Starting Over
According to Zenaida Seva, that today is a good time to start something new. And, I'll do just that.

Memoirs of a Geisha
Don't forget its on the 10th!

Injection and Bad Stuff
Today, I'll be out to pay for my tuition. I'll also buy stuff for our return demonstration for Parenteral Administration tomorrow. Also, I need to review for a test tomorrow for Literature. Can my day get any worse?

I'm scared for tomorrows return demonstration. Wrong site for injection could lead to death, y'know. I don't think I'll be a good nurse. Could I be a better architect? (Here, I go again)

Hay! Welcome back to me!

School Rantings
Ang dami kong ginagawa ngayon. Grabe! Mag-ppractice kami tomorrow na mag-inject ng tao. Grabe! Nakakakaba. I hope that I don't screw up. Sowper!

All of my teachers for this sem sucks! And, I mean all.

Yung SHE teacher namin - super kapuso (which is not bad thing naman) pero, I don't like her. Yung reasoning niya napaka-illogical. Grr! Sabi niya nung isang discussion namin, "Wala namang culture yang mga western countries. (She was pertaining to the show Pinoy Big Brother tapos, biglang wala ng culture kaagad yung western countries.)" Paki-define nga ang cuture.

I was looking forward na maging maganda ang Lit class ko. Guess what? Super boring nung teacher although, mabait naman siya. By mabait, ibig sabihin hindi nagagalit kaya pwede na. Pero, I still don't like her.

Physics. By far, ito na ang subject na favorite ko. Ayoko nung teacher at all. But, I like the subject so ayos na ako dun.

Ang aming mga Health Care teachers ay yung so-called "campus heartthrobs". Si Sir Mes and Sir Sig (na-crush ko dati). Okay lang silang teachers. I mean I have to like them dahil 5 units ang subject na 'to. Pero, I still don't like them but I don't hate them. Civil.Gusto ko yung subject. Interesting but not quite.

Lab teacher for Microbio is okay. Pero, ang hirap magpa-test. Imagine, first quiz ay over 70! Grr! Pero okay na din compared sa Lec teacher namin! Ohh, that Ms. Dotimas! Grr! Embodiment of the worst teacher. Actually, wala naman siyang ginagawang masama pero, there's something about her that makes you not like her. Ewan ko! Basta! Ayoko sa kanya. As in!

Mga Buntis
Na-shock ako nung ibalita sa amin na 3 of our batchmates got pregnant. I thought that those things only happen to stupid people. Turns out, my batchmates are stupid. Grabe! Hello?!?! I mean, high school pa lang ay tinuturo na ang condoms and pills. At ngayong college, tinuro din yan - Anatomy and Health Care. Ewan ko kung tanga lang sila o sadyang hindi nakikinig sa mga guro nila. Grr! Dang it! Stupid! O, paano na yan? You make your decisions live with it. Nakaka-frustrate!

Malapit na ang Pasko! Merry Christmas!

This is my final day to do whatever I want to. Gosh! Dang it! Ding ding ding ding... School's tomorrow. I am so not ready. I don't think that I will ever be ready for school. Sheesh!

I still want to be an Architect or an Interior Designer or a Fashion Designer. I still want to study in a university. But, I think that GOD has already given me the sign that I am so destined to become a nurse. I don't know. I could have failed last sem but by God's grace, He didn't let me. Or, I didn't want to be a failure. I don't want to be a failure that's why, I sort of studied. Well, I couldn't say for a fact that being a Nurse is what I am destined to be. If I had the power to change that, oh, I would. I definitely would. But for now, I'll just go wherever my mistakes, and my decisions take me.

Sometimes, I get tired of accepting the way things are. Sometimes, I get tired of attributing everything as God's divine plan for me. Its hard to feel helpless. You think you're strong enough to handle the problems, but then there's something bigger out there that is way too powerful, you just give up everything and let HIM make things happen.

Do I make sense?

Anyway, I had a good cry last night. A very good cry. I cried about a lot of things. I cried because I still don't want to go to school (which is not a good reason to cry, really). I cried because I felt stupid, irresponsible, stupid, ugly, supid, cruel, mean. The way I felt is comparable to what a trash might feel when she's been thrown out. I feel like a used candle. After shining brightly, giving light to those in need - after being someone of use, I already lost the light I had. My wax has finally melted, the wick has burned up. I am no candle anymore. I burned into nothingness.

I am so evil at times, I don't even recognize myself.

To other things.

Here is a copy of my grades. My GPA is 1.70. I am so not proud of my Anatomy grades. I know I could've done better with Anatomy. But then again...

PE103 (Swimming) - 1.50
CS101 (Computer) - 1.25
SOCIO102 (Socio and Anthropology) - 1.50
HAP111 (Anatomy) - 2.75
HC101 (Health Care) - 1.25

Sayang hindi na ako DL may discount pa naman sa tuition fee.

And here is my new schedule.

Mondays and Thursdays
1130 - 100 MicrobioLec
200 - 400 MicrobioLab
430 - 700 Physics and Trigo

Tuesdays
800 - 1000 PE (Team Sports)

Wednesdays and Saturdays
900 - 1030 SHE100 ( I have no idea what this is)
1030 - 1200 LIT102 (Philippine Literature! argh!)
130 - 300 HC102Lec
300 - 600 HC102RLE

That schedule pretty sucks! It really sucks! Pweh! Can't my life get any better? I wonder what lies ahead. Somebody help!

By the way, I am planning to change my mode of transportation for this sem. You see, when I was in my first year I had to allot one hour and 30 minutes for my transpo time when riding an FX bound to Cubao. Traffic is horrible in España and Quiapo. Sheesh! But this past sem, I am guilty of spending a lot of money because I wake up late and because of that I need to take a cab which can bring me to school at half the time but 5 times the transpo fee (equal to 100 bucks!). So, what I am going to try is to use the LRT.

First, I'll ride the LRT 1 (the yellow line I think) and go down at Doroteo Jose. That would take me around 10 - 15 minutes and 15 pesos? (I'm not yet sure) And, I'll walk from the LRT 1 Station to the LRT 2 Station., This will take me about 10 minutes because the walkway is so long. This will be a good exercise for me. From there, I'll ride the LRT 2 Station and go down at Cubao. Ride a jeepney to E. Rodriguez. Voila! My estimated transpo time: 35 - 45 minutes. Extimated transpo fee: around 50 pesos

Jeez! I am tired of writing about it. Do you think that this is a good idea? I don't know. I may have to rely on the good ol' cabs!

Ayoko pang mag-end ang sembreak! Nooooooo! Please not yet. This is so unfair. I'm not yet bored. Besides, I have thiscared. I only know around 7 people in my block. Screw that enrollment! Sheesh. Argh...

This is my current favorite song.

Because of You
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Si Papu ay nandito na! Hehe. Kararating lang niya from Spain - I think. Woohoo!

We were expecting him this week but we didn't expect him to arrive early morning. Oh, well. Anyway, he noticeably lost a lot of weight whereas, I have remained my old, fat, gorgeous me. He emphasized that he was busy working. Hehe. Halata naman.

Pasalubong! Weh! Wala naman masyado. Chocolates. DigiCam (na hindi ko ma-install yung software). Sweater (as if my snow dito). D&G Parfum Light Blue (mabango).

Astig.

I'm just glad he's back. And safe. And gwapo. Hehe.

I'm back.

I finished reading Arthur Golden's Memoirs of a Geisha. Grabe! I never hated a character from a book until this novel! How I hate Hatsumomo. If you ever saw Princess Sarah (the cartoons in ABSCBN), you'll definitely think that Hatsumomo is the twin sister of Lavinia. Argh! What an envious, self-centered biatch!

I like the story. Its very telenevola-ish but with a punch of refinement and culture. I love how Golden describes the kimonos worn by the geishas. But, I don't like the last 5 chapters. It was quite boring.

The story made me look at geishas on a different light. Now, when I see one I'd look at them with respect. Sayuri is such a lovable hero. Hay!

If in case you haven't read this book, it would be worth buying.

Rating: 8.7 out of 10

A Series of Sh*tty, Argh..., and Devastating Events

Argh... Double Arghh...

It all started when I had to cook for breakfast. I fried the ever-complicated Tender Juicy Hotdogs (mini). But my sister, only ate about two hotdogs. Two. Grr. This is so childish of me. But that really hurt me. If yaya were here, she would've finished the whole pack. Are my hotdogs different from yaya's?

After that, I went to school for the enrollment. Beth and I met at the gate. Tadah... Tadah... Tadah... Then, Mira, another friend of ours who is a computer genius pulled me away from Beth.

Mira: Alam na ba ni Beth?
Kaye: Ang alin?
Mira: Di ko 'to sure, ah. Kasi sabi ni (somebody, I forgot who)... hindi daw pumasa si Beth sa removals.
Kaye: Ha? Paano yun? Eh, nung tinawagan namin si Timmy sabi niya pumasa si Beth.
Mira: (in a very reassuring manner) Eh, di ko pa naman sure yun.
Kaye: (scanning the nearest bulletin board) Saan ba yung list? (confused and scared)

For a moment, the scared part of me drowned because we finally saw Rocel, Stella (in a colorful dangling earring ensemble), and Iris. We fell in line to get our cards. But, Beth and I noticed that Rocel looked disturbed. We asked her if she was okay. She said whe wasn't. Being the joker that I am, I tried to crack a joke and do something hilarious but, Rocel said, "Seryoso. May problema talaga." Okay, so there really is a problem. I was thinking maybe somebody died or they lost a lot of money. Their house got burned. I was thinking of something tragic.

It was Beth's turn now.

The girl giving the cards: Omigod! Failed ka sa Anatomy.
Kaye: (looking towards Beth, observing her) Huh? (in a very soft voice... looking towards the girl, irritated)
Beth: (she looked disturbed and annoyed, as well)
A friend of the girl: Ano ka ba? Huwag kang mag-joke ng ganyan
The 'Card-giver': (towards her friend) Hindi. Seryoso ako. (towards Beth) Mahirap ba kay Sir Ho?

I thought that the card-giver was joking but after I got my card, and looked at Beth's card. Okay, so she was telling the truth.

Now, why did Timmy tell us that Beth passed? Another thing, why did that card-giver have to say to her friend that my friend failed? Hello? Why did you ever pass HC101 when you seem to not know what confidentiality is? Argh. What a bi*ch! Grr...

I saw Timmy.

Kaye: (in an irritated, sort of joking kind of way) I hate you! Sabi mo pumasa si Beth.
Timmy: Eh -
Iris: Kaye, syempre na-excite din si Tim
Kaye: (mangilid-ngilid ang luha) Tim, sorry

Our block was supposed to enrol at the same time so that, we'd still be blockmates. But, I guess they didn't want us to be their blockmates (okay, this is super childish and unreasonable of me). Rocel, Beth, Iris, Stella, and I are now on section 6 (with a schedule that sucks) and almost all of them are on section 7 (with a schedule that I'm dying to have). Dang it! I feel so stupid. I am so immature. Well, its not their fault, really. Its our fault because we are so 'excited'. Forgive my ranting, I'll miss them kasi, eh.

Argh. ang dami kong kinaaasaran pero wala na naman akong magagawa kung hindi tanggapin.
I saw Tim again and said sorry for how bitchy I was.

Ow-six kami. Ow-seven na sila. Argh. Naaasar pa rin ako. Hmph!

Prior to this day, the five of us decided to go to Gateway and watch a movie, and just enjoy each other's company. But, Iris and Stella once again left the three of us and go their own separate lives. Naaasar ako kasi napag-usapan na. Pero, baka super kailangan talaga nilang pumunta
at may kailangan silang i-attend na importante. So, okay lang.

We rode the jeepney to Cubao. The driver didn't stop at Gateway he stopped at about a block away from Gateway. Its raining today. So, we crossed the street but this guy in his car continued to drive while he saw us crossing the street. So, we stopped and tried to move backward. But being the inconsiderate moron that he is, he drived in a relatively fast pace and passed through a pothole. Guess what? He splattered dirty water on my pants. Argh! Thank you very much. Sobrang, helpful mo. You made my day brighter. Grr...

We ate at Wendy's. Didn't watch a movie. Strolled inside the mall. Went to Lacoste, Rustan's, Mango, Nike, etc. looking like the alalays of some famous star. We looked horrible and filthy. But, we enjoyed each others company. Kaya ayos na din!

I spotted a jeep with a signboard Vito Cruz Mabini H. Plaza. We said our byes. Paid the driver. And thought about Beth's future, and her remaining months with us. I closed my eyes but I am not asleep. Tapos, bigla na lang nagsisi-alisan yung mga pasahero. Kinukuha nila yung
pamasahe nila sa driver.

Kaye: Ano po ang nangyari? Pinupuno po ba nung driver yung jeep?
The guy in front of me: Hindi. Nahuli kasi ng pulis.
Driver: Putang i#a mo! (towards the MMDA officer, i think)

I was so scared. For all I know, the officer might go ballistic! He might shot the driver. And I might get shot. Poof! Dedo na!

Tadah... Tadah... Tadah...

Sa wakas, nakarating na ako ng Harrison Plaza. Pumasok ako sa second home ko, National Bookstore. I bought another book. An addition to my bodega books. (Pero, ngayon I'm excited to read the book) Yung book ay by Marquez yung Love In Time of Cholera. Tama ba yung title?
Sumakay ako sa sidecar. Pagbaba ko, hindi ko alam na sumabit pala yung pants ko sa isang hook or something dun sa sidecar. Psshwwkk! Ayun na nga. Punit ang pantalon.

Naligo ako tapos, nagsulat ako sa notepad ng entry ko para sa blog kasi ginagamit na ni yaya yung phone. Mga 15-20 lines na yung nasusulat ko iglang nag-restart yung computer. Kung mamalasin ka nga naman.

Tawa na lang tayo! Samahan niyo ako.

At eto po ang Series of S.A.D. Events.

To better things...
My sister won something. Most Promising Athlete. Tsaka, champion yung section nila sa intrams.

Prayer kay LORD
I come to you Father God. Cleanse my heart and my mind. Help me to rely on you. Tanggalin niyo po ang anger sa heart ko. Sorry for acting unGodly. Help! You know my deepest desires. Mold me! Love you. Amen.

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.

The Underwear Oracle

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting.You focus on living a quality life.You're not easily impressed with novelty.Yet, you easily impress others.

What's" Your Pizza Personality?

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Laka Kekona

What's" your Hawaiian Name?

Your French Name is:

Roslin Millet

What's" Your French Name?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.You are also giving and kind - a great friend.You are easy going and trusting.However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's" Your Power Color?

One thing that every person who's redesigning his/her blog should know is that one must have a definite plan on what his blog should look like. Argh!

I am so screwed. Argh. I want to change everything that I've done because I sort of don't like my motiff. It's too dull.

I don't know what I want. And, that is what makes this designing thing difficult for me.

I should've taken this more seriously. I should've created a sort of 'design board' or whatever. Grr... I guess, I'll have to start all over again. Or, maybe not. Well, I don't know.

Trivia: Kahapon ko lang nalaman kung paano mag-add ng image sa blog entry ko. Hehe. Sensya na!

i'm still busy about this blog template thingy! got to see bianca gonzales' blog from ala paredes' blog. thanks to leo's blog.

blog. blog. blog.

ang danda danda ng blog ni ala. ang color coordinated. tsaka, sensible writer. artistic pa! asteg noh!

i realized something. i am such a judgmental person. bad! bad!

super busy pa talaga ako. sana maging maayos yung kalabasan nung ginagawa ko. the motiff: sort of peach na medyo light red na ewan. hehe.