Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Hay! Welcome back to me!

School Rantings
Ang dami kong ginagawa ngayon. Grabe! Mag-ppractice kami tomorrow na mag-inject ng tao. Grabe! Nakakakaba. I hope that I don't screw up. Sowper!

All of my teachers for this sem sucks! And, I mean all.

Yung SHE teacher namin - super kapuso (which is not bad thing naman) pero, I don't like her. Yung reasoning niya napaka-illogical. Grr! Sabi niya nung isang discussion namin, "Wala namang culture yang mga western countries. (She was pertaining to the show Pinoy Big Brother tapos, biglang wala ng culture kaagad yung western countries.)" Paki-define nga ang cuture.

I was looking forward na maging maganda ang Lit class ko. Guess what? Super boring nung teacher although, mabait naman siya. By mabait, ibig sabihin hindi nagagalit kaya pwede na. Pero, I still don't like her.

Physics. By far, ito na ang subject na favorite ko. Ayoko nung teacher at all. But, I like the subject so ayos na ako dun.

Ang aming mga Health Care teachers ay yung so-called "campus heartthrobs". Si Sir Mes and Sir Sig (na-crush ko dati). Okay lang silang teachers. I mean I have to like them dahil 5 units ang subject na 'to. Pero, I still don't like them but I don't hate them. Civil.Gusto ko yung subject. Interesting but not quite.

Lab teacher for Microbio is okay. Pero, ang hirap magpa-test. Imagine, first quiz ay over 70! Grr! Pero okay na din compared sa Lec teacher namin! Ohh, that Ms. Dotimas! Grr! Embodiment of the worst teacher. Actually, wala naman siyang ginagawang masama pero, there's something about her that makes you not like her. Ewan ko! Basta! Ayoko sa kanya. As in!

Mga Buntis
Na-shock ako nung ibalita sa amin na 3 of our batchmates got pregnant. I thought that those things only happen to stupid people. Turns out, my batchmates are stupid. Grabe! Hello?!?! I mean, high school pa lang ay tinuturo na ang condoms and pills. At ngayong college, tinuro din yan - Anatomy and Health Care. Ewan ko kung tanga lang sila o sadyang hindi nakikinig sa mga guro nila. Grr! Dang it! Stupid! O, paano na yan? You make your decisions live with it. Nakaka-frustrate!

Malapit na ang Pasko! Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

This is my final day to do whatever I want to. Gosh! Dang it! Ding ding ding ding... School's tomorrow. I am so not ready. I don't think that I will ever be ready for school. Sheesh!

I still want to be an Architect or an Interior Designer or a Fashion Designer. I still want to study in a university. But, I think that GOD has already given me the sign that I am so destined to become a nurse. I don't know. I could have failed last sem but by God's grace, He didn't let me. Or, I didn't want to be a failure. I don't want to be a failure that's why, I sort of studied. Well, I couldn't say for a fact that being a Nurse is what I am destined to be. If I had the power to change that, oh, I would. I definitely would. But for now, I'll just go wherever my mistakes, and my decisions take me.

Sometimes, I get tired of accepting the way things are. Sometimes, I get tired of attributing everything as God's divine plan for me. Its hard to feel helpless. You think you're strong enough to handle the problems, but then there's something bigger out there that is way too powerful, you just give up everything and let HIM make things happen.

Do I make sense?

Anyway, I had a good cry last night. A very good cry. I cried about a lot of things. I cried because I still don't want to go to school (which is not a good reason to cry, really). I cried because I felt stupid, irresponsible, stupid, ugly, supid, cruel, mean. The way I felt is comparable to what a trash might feel when she's been thrown out. I feel like a used candle. After shining brightly, giving light to those in need - after being someone of use, I already lost the light I had. My wax has finally melted, the wick has burned up. I am no candle anymore. I burned into nothingness.

I am so evil at times, I don't even recognize myself.

To other things.

Here is a copy of my grades. My GPA is 1.70. I am so not proud of my Anatomy grades. I know I could've done better with Anatomy. But then again...

PE103 (Swimming) - 1.50
CS101 (Computer) - 1.25
SOCIO102 (Socio and Anthropology) - 1.50
HAP111 (Anatomy) - 2.75
HC101 (Health Care) - 1.25

Sayang hindi na ako DL may discount pa naman sa tuition fee.

And here is my new schedule.

Mondays and Thursdays
1130 - 100 MicrobioLec
200 - 400 MicrobioLab
430 - 700 Physics and Trigo

Tuesdays
800 - 1000 PE (Team Sports)

Wednesdays and Saturdays
900 - 1030 SHE100 ( I have no idea what this is)
1030 - 1200 LIT102 (Philippine Literature! argh!)
130 - 300 HC102Lec
300 - 600 HC102RLE

That schedule pretty sucks! It really sucks! Pweh! Can't my life get any better? I wonder what lies ahead. Somebody help!

By the way, I am planning to change my mode of transportation for this sem. You see, when I was in my first year I had to allot one hour and 30 minutes for my transpo time when riding an FX bound to Cubao. Traffic is horrible in EspaƱa and Quiapo. Sheesh! But this past sem, I am guilty of spending a lot of money because I wake up late and because of that I need to take a cab which can bring me to school at half the time but 5 times the transpo fee (equal to 100 bucks!). So, what I am going to try is to use the LRT.

First, I'll ride the LRT 1 (the yellow line I think) and go down at Doroteo Jose. That would take me around 10 - 15 minutes and 15 pesos? (I'm not yet sure) And, I'll walk from the LRT 1 Station to the LRT 2 Station., This will take me about 10 minutes because the walkway is so long. This will be a good exercise for me. From there, I'll ride the LRT 2 Station and go down at Cubao. Ride a jeepney to E. Rodriguez. Voila! My estimated transpo time: 35 - 45 minutes. Extimated transpo fee: around 50 pesos

Jeez! I am tired of writing about it. Do you think that this is a good idea? I don't know. I may have to rely on the good ol' cabs!

Monday, November 07, 2005

Ayoko pang mag-end ang sembreak! Nooooooo! Please not yet. This is so unfair. I'm not yet bored. Besides, I have thiscared. I only know around 7 people in my block. Screw that enrollment! Sheesh. Argh...

This is my current favorite song.

Because of You
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid


I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Si Papu ay nandito na! Hehe. Kararating lang niya from Spain - I think. Woohoo!

We were expecting him this week but we didn't expect him to arrive early morning. Oh, well. Anyway, he noticeably lost a lot of weight whereas, I have remained my old, fat, gorgeous me. He emphasized that he was busy working. Hehe. Halata naman.

Pasalubong! Weh! Wala naman masyado. Chocolates. DigiCam (na hindi ko ma-install yung software). Sweater (as if my snow dito). D&G Parfum Light Blue (mabango).

Astig.

I'm just glad he's back. And safe. And gwapo. Hehe.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

I'm back.

I finished reading Arthur Golden's Memoirs of a Geisha. Grabe! I never hated a character from a book until this novel! How I hate Hatsumomo. If you ever saw Princess Sarah (the cartoons in ABSCBN), you'll definitely think that Hatsumomo is the twin sister of Lavinia. Argh! What an envious, self-centered biatch!

I like the story. Its very telenevola-ish but with a punch of refinement and culture. I love how Golden describes the kimonos worn by the geishas. But, I don't like the last 5 chapters. It was quite boring.

The story made me look at geishas on a different light. Now, when I see one I'd look at them with respect. Sayuri is such a lovable hero. Hay!

If in case you haven't read this book, it would be worth buying.

Rating: 8.7 out of 10

Thursday, October 27, 2005

A Series of Sh*tty, Argh..., and Devastating Events

Argh... Double Arghh...

It all started when I had to cook for breakfast. I fried the ever-complicated Tender Juicy Hotdogs (mini). But my sister, only ate about two hotdogs. Two. Grr. This is so childish of me. But that really hurt me. If yaya were here, she would've finished the whole pack. Are my hotdogs different from yaya's?

After that, I went to school for the enrollment. Beth and I met at the gate. Tadah... Tadah... Tadah... Then, Mira, another friend of ours who is a computer genius pulled me away from Beth.

Mira: Alam na ba ni Beth?
Kaye: Ang alin?
Mira: Di ko 'to sure, ah. Kasi sabi ni (somebody, I forgot who)... hindi daw pumasa si Beth sa removals.
Kaye: Ha? Paano yun? Eh, nung tinawagan namin si Timmy sabi niya pumasa si Beth.
Mira: (in a very reassuring manner) Eh, di ko pa naman sure yun.
Kaye: (scanning the nearest bulletin board) Saan ba yung list? (confused and scared)

For a moment, the scared part of me drowned because we finally saw Rocel, Stella (in a colorful dangling earring ensemble), and Iris. We fell in line to get our cards. But, Beth and I noticed that Rocel looked disturbed. We asked her if she was okay. She said whe wasn't. Being the joker that I am, I tried to crack a joke and do something hilarious but, Rocel said, "Seryoso. May problema talaga." Okay, so there really is a problem. I was thinking maybe somebody died or they lost a lot of money. Their house got burned. I was thinking of something tragic.

It was Beth's turn now.

The girl giving the cards: Omigod! Failed ka sa Anatomy.
Kaye: (looking towards Beth, observing her) Huh? (in a very soft voice... looking towards the girl, irritated)
Beth: (she looked disturbed and annoyed, as well)
A friend of the girl: Ano ka ba? Huwag kang mag-joke ng ganyan
The 'Card-giver': (towards her friend) Hindi. Seryoso ako. (towards Beth) Mahirap ba kay Sir Ho?

I thought that the card-giver was joking but after I got my card, and looked at Beth's card. Okay, so she was telling the truth.

Now, why did Timmy tell us that Beth passed? Another thing, why did that card-giver have to say to her friend that my friend failed? Hello? Why did you ever pass HC101 when you seem to not know what confidentiality is? Argh. What a bi*ch! Grr...

I saw Timmy.

Kaye: (in an irritated, sort of joking kind of way) I hate you! Sabi mo pumasa si Beth.
Timmy: Eh -
Iris: Kaye, syempre na-excite din si Tim
Kaye: (mangilid-ngilid ang luha) Tim, sorry

Our block was supposed to enrol at the same time so that, we'd still be blockmates. But, I guess they didn't want us to be their blockmates (okay, this is super childish and unreasonable of me). Rocel, Beth, Iris, Stella, and I are now on section 6 (with a schedule that sucks) and almost all of them are on section 7 (with a schedule that I'm dying to have). Dang it! I feel so stupid. I am so immature. Well, its not their fault, really. Its our fault because we are so 'excited'. Forgive my ranting, I'll miss them kasi, eh.

Argh. ang dami kong kinaaasaran pero wala na naman akong magagawa kung hindi tanggapin.
I saw Tim again and said sorry for how bitchy I was.

Ow-six kami. Ow-seven na sila. Argh. Naaasar pa rin ako. Hmph!

Prior to this day, the five of us decided to go to Gateway and watch a movie, and just enjoy each other's company. But, Iris and Stella once again left the three of us and go their own separate lives. Naaasar ako kasi napag-usapan na. Pero, baka super kailangan talaga nilang pumunta
at may kailangan silang i-attend na importante. So, okay lang.

We rode the jeepney to Cubao. The driver didn't stop at Gateway he stopped at about a block away from Gateway. Its raining today. So, we crossed the street but this guy in his car continued to drive while he saw us crossing the street. So, we stopped and tried to move backward. But being the inconsiderate moron that he is, he drived in a relatively fast pace and passed through a pothole. Guess what? He splattered dirty water on my pants. Argh! Thank you very much. Sobrang, helpful mo. You made my day brighter. Grr...

We ate at Wendy's. Didn't watch a movie. Strolled inside the mall. Went to Lacoste, Rustan's, Mango, Nike, etc. looking like the alalays of some famous star. We looked horrible and filthy. But, we enjoyed each others company. Kaya ayos na din!

I spotted a jeep with a signboard Vito Cruz Mabini H. Plaza. We said our byes. Paid the driver. And thought about Beth's future, and her remaining months with us. I closed my eyes but I am not asleep. Tapos, bigla na lang nagsisi-alisan yung mga pasahero. Kinukuha nila yung
pamasahe nila sa driver.

Kaye: Ano po ang nangyari? Pinupuno po ba nung driver yung jeep?
The guy in front of me: Hindi. Nahuli kasi ng pulis.
Driver: Putang i#a mo! (towards the MMDA officer, i think)

I was so scared. For all I know, the officer might go ballistic! He might shot the driver. And I might get shot. Poof! Dedo na!

Tadah... Tadah... Tadah...

Sa wakas, nakarating na ako ng Harrison Plaza. Pumasok ako sa second home ko, National Bookstore. I bought another book. An addition to my bodega books. (Pero, ngayon I'm excited to read the book) Yung book ay by Marquez yung Love In Time of Cholera. Tama ba yung title?
Sumakay ako sa sidecar. Pagbaba ko, hindi ko alam na sumabit pala yung pants ko sa isang hook or something dun sa sidecar. Psshwwkk! Ayun na nga. Punit ang pantalon.

Naligo ako tapos, nagsulat ako sa notepad ng entry ko para sa blog kasi ginagamit na ni yaya yung phone. Mga 15-20 lines na yung nasusulat ko iglang nag-restart yung computer. Kung mamalasin ka nga naman.

Tawa na lang tayo! Samahan niyo ako.

At eto po ang Series of S.A.D. Events.

To better things...
My sister won something. Most Promising Athlete. Tsaka, champion yung section nila sa intrams.

Prayer kay LORD
I come to you Father God. Cleanse my heart and my mind. Help me to rely on you. Tanggalin niyo po ang anger sa heart ko. Sorry for acting unGodly. Help! You know my deepest desires. Mold me! Love you. Amen.

Monday, October 24, 2005

What Your Underwear Says About You
You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not!
You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.
The Underwear Oracle




Your Career Type: Artistic
You are expressive, original, and independent.Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.
You would make an excellent:
Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor
The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.





Cheese Pizza
Traditional and comforting.You focus on living a quality life.You're not easily impressed with novelty.Yet, you easily impress others.




Your Hawaiian Name is:
Laka Kekona



Your French Name is:
Roslin Millet



You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.
How Boyish or Girlish Are You?



What Your Sleeping Position Says
You are calm and rational.You are also giving and kind - a great friend.You are easy going and trusting.However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.
What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?



Your Hidden Talent
You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.



Your Power Color Is Teal
At Your Highest:
You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.
At Your Lowest:
You feel in a slump and lack creativity.
In Love:
You tend to be many people's ideal partner.
How You're Attractive:
You make people feel confident and accepted.
Your Eternal Question:
"What Impression Am I Giving?"
One thing that every person who's redesigning his/her blog should know is that one must have a definite plan on what his blog should look like. Argh!

I am so screwed. Argh. I want to change everything that I've done because I sort of don't like my motiff. It's too dull.

I don't know what I want. And, that is what makes this designing thing difficult for me.

I should've taken this more seriously. I should've created a sort of 'design board' or whatever. Grr... I guess, I'll have to start all over again. Or, maybe not. Well, I don't know.

Trivia: Kahapon ko lang nalaman kung paano mag-add ng image sa blog entry ko. Hehe. Sensya na!

Sunday, October 23, 2005

i'm still busy about this blog template thingy! got to see bianca gonzales' blog from ala paredes' blog. thanks to leo's blog.

blog. blog. blog.

ang danda danda ng blog ni ala. ang color coordinated. tsaka, sensible writer. artistic pa! asteg noh!

i realized something. i am such a judgmental person. bad! bad!

super busy pa talaga ako. sana maging maayos yung kalabasan nung ginagawa ko. the motiff: sort of peach na medyo light red na ewan. hehe.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

This'll be quick!

I never thought that I would be able to sort of 'figure out' how to use Macromedia Fireworks. I was really having a hard time figuring out the how to's of Adobe ImageReady and since Photoshop doesn't work, I decided to try Fireworks instead. Now, I'm addicted! Hehe.

I hope that I'll be able to finish this!

Excited na ako na matapos 'to. Natutuwa ako sa work ko. Very girly - like me!

Friday, October 21, 2005

Good morning!

Aling Cello
Ang mga doughnut ba ng Cello's Doughnuts ay gawa ni Aling Cello? Siguro, kasi nga di ba Cello's doughnuts. Noong pumunta kami two days ago ng aking friend na si Beth at si Arrell sa bahay namin para manood ng The Ring, kami ay dumaan muna sa Cello's. Haay... Ang kulay orange na lugar na yun ay infiltrated ng mga La Sallians or CSB peeps na naghahanap ng masarap at matamis na pagkain. Medyo mahaba yung pila, pero okay lang.

Cello Girl: Ano po order niyo ma'am?
Kaye: Umm, two dozens ng doughnut, assorted tsaka, pillows na may chocoloate dip.
Cello Girl: Ay wala na po kaming pillows.
Kaye: Eh, yung C-shaped doughnuts?
Cello Girl: Wala na rin.
Kaye: Ah, ganun ba? O sige, one dozen of doughnut na lang. Assorted. Tsaka yung mini.

Inabot ang pera. Kinuha ang sukli. Hinihintay ang orange and white boxes.

Kaye: Buti nalang may nag-franchise na ng Cello's dito sa may Vito Cruz. Ang alam ko lang kasi na Cello's ay sa Katipunan. Ang layo!
Cello Girl: Ay, hindi to franchise. Branch po ito. (in a super irritating kind of way)
Kaye: (imitating Toni Gonzaga, to hide my embarassment) Ah, ganun ba. Sorry ha.

Okay. Dun kay Cello Girl, thank you for informing. No thanks din! Buti na lang masarap ang doughnuts niyo! Hehe. I know naman she didn't mean to irritate me. Pero, sige forget nah!

Princess Sarah
Kasalukuyan akong nanonood ng cartoons ng Channel 2. Grabe! I missed this. As in. Na-miss ko si Sarah, ang munting prinsesa.

Bible Words
Please read 1 Timothy 1.

My Being OC
I'm a certified Obsessive Compulsive female. Females are sort of born OC. Tapos OC pa! Super OC na talaga ako. Kaya, for the two weeks na walang klase ay super i-pplan ko ang aking bawat araw. I'm excited.

Where can I buy an organizer na cute, pink, blue, purple, at ang time for the daily sched ay 24 hours? Gusto kong pumunta sa isang Office Warehouse (office warehouse ngza ba?) branch kasi may nabili ang aking friend na si Cari, na close to that description.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Congratulations to 2Nu09!
Thank God! Lahat ng blockmates ko ngayong sem ay pasado! Thank God! As in!

Yesterday, I think 7 or 10 students from our block took the removal exams for Anatomy. They said that the removal exam was easier compared to the Grand Finals (yup, bukod sa Finals na pamatay may Granda Finals na pang-double dead). They were all feeling confident. And they should be! I know they'll pass! Hehe.

The results were posted at around 700 in the evening yesterday. Thank you very much to Timmy for keeping us updated last night sa mga 'whats? whos? and whatevers?' sa school.

Congrats!

My Friend: Charm
Charm. My blockmate first year, first sem (1Nu19). My blockmate first year, second sem (1Nu05). My friend.

Charm, Beth, Aeda, and I got very close on our first year, second sem. The four of us were sort of inseparable. We became close and developed a strong friendship. Why strong? Well, we haven't lost contact with each other even if we had our own sections during summer. And, even if Aeda left for Canada, we were able to maintain that certain bond that we have.

So, what's my point?

Beth told me that Charm took the removal exam. And, yesterday when I asked Timmy if Charm passed, he said that he didn't see Charm's name which implies that Charm didn't pass. Of course, up to now, I haven't confirmed that news. But, I still believe and I am still hoping that she passed.

I'm depressed and I'm hopeful.

The Ring: Japanese Version
I bought two VCDs yesterday - The Ring and Pay It Forward. Finally, napanood ko na ang The Ring! In case you didn't know, I only got to see bits and pieces of the movie sa HBO. Never ko siyang natapos panoorin. Disappointed ako. Di ako natakot! Nakakaasar. Nagulat lang ako dun sa part na hinawakan ni Sadako yung hand nung reporter. Yung well scene. Yun lang.

Books Galore
I bought three books today. Vince's Life by Vince Teves, Memoirs of Geisha by Arthur Golden, and The Client by John Grisham. Three additional books to my long list of Bodega Books (mga librong naka-tengga lang sa shelf).

Here's a list of my Bodega Books, na sana ay mabasa kong lahat ngayong SemBreak:

  1. Vince's Life by Vince Teves

  2. Memoirs of Geisha by Arthur Golden

  3. The Client by John Grisham

  4. The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom

  5. The Rule of Four by Ian Caldwell and Dustin Thomason

  6. Fourteen Love Stories edited by Jose dalisay Jr. and Angelo R. Lacuesta

  7. The Parables: Early Vignettes of Heavenly Virtues given by Maharlika 'Aika' Valera

  8. The Best of Oprah's What I Know for Sure, a supplement to O, The Oprah Magazine

  9. The Heart is a Lonely Hunter by Carson Mc Cullers

  10. One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

  11. LORD, Only You Can Change Me by Kay Arthur

  12. A Time To Kill by John Grisham

  13. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

  14. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

  15. The Rainmaker by John Grisham

  16. Along Came a Spider by James Patterson

  17. Interview with the Vampire by Anne Rice

  18. Feast of All Saints by Anne Rice

  19. HTML 5th Edition by Elizabeth Castro

  20. Photoshop CS2 by ElaineWeinmann and Peter Lourekas

  21. Nation, Self, and Citizenship by Randolf David



Halos lahat yan na start-an ko na dati pero di ko matapos tapos. Partial list pa lang yan. Yung mga libro ko for book reports - wala akong natapos except for Little Prince. Kaloka! Sana matapos ko lahat to. Tulungan niyo akong mag-isip kung anong uunahin ko.

Blog Template
Kasalukuyan akong nag-aaral ng ImageReady (ayaw mag-work ng Photoshop CS2 sa amin). Sana ay mabago ko na ang template ko! Help! Sa mga techie friends ko diyan! Calling!!!

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

To GOD be the glory!

HAP111 = Hell
This is what you get for taking nursing. Hell. Hell. And, more hell. Thank God, Anatomy is finally over!

Kanina ay pumunta kami sa school para makita kung kami ay part ng mag-reremoval exams bukas sa Ana. The original announcement from the faculty was that they will be posting the names of those that will take the exams. Pero, as expected nagbago ang kanilang isipan (which, I think led to a better idea).

Ang siste. Ang bawat student ay pipila at ibibigay sa kanila ang isang strip of paper with your name on it at isa sa mga letters na ito: Passed, Failed, Removals.

Pagdating ko ng school, medyo konti lang ang tao. Its either ang mga tao ay nagluluksa o nagpaparty.

Marami akong chismis na narinig na medyo konti pa lang ang bumagsak (as of that time). Pero, hindi ako na-comfort ng mga chismis na yun. At, buong umaga up to the point na malaman ko yung judgment sa akin ay 'tachycardic' ako! As in! No joke.

So pumila na nga kami. At ako ay ang huling tao sa pila. Di ko narining at napansin yung mga reactions nung mga taong nauna sa akin kasi nga di ba super kabado ako. Pag abot sa akin nung strip of paper, crinumple ko siya kaagad dahil gusto ko pang ma-torture. So, binigay ko kay Rashid yung paper. Siya ang magaannounce ng aking kapalaran. Of course, alam ko na i-jojoke time niya ako at mag-iinarte siya na bumagsak ako. Umarte nga siya pero ang sinabi niya ay removals ako. Ako naman paniwalang-paniwala. "Okay lang," sabi ko. Tapos bigla ba naman, "Joke lang Kaye. Pasado ka!"

I screamed. As in screamed ha. GRABE! Di ako makapaniwala na pasado ako. At eto pa, naniwala ako sa arte ni Rashid na removals ako. Grabee! Hinug ko si Rashid sa sobrang kagalakan. At dahil sa super absorbed ako sa feeling of gratitude and joy, na-take for granted ko ang feelings ng iba kong friends.

Well, two of my friends ay mag-reremovals. Itago natin sila sa pangalang Iris at Beth.

Si Beth ay super no reaction lang. Pero, si Iris ay nag-shift sa 'im-so-stupid-i-can't-do-anything-right-i'm-bobo-i'm-going-to-quit-school' mode. And that is totally understandable. Kaya si Beth na-NR ay biglang naiyak.

I feel bad for them. Not that mag-reremovals sila but, because sinisisi nila ang sarili nila (especially Iris) kung bakit ganun ang nangyari. All of us (Rashid, Rocel, Stella, Alex, moi) were trying to comfort them pero super na-blanket sila ng depression (which again is totally understandable).

Alam ko that they can do it. I know it! Yan ang plan ni LORD. Syempre! Nagpapapansin si LORD. Gusto NIYA na i-surrender nina Iris and Beth ang lahat ng worries nila.

Beth and Iris, I believe in the two of you. I know you can do it. Kaya niyo yan! Andyan si LORD. Nandito din kami! Always.

Cello's Doughnuts @ Vito Cruz
At last! Hindi ko na kailangang pumunta ng Katipunan para lang makabili ng heavenly doughnuts ng Cello's! Salamat sa nag-franchise. Bukas na bukas ay bibili ako ng pagkaing pampataba mula sa Cello's.

SemBreak
TGIS! Thank God Its SemBreak! Welcome to buhay baboy! Hehe...

Prayer Ko
Lord God, I lift your name on high. My heart is overwhelmed with gratitude. Thank you for all the blessings that you've showered upon us - upon me. Although at times I feel unworthy of your mercy and greatness, I realized that everything that you've given me (all the problems, all the triumphs) are part of leading and living a Christian life.

I'm still a bud. Help me to grow in love with you. Help me to fall in love with you more and more each day. Help me to help others fall in love with you.

By your grace, guidance, and mercy, I know that I will be able to overcome all my struggles. Strengthen me. Enlighten me. Shower me with your wisdom.

I pray, Father GOD, that all of us may be able to pass Nursing, or whatever course we are in. Help us to realize that every bump in the road is just a bump I can leap upon.

That in all things GOD may be glorified!


Wednesday, October 12, 2005

I just got home from school. Although I want to feel depressed, my being right now is just so numb that I'd rather fool myself to feel happy than to feel nothing at all. Oh well.

The only thing that keeps me going right now, aside from my family and friends is God. God and his promises.

I know everthing will turn out right. I know so. I believe that it will. God promised me. God promised us.

Read James 1.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Hellweek Once More
Need I say more? This is the last installment of hellweek for this semester. I am positive that I will be able to do better this time in all my academic stuff - I am hoping, that is. Oh well, God help me.

Last 3 weeks na lang!

Beth Bath
Na-devirginized na ko ni Beth. Hehe. Circular motion ang kanyang ginawa sa aking breasts. Hehe. Beth, ikaw lang ang nakakita ng aking alindog. Waha!

Na-dedepress nga ako for Beth kasi napaka-likot ko nung binebed-bath niya ako. So, medyo maraming minus points on her part and its all my fault. Sorry talaga! Super sorry talaga! Although 2 points lang ang difference namin... 2 points is 2 points. Grabe! Ang GC. Sorry.

At dahil dun ay ililibre ko si Beth sa Pancake House bukas.

Amazing Race Family Edition
I was able to watch 15 minutes of the first episode. I felt bad for the Black's. Pero ayos lang yun! At least they were able to work as a team without all those bickering and arguments, unlike the Paolo family.

Computer stuff
I need help with Adobe Photoshop. Kapag-nirurun ko yung program bigla na lang nag-shushutdown yung PC. Eh, kapag Adobe Imageready naman okay naman siya. In good working condition naman. Help!

Missing You
I miss a lot of people! Grabe! Lei, Gerry, Riz, Nabs, Dee, Grazie, Aeda, She-Ann, Camille, Gladz, Mavie, Jen, Migs, Jovy, Jay-Ar, Aiza, Jecca, EJ, Jax, Lauren, Ervin, Roel, Mai, Julius, Martine, Lan, Val, Kamille, Jess, AK, Vyna, Vanny, Binggay, JenAn, atbp. Tinatamad na akong mag-type... Si toot and toot!

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Although I am not a fan of the show Rockstar INXS, I was very eager to watch the season finale of the show because of Mig Ayesa, who was born in Manila. Syempre, suportahan 'taka!

Well, he lost to JD Fortune. Oh, well.

I hope that Mig'll come here and have a rock concert. And, I hope that he'll make it big in the music industry worldwide. Ayos lang yan!

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Argh... There are so many things that's causing me to freak out. And I mean, totally freak out! Argh... Dang it! This day could've been different but I guess, it couldn't. Argh... I just hate everything right now. Argh... sh*t! I just wish I could start all over.

To better things, Happy birthday Stella! Thanks for the Cabalen treat. I was really full. I'm looking forward to another eating session of Filipino food. Yum! Kare-kare. Yum! Yum!

Again, argh... I couldn't point out a single thing that's causing me to rant like this. Well, this is more than just a simple ranting. Argh... I just hate it. My life's so messed up. The only thing that I think is keeping me together is GOD. But sometimes, I feel so alone. So alone, that I even doubt that GOD's there for me. That GOD is with me. But, I know I need to hold on. I just feel empty, lost, broken.

I'm human. I'm shattered. I'm sorry for myself.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

This will be quick.

I will be going to school today. Grr... Para tapusin ang Case Presentation sa Health Care. Wah... Tapos mag-rereport pa ako on Monday. Sana lang walang classes on Monday!

LORD, help!

Sunday, September 04, 2005

MAGIS is the over-all champion for the SNA Days 2005!

To God be the glory!

Volleyball Game(Girls): Magis vs. Centenniales
And so they met again! Woohoo! Championship game and muli silang nagkita. Super hot ng laban pati na rin ng audience. Grabe! Talagang ang high ng spirits ng bawat batch. Well, natalo kami. Pero ayos lang. Good fight! (Hehe. Kapag talo, palaging good fight!)

Umm, yung team ng Centenniales ay 2 lang ang naglalaro. Grabe! Two ang kanilang key players. Si #4 and #29 (who, by the way, is so cocky-looking!). Kairita! Buti pa si #4 kahit na magaling, yung dating niya ay humble pa rin.

I am so pissed off by Jerry Codinera's daughter (Tama ba ang spelling? Not a fan of his.). Nung game kasi, eh di super hot na nga nung both batches. Eh, yung batch namin and their batch ay magkatabi. Yung bag niya yata (Jerry Codinera's daughter) nakalagay sa parang 'boundary' nung batch namin and batch nila. Tapos bigla ba naman ang sabi niya dun sa co-3rd year niya, "Akin na nga yung bag ko. Baka may mawala pa diyan." As if! Go to hell! FYI, I can buy a whole lot more bags than what you have. Well, that's not the point. Ang kinaiirita ko is that super personalan naman ang attack niya! Siyempre yung hirit niyang yun ay pertaining sa aming batch. Grr!

They won! Ang 3rd year ang nanalo sa volleyball game. Congrats to them! Especially to #4. She should've been the MVP.

Basketball Game (Boys): Centenniales vs. Invictus
It was a shock to see that our batch is not in the Championship.

Seriously, super galing ng Magis A. Lupet! May 3-point player. May tiga-lay-up! Astig! Super galing! Ang dami pang gwapo! Hehe. Anyway, ayos lang! Hehe. Pero di talaga ako makapaniwala. Yung games nila palagi nilang natatambakan yung katunggali nila. Asteg talaga! Pero, sayang. Oh, well!

Dahil sa kami ay natalo sa game ng volleyball humanap kami ng kakampi sa katauhan ng Batch Invictus. Kaya ang daming cheerers ng batch Invictus. Nagsanib ang aming pwersa! Woohoo!

Super close fight talaga yung basketball game. Pero, in the end, ang nanalo ay ang batch Invictus! Yeah! Super saya! Alam mo yung feeling na para bang panalo din kami kasi ang Invictus at ang Magis ay nagsanib ng pwersa! Hehe. In your face!

Talents Unlimited
Kantahan Muna
Sa singing contest, ay naku, grabe! Pamatay ang performance ni Aiza Zoleta (co-Magis). I'm not exaggerating. Talagang ang galing niyang kumanta, ang ganda pa niya. Kumbaga, complete packaging na siya! Grabe! Galing talaga. Ang kinanta niya is Isang Lahi. I'm not sure of the title.

Yung next bet ko is from the batch Centenniales. Si Wild Flower. Hehe. I don't know his name but his song piece was Wild Flower. Ang lamig ng boses niya!

Then, my next bet is my friend, Jovy. Ang kinanta niya is It Might Be You. Broken yung cords nung song (I don't know if that's the right term to use). Basta, iba yung pagkaka-arrange so it was kinda hard to sing. But potentially, maganda ang boses ni Jovy. At huwag ka, ang taray ng friend ko in blue chiffon gown with matching lugay ng kanyang pang-shampoo commercial na hair! Panalo ka diyan!

The verdict: Aiza won! (*maraming clap*)

Sayaw Nene Sayaw Nene
Sa dancing naman, well, ang daming nagkalat. Except for the Invictus A and B and of course, Magis.

Magis was the last to perform. And as the saying goes, save the best for last! Lupet!

Verdict: Magis won!

Gaya-gaya Puto-Maya Ipakain sa Buwaya
Sa gaya-gaya naman, there were only 3 contestants.

The first contestant were from the batch Centenniales. Yung contestant nila ay yung 3 gays that are so something that I'd rather not say na lang because they might read this. (Wooh... Feeling ko!) Ginaya nila si Fantasia, Nora, and Sharon. Their performance was okay. But okay is just an understatement of saying that they sucked! Well, not really! It was too Comedy Bar-ish. And, the venue was not the venue for their supposed to be amazing performance. The gym is quite big for a stand-up comedic act.

The second contestant is from ahem, batch Magis. He imitated Bamboo. As in si Bamboo! He doesn't look like Bamboo. Pero yung porma, pasado! Tapos, yung mga galaw niya parang si Bamboo. Alam mo yung tipong pagka-kiti-kiti ni Bamboo. Ganun! Lupet! Tapos, kumanta pa siya ng Hallelujah. Rock-rock-an sa gym! Grabe!

Yung third contestant ay from Invictus. Group sila! Mga basketball players yung sumali. Ginaya nila ang Masculados. Wehe! Nakakatawa lang talaga. Ang kukulet! Ang gwapo! Hehe! Green fun yung pinroject nila. So, kinda off, but fun, nonetheless. Di mo aakalaing mga Nars!

Verdict: Bamboo reign supreme! Need I say more?

Ate Gay's Special Appearance
Magaling nga siya. Yun lang.

Declaration of the Winners
Sa totoo lang, we already accepted the fact that talo kami sa lahat ng mga bagay sa SNA. Pero nakalimutan namin na hindi lang pala volleyball and basketball ang sports and events na nilikha ng Panginoon. May badminton pa pala, table tennis, swimming, etc. At thank God, dahil majority sa events ay napanalunan namin! Yipee!

And as the hosts were saying the winners for every event ay nagsimula ng mag-alisan ang ahem, batch Centenniales. Mayroon din sa Invictus pero mas noticeable ang pagkonti ng population nila. I'm insinuating something here... :)

And, ayun na nga. MAGIS is the over-all champion for the SNA Days 2005!

Bumabaha ng Gwapo
I never thought na marami palang gwapo sa Nursing. As in! Ang dami kong naging crush over the week. I don't know their names yet. Pero ayos lang.

1. Si Casillan (#1) from Invictus
2. Si Roque (#3) from Invictus din
3. Si 3-pointer Senturias from Magis
4. Si Agapito from Magis
5. Si Oba from Magis
6. Si Dancer na taga-Centenniales, yung uber cute!

Yan lang ang i-di-disclose ko. Hehe! Yung iba chikwet ko nah.

Panawagan kay Kenneth!
Kutz, sorry na!

Realization of my Evil Side
I felt that because of the SNA Days, lumabas ang angelic and evil side ko. Feeling ko naging notorious na ako sa mga 3rd year. Kasi ang ingay ko kapag nag-che-cheer for Magis, eh di ba nga, malapit kami sa may Centenniales na side. Well, I'll just let everything pass na lang. Basta thank God!

God's Amazing Power
Sa lahat ng mga nangyari, lalo akong napa-wow kay LORD. Grabe! Ang galing niya noh? Super talaga. God sees the truth but waits. He really knows what's best. Grabe! Remember Jeremiah 29:11. Yung "For I know the plans I have for you..." Astig noh? Grabe talaga si LORD. Nakaka-overwhelm talaga ang power ni God.

Father God, thank you for all the blessings that you've given us. Thank you for being our shield. Thank you for being our light. Thank you for showing us your amazing power and grace! Lord God, I want to lift up all our victories to you. For all the pains that we've experienced, truly, you've made our victory sweeter! We love you. Without you, we wouldn't be able to fulfill this plan of yours. Thank you! Continue to bless us O God, that we may use this victory to draw more people into your light. That we may be able to be your souldiers! We love you. I love you

Thursday, September 01, 2005

I was supposed to write about something inspirational but, my plans changed because I am pissed. So pissed, I can't even describe it! Argh.

SNA Girls' Volleyball (Batch Centenniales vs Batch Magis)
Super na pipikon ako sa 3rd year kanina. We lost. Pero, ayos lang yun. Asus! Ilang beses na kaming natalo. So, no big deal sa pagkatalo. Ang kinaiirita ko lang ay nung game proper, as in nung mismong game, ay nag-checheer sila. Ayos lang yun! Syempre, naturalmente i-che-cheer nila ang batch nila. Kami din naman ay ganun din ang ginagawa pero, syempre dahil sa likas kaming maingay at mas malaki ang population namin, lunod ang boses nila kahit na may drums sila. Eto na, ang kinaiinis ko ay yung pinagyayabang nila na 3rd year sila.

Ganito kasi yun. Iba ang uniform ng 3rd year sa 2nd year and sa 4th year. So, that means na ma-didifferentiate nila ang bawat batch. Parang ganun! (Actually, hindi talaga ganun. Marami talagang uniform ang nursing sa Trinity. Eh, kapag 3rd year lang madadagdagan ang aming uniform. So, ibig sabihin yung tipong may license-to-brag-about-our-apron-like-uniform na sila.) Basta! Sa tuwing nakaka-point sila super yabang nila. As in! Tipong tatayo sila. Tapos alam mo yun... Yung hinahawakan nila yung uniform nila. Grr... Argh! Dang it! Kaasar!

Wehe... Pasensya na. Napikon lang talaga ako dun!

My Friends Jovy and Shine
Jovy and Shine are my ex-block mates but forerever friends. Sila ay mga players ng aming batch (Magis) sa volleyball. They played a good game. Kaya ayos lang yan my friends! Labshu!

MMDA Urinals
Because I am so good, I managed to make their making fun of us by making their making fun of us a making fun of them. Did you get it?

Ang batch color namin ay pink. Please no violent reactions. Didn't like it either but the uniforms of our players are damn good! So, please lang. Anyway, yun ang napansin nila. Ang color pink. Kaya inassociate nila ito sa MMDA. Akala nila siguro na mawawalan kami ng spirit dahil sa hirit nila na iyon kaya ako ay gumawa ng cheer. Kapag sasabihin nila na "M-M-D-A", sasagot naman ako ng "M-M-D-A U-ri-nals". Hehe. Wala lang. Natuwa lang ako sa Urinals na word. Ang kulit.

Eto pa, nag-boo-boo sila sa amin kapag mag-se-serve ang aming team. So, kapag nag-boo-boo sila ako naman ay "Mmm-tiyaya-BooMMM-tiyaya-boom-yeah-yeah" Hehe. So nice!

Pikon
Sorry. Napikon lang talaga ako!

Sweet Revenge
I hope that we become the over-all champion in the SNA. And, I hope that Magis would have the most number of graduates ever in the history of Trinity College of Quezon City-St. Luke's College of Nursing.

Sweet!

On Second Thought
On second thought, I'll let God do the judging! Hmph...

My Prayer
Father God, I come to you and ask for your forgiveness for my being pikon, being mayabang, and a whole lot more. I pray to you, O God, that I may accept whatever it is that you will. I surrender my life to you. That's why I now surrender all my pains and burdens to you. I lift them all up to you. I hope that Kutz forgives me. AMEN.