Random Thoughts....

I'm very happy that Taylor Hicks won over Katharine McPhee. I love his song, Do I Make You Proud.

Clay Aiken was sooo cute on the season finale of AI.

I am currently listening to Carrie Underwood's CD. I'm on the 5th track. I'm loving her CD.

I bought pirated DVDs for tomorrow's happening. Can't wait to see Beth!!!

Ang mahal ng tuition fee namin!

Do you have souveneir suggestions para sa pinning and capping namin? We're thinking of a tumbler. You know, the Starbuck's tumbler. I think its cute and useful.

Ahem... Praise GOD that I passed Pharmacology!

I think Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes' daughter's name is not so cute. Suri. Hmm... I think Sayuri is better. Hehe... Pang-geisha.

BJ and Tyler of The Amazing Race won! Woohoo! In your face Joseph and Monica. Beh!!!

...Don't Forget to Remember Me...

I still haven't settled this matter, yet. Did Brad cheat on Jen for Angelina? I like Jen and Angelina. Argh... That Brad Pitt...

And, I wish that Britney finds a better man for her. Kevin is so not worth it.

Wah!!! Mag-bblue and white uniform na kami! YEhey! Praise GOD! To GOD be the glory!!!

American Idol
I can't believe it. CHRIS DAUGHTRY is out from the competition. That, Katherine should have been out way before Paris. Argh... Si Elliott na lang yung natitira sa mga bets ko. Hey! Yung mga taong pwedeng mag-vote, paki-vote naman si Elliott tsaka si Taylor. Tanggalin na si Katherine Mc Phee. Ah shet! Final Two: Taylor Hicks and Elliott Yamin!!!

Amazing Race
Last week, na-depress ako dahil napaka-bitc*y nina Joseph and Monica at last place sina BJ and Tyler. Pero, masaya na ulit ako dahil ayon sa recaps na nabasa ko ay naka-bounce back sina BJ & tyler at 1st place na sila! Yehey! Sana sila ang manalo.

Survivor: Panama Exile Island
Ang stupid ni Shane. At least, from the time na nakapanood ako ng Survivor ay wala naman siyang super foul na ginawa.

Sana matanggal na si Aras kasi kahit na I find him cute siya ang pinaka-matinding competitor next to Terry. Sana ang dalawang survivors na matira ay si Terry at yung blonde girl. Kasi gusto kong manalo si Terry.

Si Cirie ay magaling. Hehe! Pero, ayaw ko siyang manalo. Please lang.

i just need to let this out.

i am super duper frustrated with myself. i haven't changed a bit. i am still the same unfocused student, who wouldn't care that much about studying. argh... i mean, i shouldn't be ranting kasi i am not studying naman ng sobra. yung study ko kasi is equal to browsing, or wasting my time making reviewers i don't review. yun ang studying ko. sheesh! grabe! kailangan ko ng matagpuan ang aking this is it moment at mag-aral ng mabuti.

ang dami dami kong iniisip. kung tutuusin mas mahirap pa itong summer kaysa sa mga past semesters. and to think na 9 units lang 'to. hirap na hirap ako kahit hindi nag-aaral. naiinggit tuloy ako kay paulo kasi siya nakikita ko na nag-aaral siya. tapos si arman nag-aaral din. alam mo yun? oarang ako lang ang hindi nag-aaral. argh!!!

the good news is its never too late. i still have 3 weeks to make it all better. kanina sabi nina arrell na hini na daw kami makaka-abot ng 1.75 sa card. siguro mga 2.00 na lang daw ang pwedeng highest grade namin. pero, alam ko through hardwork and by GOD's grace ay kakayanin kong abutin ang 1.75 na yan.

in one of oprah's shows, i learned that when you have a dream and you want to make it happen, you should make a plan and write it down. they said that dreams and plans written down are most likely to come true. that's why, i am writing downmy plan.

for this summer, this is my plan:

Goal: A 1.75 in all of my subjects this Summer
How will I achieve this? (Sub-Goals):
Starting tomorrow, all of my quizzes in all of my three subjects: Pharma, Nutri, Funda will never fail. A failing grade is unacceptable. A passing grade is fine but not advised. A perfect score is my ultimate goal.

I will review everyday and give equal weight and urgency for all three subjects. If it couldn't be helped, I will focus on the subject needing more attention. (Duh!)

When I take down notes, I'll make sure that I will review them. Reviewers are meant to be reviewed. So, I will review.

Avoid TV distractions. My only companion is music. Five days without TV is better than my whole life full of tv and me being unemployed.

Focus, Discipline, Love for learning. For GOD's greater glory.


I KNOW I COULD DO THIS!!!

Jesus Take the Wheel
Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her Mama & her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus, take the wheel___
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me Oh, why, oh



You and Me
Life House

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and
I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words,
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

The past week was hell. Quizzes everyday. Failing miserably - everyday. Well, passing some. But, mostly failing. Will I ever pass Nursing?

Anyway, I am trying to adjust from this chaotic sem. I'm not well adjusted, I don't think I ever will. But, hey. A girl's gotta do what she's gotta do. Study. Study. Study. How I wish that after 6 grueling weeks of studying, I will be able to go to Amanpulo and rest. Hay... Mga panaginip ko.

I have 3 new crushes. In case you're watching Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition, nakita niyo na siguro sila. Ang mga crush ko ay sina Mikee, Gerald, and Aldred. Syempre, ang major crush ko ay si Mikee. Siya yung smart guy from Ateneo tsaka major crush ko din si Aldred yung guy na marunong magluto. Hay!!!

MIkee reminds me of someone.... Someone na... Ah, basta someone!

No vacation for me.

Hay... I'm too busy about a lot of school stuff. I need to enroll this Wednesday. I am still waiting for my tuition fee from my mom. I have a lot of books to buy. Alphabetically arranged na ang mga students so, most probably lahat ng mga M ang last name ay kasama ko. Pero, according to my friend Arman, from Mar - Quis yung mga kaklase ko. Which also means na kasama ko si Arman kasi Noob siya, eh.

I am sort of happy about the section thingy kasi medyo marami-rami akong kakilala sa section ko. And, I am happy about that. But, if I really think about it, that's the time when everything just sinks in. Wala na si Beth.

Waah! Ang drama ko! Pero, talaga. Mami-miss ko si Beth! Miss ko na nga si Beth, eh! Grabe! Alam mo yun? Waah! Nakakalungkot.

Beth, Aeda, Charm, and I has always been patners. Pero, syempre... Umalis si Aeda sa Canada. Tapos si Charm, naunang umalis sa bagong school. And then, Beth and I na lang ang natira. Super close kami ni Beth pero, mas nag-grow yung friendship namin ng umalis sina Aeda and Charm. As in! Last last sem. Partners kami ni Beth. Sa HEalth Care. Partner ko sa Bed Bath, Oral Care, Vital Signs, Parenteral Medications. Alam mo yun! Super intimate na nga namin, eh. Hehe. Super transparent kami. Tapos, talagang lahat kinukwento niya sa akin. Tapos, ako naman talagang lahat kinukwento ko sa kanya. As in! Mami-miss ko talaga si Beth. As in! Super! Yung mga Jollibee and McDo moments namin kapag wala na sina Rocel. Yung mga food trip sessions namin na kung anu-ano lang ang binibili namin - Kikiam, Siomai, Ice Cream, Cheese sticks. Waah! Super mami-miss ko talaga lahat yun.

Siguro, akala ni Beth na madali lang tanggapin yung thought na pumasa ako. Pero, sa totoo lang hindi. Kahit na masaya ako dahil na-bless ako at pumasa ako, malungkot pa rin kasi wala na siya dun. Yung tipong, gusto kong maging masaya kaya lang it will be happier if I could share it with Beth. Hay! Mag-aadjust kaming pareho. Hay! Pero, one thing's for sure - friends pa rin kami.

At tuloy pa rin ang aming PaLuWagAN!

Hehe...

I pray that we may find GOD's purpose for all of this...

I could sing of YOUR love forever. I could sing of YOUR love forever.

I am truly amazed by the LORD's power. I am truly in awe. I can't believe how blessed I am. Though sometimes I feel that I am not worthy of it, I know that because He died for me... I am some special being.

Grabe! I can't of anything else to say but thank you. I can't express how wonderful this feels basta, thank you na lang. Those two words aren't even enough to show you the depth of how I am feeling. I am so amazed at your marvelous power. Grabe!

LORD, super salamat talaga. I can't believe that I passed this stage of my education as a Nurse. Super overwhelmed talaga ako! As in! I mean passing the Microbio is one thing. Pero, passing the Battery Exam - that is super wow na talaga!

You see, guys, the Battery Exam that I took (which was taken on the same day of Pacquiao and Morales' fight) was not an easy thing. Actually, the questions were UPCAT type na mas madali pa, pero ang catch is time pressured ito. Four part test ito. Sort of confident naman ako sa first three parts, pero, nung sinasagutan ko na yung fourth part bigla ba namang sinabi nung proctor na 15 minutes (or is it 20) na lang. Eh, super dami pa ng hindi ko nasasagot. Mga around 20 - 40 items pa. Eh, abstract reasoning na mataas ang degree of difficulty pa naman yun. Kaya nga that time, nung super under pressure ako, sinabi ko na lang na, "LORD, kayo na ang mag-takeover sa hands ko. I-guide mo na lang kung anong circle ang i-shshade ko." Tapos, alam mo yun, talagang hindi ko na binasa yung mga questions. As in super ni-lift up ko na lang talaga lahat kay LORD. Talagang, ngayon ko na-realize na it was not me answering the Battery Exam. There was this higher being guiding me all throughout. Grabe! Super wow talaga ang powers ni LORD! Woohoo! Testimony to!

Tapos, parang yung MICRO. Alam mo yun. Hindi talaga ako yung tipo ng student na super duper aral sa subject na yun. I only study for 2 hours fora a certain exam (which is hindi sapat sa mga MICRO concepts). Tapos, nag-aaral lang ako that morning. Hindi talaga ako makapaniwala. Pero, pagdating naman ng mga major exams... nag-aaral na talaga ako. Hehe! Pero, wow talaga! Super grabe itong blessings na 'to!

Dahil dito sa mga biyayang natanggap ko, I realized a lot of things. Muling na-affirm yung love ko for GOD and yung faith ko sa kanya. That, eventhough I might lack the qualities of a good student, with ORA et LABORA, I can do anything. God is so powerful... that ang Divine interventions niya ang nag-papasa sa akin. Grabe!

I bring back all the glory to you.

LORD, thank you for the blessings. Salamat dahil pumasa ako sa removals sa MICRO. Sana po bukas, sa pagtanggap ko ng mahiwagang envelope, nawa'y mabuting balita din ang dala nito.

I made a lot of realizations from this nerve-wracking experience of taking the removals exam. First, I am so lazy. And, I need to change that. Second, I am very proud of myself. Tsk... tsk... Baguhin din yun.

I am truly humbled by this experience.

That in all things GOD may be glorified.

Next, please take notice of the flickr badge on thee left side of the screen. Nice pics noh! Syempre, litrato ko yan. Hehe! Thank you Leo for introducing me to this flickr thingy.

I am so loving country music right now. That is because of Bucky Covington. He's not the best singer but, I really like him. I like the songs he sings in AI5. I love the songs that they're singing.

My Bets for AI5:

1. Chris Daughtry
   
2. Mandisa
   
3. Kellie Pickler (I don't like her voice but she's very charming.)
   
4. Bucky Covington
   
5. Elliott Yamin
   

I love the songs: Drops of Jupiter, Real Good Man, I Don't Wanna Be. All of these were songs that were sung on AI5.

God, help! Thank you for all the blessings!

You can never be too happy in this life.

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate my sister for graduating with honors in St. Scholastica's College. Take note: Silver Medalist yan. Hehe! Proud sister! She truly deserves it. She worked hard for it. Her GC-ness paid off. :)

And, although I am truly happy for my sister, a sort of bad news ruined my mood. I learned that I am going to take removal exams for Microbiology. Not bad, actually. I mean, its better than Failing. But, I feel so inferior. I know that I could've done better. But, there's no crying over spilled milk. What's done is done. And, all I can do is strive to be better this removals, which by the way will be harder according to our professor.

Lord, help! I know you won't leave me.

Pero, pwede iyak muna ako. Nahihiya ako sa magulang ko. Waah! :(

okay, what i'm about to write is downright senseless... i'm so frustrated, angry, and everything else i don't want to hurt anybody with what i'm about to say.

i worked so hard para sa churva namin. but then si ms. churva to nth level ay nag-walkout chenes sa amin without cheverling our side. what's frustrating is that si ms chuva ay hindi man lang naging mas-open minded to hear our side. chuva talaga!

i chuvster worked hard for this. everyone did. and walk out? damn you!

buti pa ang micro... aminado ako ay super pabaya ako churva sa subject niya. but then again, i know in my heart, i will pass the subject. alam ko na ilang madamdaming pag-aaral lang ay okay ako. i know it. i just know it. churva talaga!

hay....

serious na ako...

may quote akong nabasa... ang ganda.... may this help me and all those who are frustarted with life and problems...

As you go through life may this forever be your goal: Look upon the doughnut and not upon the hole...

Your Stripper Song Is

I'm" a Slave 4 U by Britney Spears "I'm a slave for you. I cannot hold it; I cannot control it.I'm a slave for you. I won't deny it; I'm not trying to hide it." You may seem shy, but you can let your wild side out when you want to!

What Song Should You Strip To?

You Are Los Angeles

Young and fun, you always know where the best parties are.And while you tend to keep things carefree and casual...You certainly can glam it up when you need to. Famous people from Los Angeles: Tyra Banks, Jake Gyllenhall, Freddie Prinze Jr.

What American City Are You?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

glowing inside (?) by nikki gil

happy, to let you know
you make me glow
i feel so good its true
so glad that I have you
you love me so
now all is bright
i'll always

thank you for the glow
i thank you for the joy
thank you for the love
you gave to me
i’m glowing, glowing inside
with your love shining through
i thank you for everything you do
i'm glowing inside because of you

remember my growing years
they're filled with joy
because you're there for me
you cast my fears away
you wipe those tears
you give me strength each day

i thank you for the glow
i thank you for the joy
thank you for the love
you gave to me
i’m glowing, glowing inside
with your love shining through
i thank you for everything you do
i'm glowing inside because of you

who knows what tomorrow brings
my glowing wings
you make me fly
i reach and now i touch the sky
because of youi'll soar up high
so i must

thank you for the glow
i thank you for the joy
thank you for the love
you gave to me
i’m glowing, glowing inside
with your love shining through
i thank you for everything you do
i'm glowing inside because of you

Fast, update...

Thinking about celebrating my birthday in Red Box with my college friends. Omigosh!

Shoot! Visual Aids for the family. I'm screwed. I haven't finished it, yet.

Another, we still don't have our script for our Literature project.

Oh wow. This is so frustrating. I just learned two days ago that my midterm grade in microbio is 70.48. Seventy point forty-eight nga ba? Ah, ewan. Basta mga ganun lang. Hindi pasado. Waah! How am I ever going to pass second year? Grabe! Will I ever be a nurse?

Gustung-gusto ko ang teleserye na Mga Anghel na Walang Langit. As in! Super palagi akong na-totouch. Lalo na yung mga scenes ni Nanay Lusing at ni Gigi. Super! Wala lang. Na-iinspire ako. Alam mo yung innocence tsaka simplicity sa isang bata. Ah, basta! Iba. Sana ma-extend pa sila. Matatapos na kasi, eh.

I'm thinking of spending my birthday with my college friends in Red Box Greenbelt? Wala akong pera kaya yung mga highschool friends ko, on hold muna. Hehe...

Gift ko!

Anyway, Yung Dream of this site paki-puntahan for gift ideas.

Okay, back to things that are totally mind-draining - Acads. Ewan ko ba! Ay naku! Super ang daming kailangang gawin, ang daming gastusin, ang daming bagsak, konti ang pinapasa. Ewan ko ba!

It was a very long day - worthy of chronicling, actually. But, it was so long that I'd rather have memories of it in my head. Maybe tomorrow, I'll write about it.

Okay, some random thoughts about today.

I made a wrong decision of wearing my plain white shirt instead of wearing the SNA shirt. See, I brought my SNA shirt but my jeans' button is broke and I was just worried that when we are hiking, my fly would be open and it's happy valentines to everybody. And, that SNA shirt is tight on my chest. You know naman, well-endowed.

I feel that our block doesn't deserve our adviser, Sir Messiah Dela Cruz. He is just so lenient and very approachable. He is #3 on my list: "Who I want to be my HC Adviser". He's just so... so... nice. And, we are so pasaway! We so not deserve him. Napaka-bait niya, eh.

Sermon galore sa unang araw ng community. We were reprimanded and scolded by two CIs - Sir Poten and Ma'am A (Forgot her name...) and somehow they struck a chord in me. Made me reflect on our way back to school.

I realized a lot of things... So many things... (This one I'll write tomorrow or on Friday)

Haven't seen the latest episode of American Idol.

Tomorrow's another hell day. Unit exam sa Micro - one chapter lang pero super haba at ang dadaming mememorize-in na mga gamot. Sh*t! Tapos may long test sa MicroLab. Di ko maintindihan yung mga nireport previously. Sh*t!

One helpful act I remembered from the TV series LOST:
Jack: "I only let 10 seconds of fear get through me. After that, my fear - its over." (not the same words but that's the gist of what he said)

I miss my mom.

Right after watching the new commercial of Vaseline - yeah, the one where Nikki Gil is singing the 'jingle' of a sort of mini-movie which chronicles the relationship of a mother and her daughter (with exaggerated straight and shiny hair) - I cried. Well, not cried. A degree less than crying.

I miss my mom so much.

I remember my high school graduation - which was the worst graduation one could have. Both of my parents were not here during that time. Can you imagine how terrible I felt? I mean, although, I have no awards which they could be proud of, its just a nice feeling to share your accomplishments with the people you love.

Nikki Gil has such an angelic voice. It gives the ad a more dramatic feeling. I don't mind the lengthy commercial.

But, I still use Head & Shoulders for my shampoo and Palmolive Naturals for my conditioner. :p

I had a great time cheering for our college yesterday in the inter-college sports event.

Well, panalo lang naman ang nursing sa volleyball girls, cheerdance, and basketball boys. I don't know about the other events but I am so proud. To hell with CBA. Ang yayabang! Na-technical foul nga! Hehe...

Lord, what is the reason behind what happened today? Why did you let that happen? What do you want to teach us from that tragedy?

In case you're hiding under a man hole and don't have a tv, you probably won't know that around 70 people died today from a stampede in Phil. Sports Arena a.k.a. Ultra in their hopes of winning something from the first Anniversary of Wowowee.

I was on my way to school when I heard about that tragic news. During that time, only 20 people were reportedly dead on the scene due to the stampede. I thought that was the end of the deaths but boy, was I wrong! Twenty people is tragic. Seventy is devastating.

God, I can't explain how depressed I am feeling right now.

Those people waited for almost all of their lives just to get a chance to win something. They hoped for a life-changing moment. And, I guess, that's what they got.

I just feel so depressed. Depressed as in, my-heart-is-bleeding-figuratively kind of depression. Why Lord, did you let this happen? Help us find the reason why? Are you testing the people behind Wowowee? Gosh, what is the reason?

This is so frustrating. Argh...

I love watching Wowowee. I find it very... entertaining... and charitable. Although, I get irritated by some of Willie's green jokes (which, I personally think have been mild compared to what he's done before), I really find the spirit of sharing and giving very much alive in their show. Its very inspiring to see the 'richer' Filipinos give a little of what they have to the unfortunate Filipinos. The TFC subscribers giving dollars without hesitation is so inspiring. The contestants just asking for what they need and not asking for more is... Inspiring.

The show has inspired me to want less and give more.

And, of course, eventhough the network hypes their goal of giving to the poor (which I sometimes find annoying), I don't mind. Both networks (ABS CBN and GMA) do the same. They act as if they are the only ones who should help other people. Puh-leez. Can we just get along?

Another related story...

On my way home tonight, the people inside the FX were talking about the tragedy in Ultra. What pissed me off was what the lady said. It was bashing the show. I mean saying negative things about it. In my mind, I was like, " Tumigil ka na nga. Buti nga tinutulungan yung mga mas mahihirap." If I were out of my mind, I would have gone ballistic and shouted at her. Jeez!

Can we just get along?

Pwede tama na ang network war? Kasi, kung hindi dahil diyan hindi naman i-eexploit ng both networks ang poverty ng mga Pilipino.

I feel bad. So bad talaga. Hindi ko ma-explain. I feel bad for ABS CBN because they should've known better how to handle a great deal of people. I feel bad for the people behind Wowowee because all they wanted was to help (and, of course, win the ratings war), but their intention was not enough to save lives. I feel bad for Willie because... I just feel bad for everyone.

All I can do is write about it and pray for everyone.

This is so disheartening. I am crying right now.

I am super high right now, I can't even explain. I feel like I am under a drug and I can't seem to stop thinking about Carol Banawa and whether she got through American Idol 5 or not. I saw today the auditions in Austin. And I saw her. She had a short exposure. Around 3 seconds. But I wasn't able to see the actual auditions. And, I didn't know whether she got through or not. Argh... I am positive that that's her. I saw it on the AI's site. Gosh! I'm going gaga over this thing. I do hope she got through. She definitely has a chance.

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Did she get through? I am praying she did.