Hay! Welcome back to me!

School Rantings
Ang dami kong ginagawa ngayon. Grabe! Mag-ppractice kami tomorrow na mag-inject ng tao. Grabe! Nakakakaba. I hope that I don't screw up. Sowper!

All of my teachers for this sem sucks! And, I mean all.

Yung SHE teacher namin - super kapuso (which is not bad thing naman) pero, I don't like her. Yung reasoning niya napaka-illogical. Grr! Sabi niya nung isang discussion namin, "Wala namang culture yang mga western countries. (She was pertaining to the show Pinoy Big Brother tapos, biglang wala ng culture kaagad yung western countries.)" Paki-define nga ang cuture.

I was looking forward na maging maganda ang Lit class ko. Guess what? Super boring nung teacher although, mabait naman siya. By mabait, ibig sabihin hindi nagagalit kaya pwede na. Pero, I still don't like her.

Physics. By far, ito na ang subject na favorite ko. Ayoko nung teacher at all. But, I like the subject so ayos na ako dun.

Ang aming mga Health Care teachers ay yung so-called "campus heartthrobs". Si Sir Mes and Sir Sig (na-crush ko dati). Okay lang silang teachers. I mean I have to like them dahil 5 units ang subject na 'to. Pero, I still don't like them but I don't hate them. Civil.Gusto ko yung subject. Interesting but not quite.

Lab teacher for Microbio is okay. Pero, ang hirap magpa-test. Imagine, first quiz ay over 70! Grr! Pero okay na din compared sa Lec teacher namin! Ohh, that Ms. Dotimas! Grr! Embodiment of the worst teacher. Actually, wala naman siyang ginagawang masama pero, there's something about her that makes you not like her. Ewan ko! Basta! Ayoko sa kanya. As in!

Mga Buntis
Na-shock ako nung ibalita sa amin na 3 of our batchmates got pregnant. I thought that those things only happen to stupid people. Turns out, my batchmates are stupid. Grabe! Hello?!?! I mean, high school pa lang ay tinuturo na ang condoms and pills. At ngayong college, tinuro din yan - Anatomy and Health Care. Ewan ko kung tanga lang sila o sadyang hindi nakikinig sa mga guro nila. Grr! Dang it! Stupid! O, paano na yan? You make your decisions live with it. Nakaka-frustrate!

Malapit na ang Pasko! Merry Christmas!

This is my final day to do whatever I want to. Gosh! Dang it! Ding ding ding ding... School's tomorrow. I am so not ready. I don't think that I will ever be ready for school. Sheesh!

I still want to be an Architect or an Interior Designer or a Fashion Designer. I still want to study in a university. But, I think that GOD has already given me the sign that I am so destined to become a nurse. I don't know. I could have failed last sem but by God's grace, He didn't let me. Or, I didn't want to be a failure. I don't want to be a failure that's why, I sort of studied. Well, I couldn't say for a fact that being a Nurse is what I am destined to be. If I had the power to change that, oh, I would. I definitely would. But for now, I'll just go wherever my mistakes, and my decisions take me.

Sometimes, I get tired of accepting the way things are. Sometimes, I get tired of attributing everything as God's divine plan for me. Its hard to feel helpless. You think you're strong enough to handle the problems, but then there's something bigger out there that is way too powerful, you just give up everything and let HIM make things happen.

Do I make sense?

Anyway, I had a good cry last night. A very good cry. I cried about a lot of things. I cried because I still don't want to go to school (which is not a good reason to cry, really). I cried because I felt stupid, irresponsible, stupid, ugly, supid, cruel, mean. The way I felt is comparable to what a trash might feel when she's been thrown out. I feel like a used candle. After shining brightly, giving light to those in need - after being someone of use, I already lost the light I had. My wax has finally melted, the wick has burned up. I am no candle anymore. I burned into nothingness.

I am so evil at times, I don't even recognize myself.

To other things.

Here is a copy of my grades. My GPA is 1.70. I am so not proud of my Anatomy grades. I know I could've done better with Anatomy. But then again...

PE103 (Swimming) - 1.50
CS101 (Computer) - 1.25
SOCIO102 (Socio and Anthropology) - 1.50
HAP111 (Anatomy) - 2.75
HC101 (Health Care) - 1.25

Sayang hindi na ako DL may discount pa naman sa tuition fee.

And here is my new schedule.

Mondays and Thursdays
1130 - 100 MicrobioLec
200 - 400 MicrobioLab
430 - 700 Physics and Trigo

Tuesdays
800 - 1000 PE (Team Sports)

Wednesdays and Saturdays
900 - 1030 SHE100 ( I have no idea what this is)
1030 - 1200 LIT102 (Philippine Literature! argh!)
130 - 300 HC102Lec
300 - 600 HC102RLE

That schedule pretty sucks! It really sucks! Pweh! Can't my life get any better? I wonder what lies ahead. Somebody help!

By the way, I am planning to change my mode of transportation for this sem. You see, when I was in my first year I had to allot one hour and 30 minutes for my transpo time when riding an FX bound to Cubao. Traffic is horrible in España and Quiapo. Sheesh! But this past sem, I am guilty of spending a lot of money because I wake up late and because of that I need to take a cab which can bring me to school at half the time but 5 times the transpo fee (equal to 100 bucks!). So, what I am going to try is to use the LRT.

First, I'll ride the LRT 1 (the yellow line I think) and go down at Doroteo Jose. That would take me around 10 - 15 minutes and 15 pesos? (I'm not yet sure) And, I'll walk from the LRT 1 Station to the LRT 2 Station., This will take me about 10 minutes because the walkway is so long. This will be a good exercise for me. From there, I'll ride the LRT 2 Station and go down at Cubao. Ride a jeepney to E. Rodriguez. Voila! My estimated transpo time: 35 - 45 minutes. Extimated transpo fee: around 50 pesos

Jeez! I am tired of writing about it. Do you think that this is a good idea? I don't know. I may have to rely on the good ol' cabs!

Ayoko pang mag-end ang sembreak! Nooooooo! Please not yet. This is so unfair. I'm not yet bored. Besides, I have thiscared. I only know around 7 people in my block. Screw that enrollment! Sheesh. Argh...

This is my current favorite song.

Because of You
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Si Papu ay nandito na! Hehe. Kararating lang niya from Spain - I think. Woohoo!

We were expecting him this week but we didn't expect him to arrive early morning. Oh, well. Anyway, he noticeably lost a lot of weight whereas, I have remained my old, fat, gorgeous me. He emphasized that he was busy working. Hehe. Halata naman.

Pasalubong! Weh! Wala naman masyado. Chocolates. DigiCam (na hindi ko ma-install yung software). Sweater (as if my snow dito). D&G Parfum Light Blue (mabango).

Astig.

I'm just glad he's back. And safe. And gwapo. Hehe.

I'm back.

I finished reading Arthur Golden's Memoirs of a Geisha. Grabe! I never hated a character from a book until this novel! How I hate Hatsumomo. If you ever saw Princess Sarah (the cartoons in ABSCBN), you'll definitely think that Hatsumomo is the twin sister of Lavinia. Argh! What an envious, self-centered biatch!

I like the story. Its very telenevola-ish but with a punch of refinement and culture. I love how Golden describes the kimonos worn by the geishas. But, I don't like the last 5 chapters. It was quite boring.

The story made me look at geishas on a different light. Now, when I see one I'd look at them with respect. Sayuri is such a lovable hero. Hay!

If in case you haven't read this book, it would be worth buying.

Rating: 8.7 out of 10