Lord, what is the reason behind what happened today? Why did you let that happen? What do you want to teach us from that tragedy?

In case you're hiding under a man hole and don't have a tv, you probably won't know that around 70 people died today from a stampede in Phil. Sports Arena a.k.a. Ultra in their hopes of winning something from the first Anniversary of Wowowee.

I was on my way to school when I heard about that tragic news. During that time, only 20 people were reportedly dead on the scene due to the stampede. I thought that was the end of the deaths but boy, was I wrong! Twenty people is tragic. Seventy is devastating.

God, I can't explain how depressed I am feeling right now.

Those people waited for almost all of their lives just to get a chance to win something. They hoped for a life-changing moment. And, I guess, that's what they got.

I just feel so depressed. Depressed as in, my-heart-is-bleeding-figuratively kind of depression. Why Lord, did you let this happen? Help us find the reason why? Are you testing the people behind Wowowee? Gosh, what is the reason?

This is so frustrating. Argh...

I love watching Wowowee. I find it very... entertaining... and charitable. Although, I get irritated by some of Willie's green jokes (which, I personally think have been mild compared to what he's done before), I really find the spirit of sharing and giving very much alive in their show. Its very inspiring to see the 'richer' Filipinos give a little of what they have to the unfortunate Filipinos. The TFC subscribers giving dollars without hesitation is so inspiring. The contestants just asking for what they need and not asking for more is... Inspiring.

The show has inspired me to want less and give more.

And, of course, eventhough the network hypes their goal of giving to the poor (which I sometimes find annoying), I don't mind. Both networks (ABS CBN and GMA) do the same. They act as if they are the only ones who should help other people. Puh-leez. Can we just get along?

Another related story...

On my way home tonight, the people inside the FX were talking about the tragedy in Ultra. What pissed me off was what the lady said. It was bashing the show. I mean saying negative things about it. In my mind, I was like, " Tumigil ka na nga. Buti nga tinutulungan yung mga mas mahihirap." If I were out of my mind, I would have gone ballistic and shouted at her. Jeez!

Can we just get along?

Pwede tama na ang network war? Kasi, kung hindi dahil diyan hindi naman i-eexploit ng both networks ang poverty ng mga Pilipino.

I feel bad. So bad talaga. Hindi ko ma-explain. I feel bad for ABS CBN because they should've known better how to handle a great deal of people. I feel bad for the people behind Wowowee because all they wanted was to help (and, of course, win the ratings war), but their intention was not enough to save lives. I feel bad for Willie because... I just feel bad for everyone.

All I can do is write about it and pray for everyone.

This is so disheartening. I am crying right now.