Its been ages since my last entry. And, a lot of things happened. Many things. Things... I'll probably never forget. And, of course, things I'd like to forget.

Lapit na ang bakasyon... Ma-uupdate ko din ito... Super busy lang talaga sa school...

You Are Most Like Carrie!

You're quirky, flirty, and every guy's perfect first date.But can the guy in question live up to your romantic ideal?It's tough for you to find the right match - you're more than a little picky.Never fear... You've got a great group of friends and a great closet of clothes, no matter what! Romantic prediction: You'll fall for someone this year... Totally different from any guy you've dated.

Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You?

You Should Be a Romance Novelist

You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart. You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer... And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories. As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details. An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

What's" Your Thinking Style?

What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Assist in major operations such as nephrectomy, cholecystectomy, laparascopic cholecystectomy.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Nope. I still have the list. And, boy, I was good at failing this year.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope.

Did anyone close to you die?
Thank GOD - none!

What countries did you visit?
Argh... Err... I was stuck here in the Philippines!

What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Determination, optimism, and uh, more money - I guess.

What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Hmm.... Probably, December 22 and 19. Hehe... The reason is safe with me! Bleh! :-p

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I really can't think of any. Oh, the fact that I am now in my 3rd year! Yeah. That IS an achievement. Nursing's tough!

What was your biggest failure?
I didn't win my battle against bulge, overspending, laziness.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Illness. I was sick most of the time this year. I've been plagued by fever and cough and colds.

What was the best thing you bought?
The best thing I bought this year was my new BIBLE.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Definitely my sister. She's very focused this year.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Myself.

Where did most of your money go?
I don't want to know. For real.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Hmm... That time when I was supposed to * and then he * but then he * and he * so I felt so much better. Oh, and there was this time when he * and I said no but he * and then I *. Hay... I really got excited with...

What song(s) will always remind you of 2006?
Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? -- fatter
iii. richer or poorer? -- poorer; yeah, this year quite sucked!

What do you wish you'd done more?
Read.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Buy. Eat.

How many one-night stands?
None. Never will.

What was your favorite TV program?
Prison Break. One Tree Hill. Survivor.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yeah.

What was the best book you read?
I only read like 2 books this year. One, The Bridges of Madison County. Two, hmm... Make that one book. I didn't like this book. So, no good books this year.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Wreckers.

What did you want and get?
Thanks to Arjei, Rocel, and Kenneth. I got Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro, Grey's Anatomy OST for Season 2, and Prison Break DVDs (Pirated) and Ferrero Rocher.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Well, this year was my first time to ever watch Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. I love this movie!

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
It was my 18th birthday. Went to RedBox and drank Margarita.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Watching a concert. Finishing my PRC sheets.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Hmm... I don't have a personal fashion concept. But, I really loved browsing magazines and loved haute couture.

What kept you sane?
Probably, music.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Wentworth Miller, Jason Lewis, Yul Kwon.

What political issue stirred you the most?
The rape issue between Daniel Smith and that Nicole.

Who did you miss?
Mama! Papa!

Who was the best new person you met?
Health Team!

The most touching experience you've had this year?
Hmm... Wala...

What did you like most about yourself this year?
Wala talaga.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
Everything, I guess.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
You're not alone together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand...

Was 2006 a good year for you?
Let's say it was half full...

What was your favorite moment of the year?
December 19 and 22

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Hmm... I don't know.

Where were you when 2006 began?
Sa bahay lang..

Who were you with?
Yaya, Kamille, Papa.

Where will you be when 2006 ends?
Sa bahay lang din.

Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
It remains to be seen.

Do you have a new years resolution for 2007?
A lot

Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2006?
Yeah. Relative to the other 17 years of my existence.

Do a lot of drugs in 2006?
Nope.

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Yeah.

How much money did you spend in 2006?
Stop the money questions!

What was your proudest moment of 2006?
Enrolling for 3rd year. Capping and Pinning Ceremony.

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
OMG. That VGH incident.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
I should've controlled my spending.

What are your plans for 2007?
A lot. I'll think about it.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I have a lot of realizations. I am more overwhelmed with my deficiencies now, more than ever! Lowest point.

What are your wishes for the new year?
May this year be about achieveing my goals, giving back to the world, and being a better Christian.

I had a bad dream again...

Anyway, belated happy birthday to Jesus Christ...

Happy New Year later...

And, uh... I have a lot of things to do... Argh...

New Year.... But somethings never change...

This terrifies me
Every single part
They are burning and fearing
All at the same time

It doesn't stop
This plague I'm experiencing
It's all too overwhelming
I think I'm drowning

The worst part is not over
I just saw a prelude
My dreams, could they really tell
Or is it just my mind playing

The hardest part?
I might say goodbye
Without even beginning to tell
what I truly feel inside

But maybe its better
Or, it really IS best this way
So, that dream won't come true
Because I really won't let it

LORD, take this fear from me
Its just, well, too much
Its a little 'too' of everything
Too scary, too confusing, too complicated

What happens next?
What'll I do?
What could become of me?
Who am I right now?
I don't know.

Another 4 day vacay, and I still am not productive. Well, except for the good news of renewing my commitment to HIM, my saviour.

Anyway, this is so typical of me. Laying around like a pig, eating, and sleeping. Watching tv all day. Argh... I just hate this...

I loved that Candice is out of Survivor. I don't like her. And, the tribal council is like the worst tribal council ever! All of them are illogical, irrational, and stupid. Argh... I hope that Yul and Ozzy are in the final two. Or, Yul and Becky. Actually, I just like Yul to win this season. He's smart and played the game well. I am just happy that Candice got voted out.

Of all the reality shows that I am watching right now, Survivor is the only show that jived with what I wanted to happen. Did that make sense?

Okay.

I have my Starbucks organizer. Woohoo... After all 21 fraps! Finally!

I only need to buy 3 more beverages from their holiday menu, and I'll have my very own Starbucks organizer... Woohoo! I am excited.

We took our finals for Hema this morning. It was definitely hard. I read the handouts and it wasn't enough. I am pretty sure that I am going to fail but, by GOD's grace... I know I'll pass.... Hay...

Gagawa na ako ng wish list ko... Hehe...

Ciao...

And the game changes...

Survivor has gotten better. Somehow, Aitu has the power over the whole tribe. And, of course, Jonathan also has a slight power to change things. Haa... I love this show. The bluffing, the deception. Its pretty much like our everyday lives - only, it is shown on the tv and emotions are exaggerated and magnified. I hope that Yul and Ozzy are in the final two.

Hay...

See... Here's the deal. I hope that Yul recognizes the fact that somehow he made a mistake by showing th hidden immunity idol to Jonathan. I mean, that guy could use it against him. But, looks like from a preview next week, Jonathan is siding with Aitu for now. I hope that any Aitu member should win the next immunity challenge. And, they should vote for Adam. Then, Candice. Then, Parvati. And, when there are 5, which hopefully would be Jonathan, Yul, Ozzy, Becky, and Sundra... Well, that's a new playing field. The four Aitu members would be scrambling to get Jonathan to their side because they will stand a greater chance to win the million bucks at the finals if the were with the bad guy - Jonathan... But, it would be nice if the final four were the Aitu members.

Grabe!

If I had a Tired Scale of 1 to 10, my rating would be a 20. I am that tired.

See, this is my very first time to scrub in for a major surgery. I scrubbed in for a Radical Nephrectomy. This patient has a tumor near his kidneys and they had to remove it. this operation took a long time. The surgery started around 9 in the morning and it was finished at 3 in the afternoon. This means that I stood up for 6 hours straight without any breaks - even bathroom breaks. It was tiring! As in. But, the good thing though is that by GOD's grace the surgeons were able to successfully remove the tumor. There was even a time during the whole surgery when I thought that the patient wasn't going to make it because I kept on hearing that there was a bleeder.

Surgery is so intense. I would love to be a surgeon and have that adrenaline and that intensity. Surgeons... Ah... There are a handful of good-looking surgeons. And, I happen to bump into one of these good ones, a lot.

Maybe I am exaggerating and ignoring the fact that St. Luke's is a place where doctors work and student nurses get a taste of what it is to be a nurse. And, it is not very far from possible that doctors and student nurses would bump into each other. But a girl can dream, right?

See, every single time that I have my duty in St. Luke's, I always see this doctor. I don't know his name. But, what the heck? The first time that I saw him was in OPD. I was assigned in the HEENT section of the OPD, and there he is. Well, I also saw this cute intern there. But, he stood out because he looks so matured and smart and he IS very attractive. Next, in Annex III. It wasn't really the assigned area for me but because our group got dissolved, I was asigned there. In one of the days that I was there, I saw him again. Hmm... Gwapo talaga. And then, now! He was having a surgery. Oh, gosh. Gwapo talaga. Astig. Hay, my very own McDreamy.



A very long surgery is tiring.

Aitu did it again. Woohoo! I just love it when underdogs win. Go Aitu! But, Jenny was voted out in a surprising second elimination. Didn't like her though, so no big deal. Now, that they are already 5 persons in Raro, its time to break the Rob and Amberish thing going on between Candice and this other guy. Time to vote off that other guy. Parvati and this black guy should align theirselves with Jonathan. Its time to cut the head off that Alex guy. I think his name is Alex.

Anyone from the Aitu tribe wins. Will there be a merge? Not yet, I hope. The Aitu tribe should continuously win the challenges. Please.

Speaking of winning, I pray that Pacquiao wins today!

Umm... on the other hand, I've wasted another 3 days of doing nothing. Thanks to my laziness I am cramming once again to get things done today. I never learn! Help!

This just sucks! I can't believe that the team I'm rooting for - Ernie and Jeena of The Amazing Race Asia is already out of the competition. This just sucks! Those Indian models got lucky. Crap! It would've been great if the two Filipino teams were two of the three remaining teams to race till the end. Crap! I guess I would now be Aubrey and Jacq's fans. Go Team Pinoy!

The Amazing Race Asia
I was disappointed when I saw the pilot episode of TARA last Thursday. It was not as exciting as the original version. The only reason the had me glued to the TV is the fact there were 2 Filipino teams who are part of the reality show. As in! Nakaka-disappoint talaga. Anyway, I'll still watch the show because Ernie and Jeena, and Aubrey and Jacq is still there. Hehe...

Survivor
I loved what happened yesterday. Woohoo... Galing ng Aitu... In spite of the fact they were just 4 people in the tribe and Jonathan and Kandice left them they stillwon both the Reward Challenge and the Immunity. Loved it! Super duper loved it! Talk about Karma... Sayang sana si Jonathan na lang ang tinanggal ng Raro kahapon. I would love to see that the top 3 will be an all Asian tribe... Hehe... Mag-memerge na kaya next week?

CDs Galore
I have 3 new acquisitions. The 3 CDs are Switchfoot's The Beautiful Letdown, Sheryl Crow's Very Best CD, and The Wreckers' Stand Still, Look Pretty. Loved the 3 cds. Ganda ng mga kanta. My favorite so far is the song Cigarettes by The Wreckers.

One Tree Hill
Nasa season 3 na ako ng OTH. Hay... Ang daming gwapo sa show na 'to!

Wouldn't it be nice if I had 89 million pesos? Wow. That'd be great! Its just that I could give the gifts that I really think my friends and family would really love. Its just that whenever I think of a person and I think of the best gift I'd give them, I always think that because of money constraints I couldn't give them what I really want to give them... Do I make sense?

Anyway, today's the last day of sembreak. This sucks! I still don't want to go back to school. It would be great if there will be an extension. Like, a one week extension. I still have a lot of things to do - eat, sleep, watch tv, eat, sleep. Hehe... No, seriously. I still have to organize my files on the PC. I also want to re-type all my handouts so that they could be filed in an organized manner. I want everything to be filed according to subject. I want them to be color coded. I am OC. Hehe... I can't help it.

I am loving One Tree Hill. I love Hilarie Burton. I like her character - Peyton! Hay. Daming cuties! Cute boy... alert! (In Mojo jojo's sound effect...)

Hmm... I miss... Hay... Sobra!

I've been having dreams lately. They involve a lot of unbelievable scenes but I do hope that some of them come true. Oh, well...

Lapit na Pasko. Regalo ko.

Siya nga pala, I bought 3 cds today. Switchfoot, The Wreckers, and Sheryl Crow. Take note: orig yan. Hehe... Proud ako sa mga original na gamit ko. Hehe. I'll listen to it today. And, I'll give you my rating. As if!

Gusto ko na ng bagong lay-out!!! Patulong.

I just got home from shopping. Well, not the kind of shopping that Carrie Bradshaw does. Shopping, as in scouting for clothes that I'd wear for the holidays, going to National Bookstore, buying some books from the C&E Bookshop. Well, actually, I may have gone shopping like Carrie because I've spent over 8,000 bucks today for all those things. And, I am not done yet with my shopping list. Unlike Carrie who buys shoes and clothes, I shop for books and more books and a little clothing on the side.

I can't believe that in a span of 4 hours, a person could spend so much. Argh... I wish I had more money.

My mom sort of hired me to be her personal shopper. She has this birthday she had to attend to this November and she wanted a top. Since, clothing are expensive abroad, she thinks that she could get more from her money by letting me buy clothes for her here in the Philippines. I think that her idea is great especially now that I am on a break from school stuff. See, the problem is she has no definite idea on what she would like to wear. She is also torn on whether she would rather buy a top or she would have it made just for her.

I went to look for the perfect top for her. I was thinking that she should have a metallic blue green baby doll top then she should have an obi tied aroud her waist. Then, she could pair it off with her most flattering pants. I was also thinking that since its winter, she could go for a more wintery clothing. Like, a baby pink shirt or a purple shirt then with a white knit coat and a funky belt. My mom... she likes to feel young.

So, I was in Glorietta. I went to Marks & Spencer and saw very promising pieces for my mom and me... Oh, and by the way, I bought two cute undies from M&S. I like them a lot. They're pink. Anyway, the problem with M&S is that they are uber expensive. They carry clothes that have my size and are super cute and are uber expensive, as well. Argh...

Times like these make me wish that I won the lottery so I could literally shop till I drop.

I also went to several shops - Cinderella, U2, Sari-Sari, etc. They showed nice clothes but, I am not quite sure whether they are the ones that my mom would approve. And besides, she has not given me any money to fund this clothing churva. Money down muna!

I am becoming kikay. As in! Super! I have outgrown my Candy days and I am now a certified Preview, Mega, and InStyle femme. Love it! Ito na ba ang epekto ng panonood ng America's next Top Model at ng Project Runway...

Oh, and by the way, sabi ni Rocel maganda daw ang One Tree HIll. Now, I am torned. Which is which ba talaga? Original Friends DVD Season 1 or One Tree Hill Season 1 Pirated?

Omigosh, I can't believe it. I am visiting Beauty Bar and checking out DuWop's products. Gosh. They are so expensive... And, by any chance, does anybody know where I could buy L'oreal Vive Pro? My hair is so unruly... I always have a bad hair day...

I am becoming one of them. I was dreading this. I don't want to be like them. Or, does every girl come to a point and become one? Then, after this crossroad, she discovers her true self and settle for that true, found self. I hope I find my true self. Stat!

I've seen the first season of Prison Break. And, I've finished watching the whole Sex and the City series. And, boy were they great!

I love Sex and the City. I love the four girls - Carrie, Miranda, Samantha, Charlotte. I'd like to think that I find something in them that is very much like me. I love Carrie. I love the way Carrie writes. Its very candid. Love 'em all. Too bad they had to end it. I swear they could have survived 10 seasons. The writing is very smart. They are funny. Not only that, they also make you think about your life, relationships, friendships, etc.

My favorite episode in the show was when Smith Jerrod (Jason Lewis) was shut out by Samantha Jones (Kim Cattrall) in a party. Samantha joined her ex-beau, Richard and went up to his hotel room and had sex. Samantha didn't enjoy the sex and she went down the elevator feeling really down. When the elevator door opened, Smith was still there. He said something like this, "I'd like to make sure that you get to your home safe."

Ahww... That is definitely sweet.

Most of my favorite kilig scenes are the scenes Samantha and Smith had.

There's this another episode that I really enjoyed. Its the episode where Samantha and Smith were walking on the sidewalk. And then, Smith was reaching for Samantha's hand. But, the cynic in Samantha refused to hold Smith's hand which caused her to fall flat on her butt. By the end of the episode, Smith couldn't take that Samantha is so... so... weird about holding hands so, he said something like this, "Samantha, stop that effing shit and just let me hold your hand."

Here's the recap of that episode from the HBO site:

Smith and Samantha's relationship hits an odd plateau when the actor tries to take Sam's hand as they're walking down the street. Samantha is so eager to refrain from the PDA that she actually trips and falls down an open hatch on the sidewalk. Smith isn't having any of this, telling Samantha in no uncertain terms that he loves her, and wants to be able to express his feelings. Samantha grudingly accepts, realizing that maybe a little hand-holding isn't so bad after all.

Ahww... Samantha has a great guy with him! Hay... Kaloka...

Then, another episode that really touched me was when Smith decided to shave his gorgeous hair for Samantha. The gal was diagnosed with cancer and the hair loss was bothering her (y'know because of chemo). So, she decided to liberate herself from that effing emotional burden of cancer and decided to shave her hair. Smith found her in the bathroom and decided to shave his hair so that Samantha wouldn't feel bad about losing her hair. Samantha said, "Your hair is your thing..." But, Smith dismissed Samantha's comment and shaved his hair. This is episode 90 entitled Out of the Frying Pan.

Ahww... Super duper sweet!

I love him na!

I love the love story of Smith and Samantha! Its even better than what Carrie and Big had. Hay, super romantic!

Prison Break naman...

I love Wentworth Miller. The concept of the series is sort of new. Its a break to all the medical stuff I've been seeing. Its an Alias kind of show with a bit of 24. And, Michael Scoffield (Wentworth's character) is not the usual CIA agent, doctor, attorney. He is a Structural Engineer turned Prisoner. Hay... Gorgeous!

The show's pacing sometimes bores me but, with Wentworth Miller on the screen - it's hard not to watch. Actually, the show itself is only a 75% for me but, I really like Wentworth Miller!I really find the government controversy in the series a bit of confusing. I also find some characters irritating and I think some characters are not really needed. I think that the casting is poor except for the prisoners and of course, Wentworth Miller.

I love saying his name. Wentworth MIller.

I am pissed because I haven't seen any episode of The Amazing Race 10. Oh, well. I am more excited about the Asia version of The Amazing Race. Not because Aubrey Miles is there but because I think Allan Wu is so gorgeous. Haha... And, because another Filipino team is there.

It is technically sem break but, my sem break doesn't start until I finish the grand case presentation revision. I hope to finish it by tomorrow. I have a lot of things that I want to do this break. I want to have a lot of sleep and rest. I need it badly. I terribly need it. Argh...

I want to learn tennis. I want to learn how to play the guitar...

This is my best take on bisaya...

LORD, daghang salamat kaayo kay na-pass ko gid ang aku-ang mga concepts sa nursing. Salamat gyud...

I really meant what I said. But, I sound blah...

Hehe...

Thanks and praise be to GOD talaga. Akala ko talaga ay mag-reremovals ako. Salamat talaga.

Naranasan niyo na ba yung panahon... yung panahon na talagang nasasaktan ka na... yung panahon na talagang damang-dama mo na sobra-sobra na lahat yung problema mo... yung panahon na gustung-gusto mo ng ma-iyak... pero, hindi ka maiyak?

Pinipilit mo yung sarili mo na maiyak. Umaarte ka. Nag-fifeeling ka na artista at pinipilit mong lumuha. May tumulo nga pero peke naman. Hindi siya tunay na mga luha. Yun yung mga iyak na hininog sa pilit. Yun yung mga iyak na hindi ka maka-konek.

Ang hirap kapag hindi ka maka-iyak. Mahirap talaga. Lalo na kapag ganyan at parang sasabog na yung puso mo sa samu't-saring lebel ng emosyon. Galit. Inis. Pagkabigo. Sakit. Pagkamuhi. Pagka-pagod. Pagsasawa. Basta! Yung mga masasakit na emosyon. Yung mga nakakaiyak dapat.

Ang dami kong nararamdaman ngayon. Madami talaga. Iba-iba. Sari-sari. Different, sa ingles. Di ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula.

Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako maka-iyak. Bwisit!

Milenyo is a good for nothing typhoon. Without power, how am I supposed to finish the things that I should be doing? And, you've caused a lot of damaged homes, fallen trees, broken dreams. Ang daming casualties. Pweh!

So, ngayon, mag-ccram na naman ako dahil ngayon lang kami nagka-ilaw. Hay naku!

Kaasar!