Hay...

Case Presentations are a pain in the ass. Although I really find them interesting and although I enjoy making them, it really does get to me sometimes. I sometimes find myself staring at the monitor blankly because the pressure is just too much. But, I really learn a lot from making this sort of stuff. I just hope I had more books which I could use. Unfortunately, my books are limited. Library is an option but - nah! Never mind.

How can something that you really enjoy doing be such a pain in the butt? You love what you're doing yet, you find yourself staring blankly at something and realize that this is just too much. There are a lot of things that you could do but, you end up following what you like and even though its causing you so much pain, you just do it... Stupid!

I have drank my first San Mig Light last night. I wasn't forced, really. Not that forced. Okay. I felt forced but, I gave in. So, the guilt is all on me. Too much drinking is bad. I only had several sips. And, I am a responsible drinker. Didn't like the taste of the beer. Nasty! For me, ha. I still like Margaritas.

I have slurry speech today... Could this be a hang-over? Whatev.

I am really guilty. I told my mom about it. She said she trusted me and that I know what is right from wrong. Hmm...

Hay... What is happening?

Bought 2 CDs yesterday - the APO Cd, and the One Tree Hill Vol. 1 OST. I love the One Tree Hill CD. My fave song is Track 13 - The First Cut is the Deepest by Sheryl Crow. I love the song. Should I say, can relate ako. Hehe. Whatev.

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What is it? I am naive. I am in quiet desperation. I am concealed. Yet, transparent. Hmm... When the stars go blue... Where do I go when I am lonely?

The tears that I can't cry out are the most painful tears.

Its been quite a while. Its been hard. Its making me crazy. You are making me crazy. I can't sleep. I wake up thinking of you. Damn it! You inspire me. I want to be better. I am in pain. I don't know. This is bullsh*t! I hate this. I so want to give this up. But, I won't. I can't. My head's turning. So fast. My thoughts are this and you. And you and this. This makes me feel sick. I want to be better. But, its as if I'm crumbling. I am crumbling. I am crumbling and I hate myself for letting you make me crumble. Like cookies. This thing, it can't stop moving. This sensation and feeling is so overwhelming. Crying myself to sleep is not working. Studying makes it even worse. Ring the alarm! Code Red. Code Black. You have got to call a code. I am confused. Confused. In circles. Everything. I am in circles. My thoughts are running around. I want to be better but I am crumbling. Argh... I feel crappy. I am very much in crap...

I am so tired.I'm tired and I haven't even done half of what I'm supposed to do. Argh... Can this get any worse?

There are a lot of over due projects. A lot of case presentations. A lot fo things to do. I don't hink that even if I am awake for the whole week, I will be able to do anything. Argh...

I need to finish everything...

Hay!

And, I might flunk OR, Labor and Fluids. BUt, GOD willing, that will not happen...

Hay.... May duty pa ngayon.... I hope we get dismissed early...

Alrighty... I better get back to work...

And, by the way, I have two new crushes... The first one is Zeus Balasico (?) and the other is ahem... secret... Hehe...

Hay....

I love Sex and the City. I love all its episodes... Got to see Seasons 1 - 3 already. I will finish it on the next 2 weeks. Four more seasons. Then, I'm off to watching Friends/Scrubs.

I hope Grey's Anatomy, LOST, Dr. House will all be shown in studio 23 starting this month with their new episodes.

Hay... excited to see Dr. Presto Burke.

DISCLAIMER: If you are part of batch Insignis, don't read this if you are too narrow-minded. This is a very subjective view of all the things that happened. And, besides, this is a diary - although published - it is still personal.

This was such an exhilirating day! Whew! Loved it!

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate batch MAGIS for winning the Talents Unlimited by a landslide. Hinakot niyo ang lahat ng awards! Galing! Proud to be a part of batch Magis. Second, I also would like to congratulate batch CENTENNIALES for being the over-all champions for this SNA Days. You guys deserved it. Umm... I could be a biatch and ignore the other batch, but see, I am not like that. So, to the sophomores, congratulations too. Talaga namang pinakita niyo sa amin na you are very much willing to work hard for everything. Ipinakita niyo sa amin ang inyong determination. Congrats!!!

If you still remember, mga around this season, ay naganap din ang SNA Days. At, that time super naasar kami sa batch Centenniales dahil ipinagmayabang nila yung Blue and White uniform nila. Sad to say, I have to admit kaming batch Magis ay nagyabang din. Gusto ko sanang gumamit ng mga defense mechanism at sabihin na ginawa lang namin yun dahil medyo nabastusan kami sa mga Insignis at nag-retaliate lang kami, pero I won't. I know that what we did was wrong. So, sorry for that. We shouldn't have done it. It was such in bad taste. But, nevertheless, nagawa na yun at ika nga, the damage has been done. Although we can't take it back, we apologize. I apologize.

Magis and Centenniales are tight. We are friends. We played several games but we didn't fight over it. We played fair. We did it for camaraderie and friendship building.

Hmm... I have a lot of ideas, thoughts, etc. I don't know where to start. Halos isang week din yung dapat na-ikwento ko.

Simula sa umpisa.

Hmm...

Opening of SNA Days
The opening, as usual, starts with the parade of the batches. First up, batch Insignis (Remarkable yata yung meaning, I'm not sure). Their batch color is purple. I love the color. Cute din yung mga jersey ng volleyball players nila. Tapos, yung batch name nila ay naka-print sa shirts nila as an ambigram. Asteg nga, eh. Syempre pa, sakop nila yung buong center bleachers dail ang laki ng population nila, eh. Tapos, may churva pa sila na cardboard na may purple stuff on it, tapos instead of pompoms or balloons, yun ang ginamit nila para sa pag-cheer. Cute but corny kasi super rehearsed yung dating nila. Hindi na spontaneous. Pero, syempre ang effort dun ay di mo naman makaka-ila. Gwapo ang escort. Di ko nakita yung muse.

Second, batch Magis. Pink power! Pangit yung uniform ng mga cheerdancers kasi yung pagka-pink nun ay Stabilo Boss kind of pink. Shocking kung shocking. Pweh. Pangit yung color. Pero, di pangit ang mga taong nag-susuot. Special shout out to my bestieh Choi and Mia, Jay-ar, Belle, Arman, Mara. Galing niyo guys!!! Proud to be your friend and bestieh!!! Syempre, dahil walang pondo ang batch namin na kuntento na kami sa pink na flaglets, mangilan-ngilan na pink balloons at mga sariling gawang banner. Yun na. Yun lang. Wala kaming 1.2 million na pondo. Mahirap. Hehe... Pretty ang muse namin. Si Janice. Hehe. Cutie naman ang escort namin. Si numero singko - Robbie.

Third, batch Centenniales. Ang walang kamatayang blue na batch color. Hay. Medyo sosyalin kasi may mga balloons sila na madami. Hehe... Daming cute sa kanila. Hehe... :-) Kakakilig. Grabe!!! Hmm... The best costume na nakita ko sa lahat ng SNA Days for cheering. Asteg ang costume. Simple pero maganda. Pretty din yung muse nila. Astigin kasi player pa sa volleyball. Manuel yata yung last name. Galeng!!!

Cheering Competition
We sucked. Pangit yung sa Magis. Paano ba naman? Eh, di magkatugma-tugma yung mga sched ng mga cheerdancers. Tapos, yung lech*ng instructor na bayad ng 1000 per session ay di umaattend. Paano kaya yun? Hay... Kung siguro mga 3 practice days pa, kinaya namin sila. Pero, kahit gunun, go Choi, Mia, Belle, Jay-ar, Arman!!! Pretty pa rin.

Second placer ang Insignis. For me, common ang steps. Hindi masyadong complicated. Pero, maayos compared sa amin. Balita nga namin sa may Libis daw sila nag-ppractice. Correct me if I'm wrong. I don't know where the hell Libis is. I don't go out kasi. Meron bang pwedeng pag-praktisan dun? What-ev. Corny yung concept nila sa umpisa. Parang pang-sabayang pagbigkas lang. The costumes could have been better. Pero, I still love the color purple.

First place, Centenniales. Hands down. Maayos. MAy dating. May hatak. May energy. Although, I still believe that Invictus' cheering was still better. Maganda ang concept. Tsaka naghanda din. Napapanood nga namin silang mag-practice pag-gabi. Kasi diba, night shift ako ngayon. Hay... Congrats.

Seniors love Juniors. Juniors love Seniors. Centenniales and Magis SOLID. Hay...

Insignis vs. Magis (Men's Basketball)
Close fight. But Magis prevailed. Super intense ang mga cheerers ng both teams.

Insignis vs. Magis (Men's Volleyball)
Wah na. Dito na chumurva ang lahat. Dito na nag-umpisang mam-boo ang Insignis. Bastusan. PAlitan ng mga hurt ful words. Syempre, it takes two to tango. Kaya we can't blame Insignis for everything. Dapat, hindi na namin pinatulan ang mga ganoong bagay. Ang immature tuloy naming tingnan. Nagsusulat kami sa board. Kampihan ang Centenniales at Magis. Solid kami. Pero, syempre, outnumbered pa rin kami. But, we didn't let that bother us kasi naman walang iwanan sa ere. Cheer nila kami. Cheer din namin sila. Hay....

Siya nga pala, may silent war pa yata sila na chinuchurva. Pagkatapos ng isang game, nag-suot sila ng red ribbons. I was like. What the hell? So, childish. What war? Bakit kami ng Centenniales friends. Argh...

Insignis vs. Centenniales (Men's Volleyball)
Championship ito. Panalo ang Insignis. Clap. Clap. Clap. Panalo. Woohoo. Congrats. Magaling naman kasi sila talaga especially Yancy. Super galing niya. Lupet pumalo ng bola. Pero, in fairness sa Centenniales, nasasalo naman nila ang mga spike ni Yancy. I like Yancy. Galing niya eh. Gusto ko siyang dukutin at isama sa batch namin. Hehe...

Hay...

Galing talaga...

Men's Volleyball Champion

1. Insignis
2. Centenniales
3. Magis

Women's Volleyball Champion

1. Centenniales
2. Magis
3. Insignis

Men's Basketball Champion

1. Centenniales
2. Magis
3. Insignis

Women's BAsketball Champion

1. Centenniales
2. Insignis
3. Magis

Cheering

1. Centenniales
2. Insignis
3. Magis
   

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Talents Unlimited
Solo Champs:

1. Magis
2. Centenniales
3. Insignis

Duet Champs:

1. Magis
2. Insignis
3. Centenniales

Dance Champs:

1. Magis
2. Insignis
3. Centenniales

Gaya-gaya:

1. Magis
2. Insignis
3. Centenniales

Hay....

Gaya-gaya... Ang lupet ng Insignis. May props. Pinagka-gastusan talaga nila. Super prepared sila. Yung ginaya nila is from the MTV Music Awards yata. It was supposed to be Christina Aguilera yata. When I saw their props, I thought it was the end. Kasi bongga yung props pero syempre, nas performance din talaga.

Sino ba sa amin? Eh di ang Pussycat Dolls. Choi, Jay-ar, Vice, and other gays from our batch strut their stuff sa stage. Ang baon lang ay energy at talent. Galeng. Super enjoyable talaga sila. Asteg talaga. Galing nila prumoject. Go Choi!!! Go Jay-ar!!! (My crush kaya lang bading) Go Vice!!! (My crush kaya lang bading din. Mas maganda pa sa akin.) Hehe... Love em....

Hay... Ang dami ko ngayong mga crush... From batch Centenniales ay si basketball guy na si Reyes. From Insignis, yung guy na kumanta sa duet. Hay... Isipin ko muna yung iba..

Thank GOD for this gift. Thank you for you compassion and mercy. You really see the truth but wait. Praise GOD. We lift up this victory to YOU. YOURS is the GLORY, oh Lord. :)