A Series of Sh*tty, Argh..., and Devastating Events

Argh... Double Arghh...

It all started when I had to cook for breakfast. I fried the ever-complicated Tender Juicy Hotdogs (mini). But my sister, only ate about two hotdogs. Two. Grr. This is so childish of me. But that really hurt me. If yaya were here, she would've finished the whole pack. Are my hotdogs different from yaya's?

After that, I went to school for the enrollment. Beth and I met at the gate. Tadah... Tadah... Tadah... Then, Mira, another friend of ours who is a computer genius pulled me away from Beth.

Mira: Alam na ba ni Beth?
Kaye: Ang alin?
Mira: Di ko 'to sure, ah. Kasi sabi ni (somebody, I forgot who)... hindi daw pumasa si Beth sa removals.
Kaye: Ha? Paano yun? Eh, nung tinawagan namin si Timmy sabi niya pumasa si Beth.
Mira: (in a very reassuring manner) Eh, di ko pa naman sure yun.
Kaye: (scanning the nearest bulletin board) Saan ba yung list? (confused and scared)

For a moment, the scared part of me drowned because we finally saw Rocel, Stella (in a colorful dangling earring ensemble), and Iris. We fell in line to get our cards. But, Beth and I noticed that Rocel looked disturbed. We asked her if she was okay. She said whe wasn't. Being the joker that I am, I tried to crack a joke and do something hilarious but, Rocel said, "Seryoso. May problema talaga." Okay, so there really is a problem. I was thinking maybe somebody died or they lost a lot of money. Their house got burned. I was thinking of something tragic.

It was Beth's turn now.

The girl giving the cards: Omigod! Failed ka sa Anatomy.
Kaye: (looking towards Beth, observing her) Huh? (in a very soft voice... looking towards the girl, irritated)
Beth: (she looked disturbed and annoyed, as well)
A friend of the girl: Ano ka ba? Huwag kang mag-joke ng ganyan
The 'Card-giver': (towards her friend) Hindi. Seryoso ako. (towards Beth) Mahirap ba kay Sir Ho?

I thought that the card-giver was joking but after I got my card, and looked at Beth's card. Okay, so she was telling the truth.

Now, why did Timmy tell us that Beth passed? Another thing, why did that card-giver have to say to her friend that my friend failed? Hello? Why did you ever pass HC101 when you seem to not know what confidentiality is? Argh. What a bi*ch! Grr...

I saw Timmy.

Kaye: (in an irritated, sort of joking kind of way) I hate you! Sabi mo pumasa si Beth.
Timmy: Eh -
Iris: Kaye, syempre na-excite din si Tim
Kaye: (mangilid-ngilid ang luha) Tim, sorry

Our block was supposed to enrol at the same time so that, we'd still be blockmates. But, I guess they didn't want us to be their blockmates (okay, this is super childish and unreasonable of me). Rocel, Beth, Iris, Stella, and I are now on section 6 (with a schedule that sucks) and almost all of them are on section 7 (with a schedule that I'm dying to have). Dang it! I feel so stupid. I am so immature. Well, its not their fault, really. Its our fault because we are so 'excited'. Forgive my ranting, I'll miss them kasi, eh.

Argh. ang dami kong kinaaasaran pero wala na naman akong magagawa kung hindi tanggapin.
I saw Tim again and said sorry for how bitchy I was.

Ow-six kami. Ow-seven na sila. Argh. Naaasar pa rin ako. Hmph!

Prior to this day, the five of us decided to go to Gateway and watch a movie, and just enjoy each other's company. But, Iris and Stella once again left the three of us and go their own separate lives. Naaasar ako kasi napag-usapan na. Pero, baka super kailangan talaga nilang pumunta
at may kailangan silang i-attend na importante. So, okay lang.

We rode the jeepney to Cubao. The driver didn't stop at Gateway he stopped at about a block away from Gateway. Its raining today. So, we crossed the street but this guy in his car continued to drive while he saw us crossing the street. So, we stopped and tried to move backward. But being the inconsiderate moron that he is, he drived in a relatively fast pace and passed through a pothole. Guess what? He splattered dirty water on my pants. Argh! Thank you very much. Sobrang, helpful mo. You made my day brighter. Grr...

We ate at Wendy's. Didn't watch a movie. Strolled inside the mall. Went to Lacoste, Rustan's, Mango, Nike, etc. looking like the alalays of some famous star. We looked horrible and filthy. But, we enjoyed each others company. Kaya ayos na din!

I spotted a jeep with a signboard Vito Cruz Mabini H. Plaza. We said our byes. Paid the driver. And thought about Beth's future, and her remaining months with us. I closed my eyes but I am not asleep. Tapos, bigla na lang nagsisi-alisan yung mga pasahero. Kinukuha nila yung
pamasahe nila sa driver.

Kaye: Ano po ang nangyari? Pinupuno po ba nung driver yung jeep?
The guy in front of me: Hindi. Nahuli kasi ng pulis.
Driver: Putang i#a mo! (towards the MMDA officer, i think)

I was so scared. For all I know, the officer might go ballistic! He might shot the driver. And I might get shot. Poof! Dedo na!

Tadah... Tadah... Tadah...

Sa wakas, nakarating na ako ng Harrison Plaza. Pumasok ako sa second home ko, National Bookstore. I bought another book. An addition to my bodega books. (Pero, ngayon I'm excited to read the book) Yung book ay by Marquez yung Love In Time of Cholera. Tama ba yung title?
Sumakay ako sa sidecar. Pagbaba ko, hindi ko alam na sumabit pala yung pants ko sa isang hook or something dun sa sidecar. Psshwwkk! Ayun na nga. Punit ang pantalon.

Naligo ako tapos, nagsulat ako sa notepad ng entry ko para sa blog kasi ginagamit na ni yaya yung phone. Mga 15-20 lines na yung nasusulat ko iglang nag-restart yung computer. Kung mamalasin ka nga naman.

Tawa na lang tayo! Samahan niyo ako.

At eto po ang Series of S.A.D. Events.

To better things...
My sister won something. Most Promising Athlete. Tsaka, champion yung section nila sa intrams.

Prayer kay LORD
I come to you Father God. Cleanse my heart and my mind. Help me to rely on you. Tanggalin niyo po ang anger sa heart ko. Sorry for acting unGodly. Help! You know my deepest desires. Mold me! Love you. Amen.

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.

The Underwear Oracle

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting.You focus on living a quality life.You're not easily impressed with novelty.Yet, you easily impress others.

What's" Your Pizza Personality?

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Laka Kekona

What's" your Hawaiian Name?

Your French Name is:

Roslin Millet

What's" Your French Name?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.You are also giving and kind - a great friend.You are easy going and trusting.However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's" Your Power Color?

One thing that every person who's redesigning his/her blog should know is that one must have a definite plan on what his blog should look like. Argh!

I am so screwed. Argh. I want to change everything that I've done because I sort of don't like my motiff. It's too dull.

I don't know what I want. And, that is what makes this designing thing difficult for me.

I should've taken this more seriously. I should've created a sort of 'design board' or whatever. Grr... I guess, I'll have to start all over again. Or, maybe not. Well, I don't know.

Trivia: Kahapon ko lang nalaman kung paano mag-add ng image sa blog entry ko. Hehe. Sensya na!

i'm still busy about this blog template thingy! got to see bianca gonzales' blog from ala paredes' blog. thanks to leo's blog.

blog. blog. blog.

ang danda danda ng blog ni ala. ang color coordinated. tsaka, sensible writer. artistic pa! asteg noh!

i realized something. i am such a judgmental person. bad! bad!

super busy pa talaga ako. sana maging maayos yung kalabasan nung ginagawa ko. the motiff: sort of peach na medyo light red na ewan. hehe.

This'll be quick!

I never thought that I would be able to sort of 'figure out' how to use Macromedia Fireworks. I was really having a hard time figuring out the how to's of Adobe ImageReady and since Photoshop doesn't work, I decided to try Fireworks instead. Now, I'm addicted! Hehe.

I hope that I'll be able to finish this!

Excited na ako na matapos 'to. Natutuwa ako sa work ko. Very girly - like me!

Good morning!

Aling Cello
Ang mga doughnut ba ng Cello's Doughnuts ay gawa ni Aling Cello? Siguro, kasi nga di ba Cello's doughnuts. Noong pumunta kami two days ago ng aking friend na si Beth at si Arrell sa bahay namin para manood ng The Ring, kami ay dumaan muna sa Cello's. Haay... Ang kulay orange na lugar na yun ay infiltrated ng mga La Sallians or CSB peeps na naghahanap ng masarap at matamis na pagkain. Medyo mahaba yung pila, pero okay lang.

Cello Girl: Ano po order niyo ma'am?
Kaye: Umm, two dozens ng doughnut, assorted tsaka, pillows na may chocoloate dip.
Cello Girl: Ay wala na po kaming pillows.
Kaye: Eh, yung C-shaped doughnuts?
Cello Girl: Wala na rin.
Kaye: Ah, ganun ba? O sige, one dozen of doughnut na lang. Assorted. Tsaka yung mini.

Inabot ang pera. Kinuha ang sukli. Hinihintay ang orange and white boxes.

Kaye: Buti nalang may nag-franchise na ng Cello's dito sa may Vito Cruz. Ang alam ko lang kasi na Cello's ay sa Katipunan. Ang layo!
Cello Girl: Ay, hindi to franchise. Branch po ito. (in a super irritating kind of way)
Kaye: (imitating Toni Gonzaga, to hide my embarassment) Ah, ganun ba. Sorry ha.

Okay. Dun kay Cello Girl, thank you for informing. No thanks din! Buti na lang masarap ang doughnuts niyo! Hehe. I know naman she didn't mean to irritate me. Pero, sige forget nah!

Princess Sarah
Kasalukuyan akong nanonood ng cartoons ng Channel 2. Grabe! I missed this. As in. Na-miss ko si Sarah, ang munting prinsesa.

Bible Words
Please read 1 Timothy 1.

My Being OC
I'm a certified Obsessive Compulsive female. Females are sort of born OC. Tapos OC pa! Super OC na talaga ako. Kaya, for the two weeks na walang klase ay super i-pplan ko ang aking bawat araw. I'm excited.

Where can I buy an organizer na cute, pink, blue, purple, at ang time for the daily sched ay 24 hours? Gusto kong pumunta sa isang Office Warehouse (office warehouse ngza ba?) branch kasi may nabili ang aking friend na si Cari, na close to that description.

Congratulations to 2Nu09!
Thank God! Lahat ng blockmates ko ngayong sem ay pasado! Thank God! As in!

Yesterday, I think 7 or 10 students from our block took the removal exams for Anatomy. They said that the removal exam was easier compared to the Grand Finals (yup, bukod sa Finals na pamatay may Granda Finals na pang-double dead). They were all feeling confident. And they should be! I know they'll pass! Hehe.

The results were posted at around 700 in the evening yesterday. Thank you very much to Timmy for keeping us updated last night sa mga 'whats? whos? and whatevers?' sa school.

Congrats!

My Friend: Charm
Charm. My blockmate first year, first sem (1Nu19). My blockmate first year, second sem (1Nu05). My friend.

Charm, Beth, Aeda, and I got very close on our first year, second sem. The four of us were sort of inseparable. We became close and developed a strong friendship. Why strong? Well, we haven't lost contact with each other even if we had our own sections during summer. And, even if Aeda left for Canada, we were able to maintain that certain bond that we have.

So, what's my point?

Beth told me that Charm took the removal exam. And, yesterday when I asked Timmy if Charm passed, he said that he didn't see Charm's name which implies that Charm didn't pass. Of course, up to now, I haven't confirmed that news. But, I still believe and I am still hoping that she passed.

I'm depressed and I'm hopeful.

The Ring: Japanese Version
I bought two VCDs yesterday - The Ring and Pay It Forward. Finally, napanood ko na ang The Ring! In case you didn't know, I only got to see bits and pieces of the movie sa HBO. Never ko siyang natapos panoorin. Disappointed ako. Di ako natakot! Nakakaasar. Nagulat lang ako dun sa part na hinawakan ni Sadako yung hand nung reporter. Yung well scene. Yun lang.

Books Galore
I bought three books today. Vince's Life by Vince Teves, Memoirs of Geisha by Arthur Golden, and The Client by John Grisham. Three additional books to my long list of Bodega Books (mga librong naka-tengga lang sa shelf).

Here's a list of my Bodega Books, na sana ay mabasa kong lahat ngayong SemBreak:

1. Vince's Life by Vince Teves


2. Memoirs of Geisha by Arthur Golden


3. The Client by John Grisham


4. The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom


5. The Rule of Four by Ian Caldwell and Dustin Thomason


6. Fourteen Love Stories edited by Jose dalisay Jr. and Angelo R. Lacuesta


7. The Parables: Early Vignettes of Heavenly Virtues given by Maharlika 'Aika' Valera


8. The Best of Oprah's What I Know for Sure, a supplement to O, The Oprah Magazine


9. The Heart is a Lonely Hunter by Carson Mc Cullers


10. One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez


11. LORD, Only You Can Change Me by Kay Arthur


12. A Time To Kill by John Grisham


13. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho


14. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen


15. The Rainmaker by John Grisham


16. Along Came a Spider by James Patterson


17. Interview with the Vampire by Anne Rice


18. Feast of All Saints by Anne Rice


19. HTML 5th Edition by Elizabeth Castro


20. Photoshop CS2 by ElaineWeinmann and Peter Lourekas


21. Nation, Self, and Citizenship by Randolf David

Halos lahat yan na start-an ko na dati pero di ko matapos tapos. Partial list pa lang yan. Yung mga libro ko for book reports - wala akong natapos except for Little Prince. Kaloka! Sana matapos ko lahat to. Tulungan niyo akong mag-isip kung anong uunahin ko.

Blog Template
Kasalukuyan akong nag-aaral ng ImageReady (ayaw mag-work ng Photoshop CS2 sa amin). Sana ay mabago ko na ang template ko! Help! Sa mga techie friends ko diyan! Calling!!!

To GOD be the glory!

HAP111 = Hell
This is what you get for taking nursing. Hell. Hell. And, more hell. Thank God, Anatomy is finally over!

Kanina ay pumunta kami sa school para makita kung kami ay part ng mag-reremoval exams bukas sa Ana. The original announcement from the faculty was that they will be posting the names of those that will take the exams. Pero, as expected nagbago ang kanilang isipan (which, I think led to a better idea).

Ang siste. Ang bawat student ay pipila at ibibigay sa kanila ang isang strip of paper with your name on it at isa sa mga letters na ito: Passed, Failed, Removals.

Pagdating ko ng school, medyo konti lang ang tao. Its either ang mga tao ay nagluluksa o nagpaparty.

Marami akong chismis na narinig na medyo konti pa lang ang bumagsak (as of that time). Pero, hindi ako na-comfort ng mga chismis na yun. At, buong umaga up to the point na malaman ko yung judgment sa akin ay 'tachycardic' ako! As in! No joke.

So pumila na nga kami. At ako ay ang huling tao sa pila. Di ko narining at napansin yung mga reactions nung mga taong nauna sa akin kasi nga di ba super kabado ako. Pag abot sa akin nung strip of paper, crinumple ko siya kaagad dahil gusto ko pang ma-torture. So, binigay ko kay Rashid yung paper. Siya ang magaannounce ng aking kapalaran. Of course, alam ko na i-jojoke time niya ako at mag-iinarte siya na bumagsak ako. Umarte nga siya pero ang sinabi niya ay removals ako. Ako naman paniwalang-paniwala. "Okay lang," sabi ko. Tapos bigla ba naman, "Joke lang Kaye. Pasado ka!"

I screamed. As in screamed ha. GRABE! Di ako makapaniwala na pasado ako. At eto pa, naniwala ako sa arte ni Rashid na removals ako. Grabee! Hinug ko si Rashid sa sobrang kagalakan. At dahil sa super absorbed ako sa feeling of gratitude and joy, na-take for granted ko ang feelings ng iba kong friends.

Well, two of my friends ay mag-reremovals. Itago natin sila sa pangalang Iris at Beth.

Si Beth ay super no reaction lang. Pero, si Iris ay nag-shift sa 'im-so-stupid-i-can't-do-anything-right-i'm-bobo-i'm-going-to-quit-school' mode. And that is totally understandable. Kaya si Beth na-NR ay biglang naiyak.

I feel bad for them. Not that mag-reremovals sila but, because sinisisi nila ang sarili nila (especially Iris) kung bakit ganun ang nangyari. All of us (Rashid, Rocel, Stella, Alex, moi) were trying to comfort them pero super na-blanket sila ng depression (which again is totally understandable).

Alam ko that they can do it. I know it! Yan ang plan ni LORD. Syempre! Nagpapapansin si LORD. Gusto NIYA na i-surrender nina Iris and Beth ang lahat ng worries nila.

Beth and Iris, I believe in the two of you. I know you can do it. Kaya niyo yan! Andyan si LORD. Nandito din kami! Always.

Cello's Doughnuts @ Vito Cruz
At last! Hindi ko na kailangang pumunta ng Katipunan para lang makabili ng heavenly doughnuts ng Cello's! Salamat sa nag-franchise. Bukas na bukas ay bibili ako ng pagkaing pampataba mula sa Cello's.

SemBreak
TGIS! Thank God Its SemBreak! Welcome to buhay baboy! Hehe...

Prayer Ko
Lord God, I lift your name on high. My heart is overwhelmed with gratitude. Thank you for all the blessings that you've showered upon us - upon me. Although at times I feel unworthy of your mercy and greatness, I realized that everything that you've given me (all the problems, all the triumphs) are part of leading and living a Christian life.

I'm still a bud. Help me to grow in love with you. Help me to fall in love with you more and more each day. Help me to help others fall in love with you.

By your grace, guidance, and mercy, I know that I will be able to overcome all my struggles. Strengthen me. Enlighten me. Shower me with your wisdom.

I pray, Father GOD, that all of us may be able to pass Nursing, or whatever course we are in. Help us to realize that every bump in the road is just a bump I can leap upon.

That in all things GOD may be glorified!

I just got home from school. Although I want to feel depressed, my being right now is just so numb that I'd rather fool myself to feel happy than to feel nothing at all. Oh well.

The only thing that keeps me going right now, aside from my family and friends is God. God and his promises.

I know everthing will turn out right. I know so. I believe that it will. God promised me. God promised us.

Read James 1.